Chapter 1
me: i don't wanna go back to school. it felt so good not arguing with justin everyday.
stacey: but are you guys okay right now? i mean you guys been fighting a lot lately.
me: i know. i really wanna see him but i know we'll get into a stupid little fight again.
stacey: then talk to him about it.
me: i tried that so much times but he always thinks i'm blaming him for our fights and he gets mad.
stacey: if you guys keep fighting like this, i don't know what to say anymore.
it was the night before we had to go back to school from spring break. i was talking to stacey on the phone asking her who was driving tomorrow and i mentioned justin. it's been eight months since justin moved back and also eight months since me and justin been together. the first two months were perfect but like any normal couple, we got into our fights. we also broke up here and there but nothing big. the longest we stayed broken up was two days. but lately, we've been fighting nonstop. we would start fighting about stuff we usually wouldn't get mad about. having a two week spring break felt good because i had work which helped me stay away from him, and he also had work at starbucks. thank god on my birthday last week, we didn't fight. i would've strangled him for ruining my seventeen birthday. he gave me a new camera and a stuffed bear he made from build-a-bear workshop. we hardly aruged during the break.
stacey: sorry to just ditch or whatever but the boyfriend's calling.
me: okay see you tomorrow.
she hung up on me `cause jerome called her. four months ago, jerome's dad got stationed here and jerome and stacey's been together ever since. i've never seen stacey this happy with a guy before. jerome treats her really good. their four month anniversary is in a week and jerome's been asking me what stacey wants since stacey's been complaining that jerome doesn't listen to her but jerome's just acting. he's been saving money to buy her new nike shoes. i headed to my bathroom but heard my phone ring. i was hoping it was justin but when i dove for my phone on my bed, it was steven.
me: yeah?
steven: my parents took my car away for a week. my parents found out i got fired.. i need a ride to school tomorrow.
me: stacey's driving.
steven: are you okay? i mean, justin's been really depressed lately.
me: why?
steven: i don't know. like i know you guys been fighting a lot lately, but he's been really depressed.
me: oh, i'll call him later.
steven: i hope the cutest couple in the whole wide world doesn't break up.
me: me too.
steven hung up the phone and i laid there staring at the ceiling. since me and justin's been fighting, steven's been there comforting both of us. steven just got out of a two month relationship a month ago. his girlfriend would take advantage of him. she'd always ask steven for money or let her use the employee family discount at steven's working place, factory brand shoes. and since steven gave her the discount a lot, he got fired. hence why he got grounded but it took his parents three weeks to find out. every since, steven's been keeping out of relationships but helping me and justin with our's.
i decided to brush my teeth since steven interupted me during my first attempt to head for the bathroom. i got up and i felt light headed. i caught my balance and my phone started ringing. i really wish it was justin. i read it and no...it was jeremy.
jeremy: please tell me you're driving to school tomorrow.
me: i'm not. stacey is.
jeremy: i need a ride.
me: why? what happened to your navigator?
jeremy: it's in the shop. i got into a little accident today. me and kat were fighting.
me: oh, ask stacey. if there's no room in her car, i guess i'll drive tomorrow.
jeremy: sorry but thanks.
i hung up and i felt too lazy to go to the bathroom now. i'll just go when my parents come upstairs. it was weird talking to jeremy. we've hardly been talking since he's always hanging around school alone with kat. i think it's because their gonna make three years in two months.
i stared at the ceiling and started to doze off. i checked my clock and it read 11:24PM. i changed into my pj's and headed to the bathroom without any phone calls interupting me. when i got back, i saw that my phone was lite. i checked my phone and i had a missed call from justin. i wanted to call back but i was scared and nervous. i was praying that we wouldn't get into another fight. i pressed send and as it rang, my heart started pounding. when it kept ringing, i started to calm down because he probably wasn't gonna answer but when i heard him say "hello," i started getting nervous.
justin: i love you and i missed you during the whole break.
when i heard those words, i calmed down. he was my boyfriend, i shouldn't be scared of talking to him ever.
me: i love you too. gosh, it felt like i haven't seen you OR talked to you all spring break.
justin: i guess we just needed time to ourselves.
me: yeah. uhh, i don't want you to get mad or anything but i'm just getting tired of all these fights we've getting into. you know i hate it when we fight and whenever we try to talk it out, we just make the whole fight even worst.
justin: i know. baby, i've been so depressed lately but knowing that you're okay and you missed me as much as i missed you and knowing you still love me, i'm happy again.
me: so we're okay? i don't wanna get into another stupid fight. only one fight per week okay?
justin: what if we don't have a fight in one week? can we have two the following week?
me: baaaabe!
justin: i'm just kidding. you know i love you okay? remember that and dream about our million dollar wedding in five years okay?
me: as long as you pay for everything then okay.
justin: yeah, i'll pay for it but when you get back to reality, we'll work something out.
me: haha okay.
justin: i can't wait until i get to see your beautiful face tomorrow. ugh, i'm getting an orgasm thinking about you already.
me: go to sleep babe okay? the earlier you sleep, the longer you get to dream about me.
justin: i love you, i love you, i love you, i love you. replay that in your head.
me: i love you times how much you said plus one more.
i can tell he started smiling. he gave me a little kiss over the phone and hung up. i put my phone by my bed and hugged my pillow as i smiled. in no time, i fell into a deep sleep but excited for tomorrow.
Chapter 2
the bell rang to release us home. i was so not ready for school and wanted to cry all day since i still gotta get used to going back to school. i stomped my feet on my way out the door when i bumped into someone. i just wanted to yell at the person, not caring who it was. so when i turned, i opened my mouth but when i saw my adorable justin standing there with his cute smile, i jumped into his arms and held him tight.
me: i missed you.
justin: but we only saw each other half an hour ago when i passed by your class.
me: so you didn't miss me?
i let go of him and back away a little to the wall and leaned against it with a little pout on my face. i started twirling my hair and smiled as he got closer to him.
justin: of course i missed you. i missed you like crazy.
he got close to me where it looked like we were having dry sex. he leaned against me with a little pressure and when he did, i got embarrassed since we were still in school. i decided to tease him so i licked my lips the way he likes it and he smiled. he leaned in for a kiss but i ducked and got out of his little "trap."
justin: i hate it when you do that.
me: but you still love me right?
justin: no shxt.
me: no, you're supposed to say "of course mailyn, i love you very much."
justin: of course mailyn, i love you very much. so this is your turn with saying "i love you too justin and i love you so much that i'd fxck you hard."
me: i love you too justin and i love you so much that i'd fxck...in` give you a kiss right now.
i wrapped my arms around his neck and pulled in for a kiss. this was the first kiss in a week i got from justin. i didn't get to get one this morning because he came to school late and during lunch, he went to buy me food at mcdonald's but was late also for class. after the kiss, he grabbed me hand and held it tight swinging it while we walked to the parking lot. in the parking lot, there was my truck but i let steven drive it and justin's car next to it. i wanted to spend time with him today but i didn't think justin felt like it. i knew his schedule for work and he had work at four and it was already 2:30.
steven: took you guys long enough. what were you guys doing? fxcking?
i looked at steven and rolled my eyes when he looked back at me. i looked at justin who was looking at steven. why the hell are they suddenly talking about sex? justin knows that i'm not that type of person and so is justin.
me: yeah steven. sorry it takes time for an orgasm. unlike you, once you stick it in, you scream instead of the girl.
steven looked at me with a shocked face. i knew what he was thinking. he probably thought i was PMSing but i wasn't. i was just tired from school and wanted to take a nap. justin pulled me aside because i knew he noticed what just happened.
justin: are you okay? you seem bipolar today.
me: i'm just tired, that's all.
justin: really? so you wanna go straight home?
me: how come?
justin: i took off work today to spend some time with you. you know, `cause we hardly got to see or talk to each other during the break.
i wanted to jump into his arms and hold him all day. i was so happy he did this. he must've read my mind.
me: yeah okay.
justin: are you sure? i don't wanna go out to eat and you fall asleep and your head lands in the chicken.
me: what do you have in mind?
justin: so we're set?
me: yeah...but what about our cars?
justin: steven can take my car home and i'll drive your car.
me: okay. thanks for doing this.
justin: i really missed you, that's all.
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we pulled up to tony roma's. i haven't really been here before so this was good for me. i loved how justin makes me try new things and learn other stuff. we got inside and waited for our table. while waiting, i spotted a table with these girls i hated from this other school. i went to james campbell high school and those girls went to our school rivalry, waipahu high school. i could hear them laughing. it was really bugging me. i looked who was there: anna, victoria, janella, and omg, shanessa! all, yes, ALL of them are justin's ex but i hated shanessa the most. i hated her ever since seventh grade. shanessa and i weren't really friends but more like acquaintances. but when i found out that she liked steven but steven liked me, she stopped talking to me and started talking shxt about me. i started hating her and she started rumors about me but only in her school. so stupid! then i found out that when she liked steven, justin liked her. they eventually got together but when i found out, justin broke up with her because he knew that i didn't like her. to this day, she still blames me that they broke up. i can't stand her. i can't stand seeing her. i haven't seen her in three years. wow! and such a weird place to find her.
justin: isn't that shanessa them over there?
me: so?
justin: oh yeah. i forgot.
i looked over to the table and they're all smiling and waving at me. whatever, they're just acting all nice to me `cause justin's my boyfriend. whatever two-face asses. i was just gonna ignore them but justin was right there so i did the same and smiled at them. yes, i'm a hypocrite and also two-faced but they started it.
justin: c`mon, let's say hi. i haven't seen or talked to them in years.
me: yeah, there was a reason for that.
justin: just one hi.
me: ugh, but today was supposed to be me and you time.
justin: just five minutes.
i looked over to their table and all four of them signaling justin to go over to that table. i was gonna test him. if he doesn't go, i'll give him what the guys been talking about but if he does go over there to those sluts, i'm not gonna talk to him. i watched him. he looked at me and smiled and grabbed my arm to go and sit over with them. great, thanks a lot.
justin: yeah ladies. long time no see.
shanessa: only if you were still famous, i'd feel waaaay better having you with us but you're still famous to us.
justin: yeah, thanks.
i looked over to shanessa who had her hand on his knee and his arm around her laying on the chair. ugh! i couldn't stand that. shanessa just wants to get famous. she's been trying to become an actress for years!
shanessa: why'd you quit anyways?
justin: to be with mailyn.
me: yeah. we make nine months in two weeks.
shanessa looked at me and gave me the fakest smile. i did the same. justin looked at me and told me to stop but i hated every minute of this.
shanessa: congratulations. i hope you last long.
me: thanks.
the waiter who was handling shanessa's table gave them the check. shanessa looked at it and smiled to herself. she then gasped.
justin: what's wrong?
shanessa: the bill is $20 over what we have. i didn't know they already add the tip.
justin: i can give you some money.
shanessa: no, it's okay.
justin: no, i insist. i still got money from my famousness.
justin handed her a $20 bill plus a $10 bill.
shanessa: thanks but you gave me an extra $10.
justin: just keep it. just in case.
shanessa: thanks. well nice seeing you justin.
me and justin got out of the round booth and shanessa gave justin a hug and the other three did the same. shanessa looked at me and snobbed me but immediately gave me a smile.
shanessa: nice seeing you too.
me: yeah.
they headed outside and justin watched them as they did. we sat at our table and the waitress came to take our drinks down.
me: can i have a sprite?
justin: and i'll take coke.
waitress: okay, i'll be back with your drinks.
the waitress left and justin looked at me with a concerned face.
me: what?
justin: you only drink soda when you're mad.
me: of course i'm mad justin. you know i didn't want to take to shanessa and her crew. you know i don't like them. justin, why'd you do that anyways?
justin: is it my fault that i wanna talk to me old friends?
me: you're old friends that your girlfriend hates and hates her back? justin, do you know how hard i tried to keep my tears from falling and my anger from showing?
justin: i don't even know why i wanted to do this. i should've just went work.
me: i should've just took my nap!
the waitress came with our drinks but we decided to leave. justin handed the waitress a $20 bill and told her to keep the change. i drove and dropped off justin before i headed home. the whole ride there, we didn't talk. we just let the radio blast as i tried to hold back my tears. when justin slammed my door, it really hurt. i let my tears finally fall. it wasn't my fault though. i have the right to be mad....right?
Chapter 3
beep beep beep!
what the hell was that noise? i forced my eyelids open as i stretched. when i was finally completely awake, i saw mr. munoz looking down at me. i looked around `cause i was lost and realized i was in the lounge of pacsun. i got up from my chair but started coughing. mr. munoz put his hand on my shoulder and made me sit down.
mr. munoz: i've been trying to wake up you up for the past ten minutes. you were coughing in your sleep. you don't look too good.
me: i'm sorry. i woke up this morning with a headache and i thought i was gonna make it through the day. i just laid my head down for a bit.
mr. munoz: mailyn, you should go home. get some rest. you really need it.
me: are you sure?
mr. munoz: yeah. it's slow today. just go.
i got up and grabbed my bag from my locker and clocked out. everything started getting dizzy when i got out the door. i think it was because i didn't eat. i headed to the food court to get some panda's. when i got my orange chicken, i headed to my car. i sat in my car for a while to stop the dizziness. i laid the seat back and closed my eyes for a while. then i heard a tap on my window that made me jump. i looked to my left and i saw justin. i rolled my eyes and rolled down the window.
me: what?
i really didn't wanna see him. i spent the whole night last night crying because what happened that day at tony roma's. i fell asleep crying so i guess i got sick from that.
justin: can i come in?
even though i was mad at him, i wanted to talk to him. i let him get into the car. he hopped inside and leaned in for a kiss but i stopped him.
me: what do you want?
justin: are you still mad about yesterday?
me: no.
justin: what then?
me: justin, that was such a stupid question.
justin: why are you so mad?
me: you know i don't like them! you know that we hate each other!
justin: we only said hi okay? it's not like we're best friends. mailyn, of course i know you hate them. i'm just saying hi.
me: but i hate it when you have to be nice.
justin: you should know that i hate being a dick.
me: what are you doing right now?
justin: a dick.
me: what? say that again.
justin: i was being a dick. i'm sorry mailyn. you know i hate it when we fight.
as he said that, his voice cracked. i looked at him and he had tears rolling down his eyes. it softened me up a bit but i was still mad.
me: it's not my fault.
justin: mailyn, i'm sorry. you should know i'm sorry.
me: i told you not to talk to them but you did it anyways.
he didn't say anything. he just sat there staring at me as i watched him. i watched him cry over the mistake HE did. he looked at me like he expected me to cry with him. i didn't want to. i didn't have any tears left in me. but he just sat there, saying nothing. this last for a minute and he finally made a sound. he sighed. he didn't say anything but he still made a spound. he then started singing to me. he started singing one last try by stevie hoang.
justin: can we try, to get it back right? and i, i promise i'll never leave your side. `cause you're, all that i need. i know right here with you is where i want to be. girl it's been far too long, and i just can't go on. need you in these arms, for one last try. girl just here me out, `cause all i'm asking for is one last try, one last try, one last try.
and without saying anything else, justin got out of the car...as i let him.
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mailyn! mailyn! mailyn!
who the hell was that? it was pissing me off but i ignored it.
mailyn! mailyn! mailyn!
i was gonna slap whoever was in my room but when i felt a kiss on my cheek, i knew who it was. i rolled over and found justin holding a tray. despite what happened earlier today, i was really happy to see him.
justin: sooo...can i sit?
i patted the empty spot next to me. he set the tray on my lap and got on the bed. on the tray was a bowl. and in the bowl, it was the soup he'd make me whenever i was sick. justin's mom, kayla would make him soup whenever he was sick and i tried it one day and i loved it. i would come over to justin's house whenever he was sick to have some soup. i even tried to get him sick so i could have some of the best chicken noodle soup in the world. kayla found it funny when she found out and gave justin the recipe. from that day, justin's been making me soup everytime i was sick.
me: thanks.
justin: well i'm gonna go now. i hope you get better.
he got up but i pulled his shirt. he stopped and sat back down onto the bed.
me: no, don't go.
justin: are you sure?
me: yeah.
justin: okay.
i took a sip from the soup as justin just watched me awkwardly. i set my spoon down and grabbed his hand and started playing with his fingers the way he likes it.
justin: mailyn, i love you. i'm really sorry about today. i'm sorry about yesterday. i'm really sorry about our fights lately. we just talked about this two days ago and we're still fighting.
me: you know when i said only one fight per week, i meant a small argument. i didn't want a big fight happening.
justin: i know and it's my fault.
me: well i love the making up. you sang to me today and you made me soup!
justin: yeah, your mom called me to tell me you were sick so i made the soup even though we were fighting.
me: that's how much you love me.
justin: yeah, you should know how much i love you.
me: and i love you too.
i went back to my soup as justin watched me continue with my soup. we didn't say anything, it felt good being with him all silent and calm. i put my spoon back down and smiled at him.
me: sooooo....how'd you know i was in my car? you're such a stalker!
justin: i'm not a stalker, i'm just in love.
he gave me a kiss on the cheek. we have a rule that we can't kiss on the lips if one of us is sick...but justin had a hard time dealing with that rule even though he hated getting sick. so after the kiss on my cheek, he made his way to my neck but my mom passed by my room.
mom: hey you two! behave!
justin: sorry auntie.
justin stopped when my mom was out of sight. what was so shame! i went back with my soup when the twins came into my room. they tried climbing onto my bed but justin stopped them. i knew they'd start jumping on it and the soup would splash so i put the bowl on the little desk by my bed and i pulled michael on the bed as justin picked up michelle. michael wanted some soup so i fed it to him. they laid in my bed between me and justin. i started to talk to the twins but when i looked over, they were both asleep. me and justin giggled on ourselves as justin tried to get out of the bed. he walked over to my side and gave me another kiss on my cheek.
justin: i gotta go work darling. take care of our "kids."
Chapter 4
on a monday afternoon after school, we stayed in justin's truck as we waited for him. justin loved my truck and always drove it more than his car, we decided to trade. it felt being in a small car that matched me. i felt like people were judging me in a huge truck and thought i was a lesbian or something.
i looked at the time and it was already 2:33. justin was supposed to be done by now. me and justin were texting each other and he got caught. he was supposed to be done three minutes ago. why was he taking so long? i looked up from scratching my leg and finally saw justin walking. he hopped into the truck and gave me a kiss.
me: sorry for getting you in trouble.
justin: it's okay.
me: how was detention?
justin: oh, i didn't have detention. my teacher's niece loved shiny so much that my teacher just wanted a picture of me.
me: then what took you so long?
justin: i was taking a dump.
i started giggling and i got startled with a familar voice. i looked behind me and saw stacey and jerome eating a pb&j sandwich. where the fxck did they get that?
jerome: bro, that's gross. we're eating here.
justin: oh yeah. you know my shxt looked so weird. it was a very little brown-ish color. when i looked in the toilet, it reminded me of peanut butter.
i looked through the rear-view mirror and saw stacey and jerome trying their hardest not to throw up. they put their sandwich away and closed their eyes. even i was feeling a little whoozy. the image of his shxt stayed in my head. gross.
me: omg justin.
justin: i'm sorry you guys.
we heard yelling from behind us. it was starting to get me light headed. i knew who was yelling. it was the others. zaileen, jeremy, kat and steven were in the back. they were yelling and telling justin to just go. justin got out of the truck and went to the back to yell at them. while he was gone, i started getting better and so did stacey and jerome. when he came back, he gave me a bottle of water.
justin: here. for you to calm down or whatever.
me: oh i'm all good now.
justin: are you sure? i don't want you to throw up all over the car.
me: it's okay.
so with my word, justin started up the car and exited the student parking lot. we made our way down the road and we almost reached our neighborhood. usually we'd go to justin's house which zaileen called "our club house" because we were there if we weren't anywhere else cruising and no one was usually home. when we passed our exit, i started getting confused.
me: justin, where are we going?
justin: zoo.
me: why?
justin: me and the guys felt like it.
me: and why didn't you tell me?
justin: that's my point. i knew if we told you, all you girls would disagree.
me: okay fine. why are we going to the zoo?
justin: `cause we really wanted to go to the zoo.
me: and why?
justin: we were watching animal planet last night together and we saw all the cool animals.
me: you guys come up with the most random things.
justin: you still love me right?
me: of course i do.
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we got to the zoo and the guys started acting like little kids. they were pulling us towards all the animals. they also tried imitating the animals. so stupid! justin pulled me to look at the tigers. it started coming towards us and justin waved at it. the tigers started roaring and justin started screaming and ran away.
after an hour looking at the animals, we decided to grab a snack. we went to a consetion stand to grab some shave ice and we just stayed on little tables all together and talked stories.
steven: there was this hot girl. damn, when she bent down to tie her shoes, i just wanted to grab her and take her to you truck.
justin: the one with her family? the one wearing pink?
i looked at him. he gave me a smile and tried to kiss me but i dogded it and sat on the opposite side of the table. he knew i was mad and got up. he grabbed my hand to tell me he wanted to talk on the side. at first, i didn't want to do it but i was scared that it would turn into a big fight.
justin: i'm sorry okay?
me: yeah, that girl was pretty. you should've asked her for her number.
justin: omg mailyn. not now.
me: oh, you didn't want to ask her for her number because you were with your girlfriend?
justin: but even it my girlfriend wasn't with me, i still wouldn't ask her for her number. i have a girlfriend.
me: why don't you just break up with her then?
justin: i don't want to. i don't ever wanna break up with her.
me: were you even listening to me when you saw that girl?
i looked at him. i saw that he was trying to remember. then he started frowning and shook his head.
justin: i'm sorry.
me: i was saying that i was glad that we did thi. we spent a great day having fun without fighting, and that i loved you so much.
justin: i'm sorry. i love you too.
me: whatever. you know justin, sometimes i don't really know if you really mean it when you tell me you love me. i really want you believe you but your actions says something else.
justin: what are you trying to say?
me: i don't know. what happened to our one fight per week?
justin: you know i hate it when we fight and you blame me. i sometimes think that you belong to someone better.
i was shocked to hear this. he NEVER give up on me. for some reason, i started to cry.
me: what are you trying to say?
justin: i think that you should try find someone better. to be honest, i think we should take a break right now. i wanna know if there's someone else better for you that treats you like a princess and it looks like i'm not doing a great job at it.
he tried to hug me but i just ran. i ran like my life depended on it. there's someone else better for you just kept replaying in my head. what happened to i don't ever want to break up with her? please be another quick break up. please??
Chapter 5
it’s been a week since justin and i broke up, i hated every minute of it. i hated driving in his old car that still smells like him. i hated that i had to still see and stand next to him. i hated that it’s already been a week, a week’s too long. everyday got worse and worse. everyday my hopes would go up whenever he smiled or looked at me. i hardly talked to him. i think the only word i said to him was “hi.” i’d go straight home after school and watch chick flicks, eating ice cream in the dark. every night, i’d cry myself to sleep. i even started getting sick. on friday, i stayed home and cried all day. my mom was getting worried. were we really over?
it was saturday morning and my eyes were super red and puffy. i looked super ugly, i had work today. i needed to go out. on my drive to pearlridge, i felt dizzy, luckily i made it safe to work. i entered pacsun and stacey gave me a hug.
stacey: c’mon, stop crying. you look so ugly when you cry.
i started to give a little smile. i kind of thought it was funny. she’ll say anything to make me smile.
me: yeah, i know. but has he talked about me?
stacey: was there a time when he didn’t? he was crying at school yesterday. he kept complaing "she doesn't love me anymore. she hates me. i know she won't take me back."
me: are you serious? he was the one who broke up with me.
stacey: hang in there okay. i don’t want my best friend ending up stalking him and killing his next girlfriend.
me: he has a new girlfriend?!?
stacey: no! stop thinking like that!
me: i can’t help it. stacey, do you think we’re really over?
stacey: i have no comment on that.
me: i don't know what i would do without him.
stacey: you should take to him. you guys can't really break up because of that right? go get him back girl!
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stacey: will you be okay? you looked like you were high.
me: yeah, i’ll call you tonight so you won’t be worried.
stacey: yeah, be safe.
me: i’m not moving or anything.
stacey giggled and waved good-bye as the door shut. i watched her head to her car and drive off. i was glad i had work today. i hardly thought about justin all day since it was busy because of the mini sale we had. i wanted to grab some kid’s meals for the twins from mcdonald’s . i headed to the opposite side of the mall to mcdonald’s in the food court when i saw someone that made my heart skip a beat. i saw justin with his family. i tried to run away and hide, but fxcking vincent saw me and started running towards me. great, now the whole family was coming towards me. i just wanted to run and hide, but kayla, justin’s mom said “hi.”
me: hi auntie.
kayla: what’re you doing here by yourself? if justin told us that he was going to see you, he could’ve told us. we’d let him go.
i looked at justin, i haven’t seen him straight in the eyes in a week. i guess he didn’t tell his parents about us. i stared at him and i noticed his eyes were red and puffy, he’s been crying.
kayla: justin, you can hang out with mailyn for now. the next movie won’t be showing until another hour.
justin: sure.
they headed up the escalator while justin and i stayed downstairs. when they were out of view justin smiled at me and pulled me aside to the benches on the side of the escalator.
justin: are you okay?
me: are you?
justin: you weren’t in school yesterday, i was worried.
me: yeah, i was sick.
justin: again? or did you just want my soup?
me: i was really sick.
justin: oh. yeah. are you better?
me: kind of.
justin: that’s good.
me: justin, you don’t know how depressed i was.
justin: oh, yeah i’m sorry.
me: you never do that. why’d you just give up?
justin: i don’t know, i feel stupid doing that.
me: a week was too long justin. it felt like my life was gonna end within that week.
justin: i’m sorry, but if you didn’t know i was crying at school.
me: yeah i know, stacey told me.
justin: oh but yeah, i was thinking about what happened. it was so stupid for me to do that.
me: yeah, i just don’t understand why you did it.
justin: i was frustrated about it.
me: oh
justin: but can we just forget about this and get back together, a week without you felt like my life was going to end. i can’t imagine if we’re done for good.
me: justin, you should know that i love you.
justin: i love you too mailyn.
me: i’m too scared to let you go, don’t ever do that again.
Chapter 6
it's been five days since me and justin got back together. i felt way better in no time. when i got home that day, justin made me soup and that's how i got better. next week we were gonna make nine months and man it's been the best nine months of my life.
the whole crew was just laying around in justin's living room watching tv and not really doing anything. i was starting to get bored when justin started yelling.
justin: c`mon you guys! we look so dead today! we need to go out and have fun!
steven: we just came from school and i'm fxckin` tired.
justin: it feels like that we haven't been out in a while. it's always my house. let's go to the park!
and that's what we did. there was a park down the street from justin's house. it was about a few blocks down so we decided to walk there. but that changed when i jumped onto justin's back. stacey jumped onto jerome's back, kat jumped onto jeremy's back and zaileen jumped onto steven's back. it was so hard for me and justin to stopped laughing. whenever justin tried to start running, his shorts would start slipping off. this was a big disadvantage but i came up with an idea. i held justin's shorts up and he ran as fast as he could. with that, we won to the park. it didn't take the others to catch up to us. when everyone was there, we started cracking up rolling on the grass. it was a nice day so we started taking pictures. it was total fun. we got onto the playground and swung on the swing set. i stood on the swing set and justin started pushing me. then i came up with an idea.
me: go over there.
justin ran over like about seven feet away from the swing.
me: you better catch me. i'm trusting you.
justin: just do it. i'll be here to catch you.
i swung myself but not to hard. then i lifted off the swing and started flying. i was screaming the whole time but when i landed in justin's arms, i knew i was fine. i guess the force was too strong that we both landed on the ground. good thing justin caught my fall. with me on top of him, i gave him a kiss as i started giggling.
justin: i told you i'd catch you.
me: yay. and you did a great jod doing it.
i tried to get up but justin held on tight to me. he then rolled me over and got on top of me.
jerome: keep it pg you guys! i don't want any r-rated scenes out in public.
justin: yeah yeah yeah.
justin started laughing and gave me another kiss. i wanted it go on forever but the moment was ruined when the sprinklers went on. i wanted to get out of there when justin just laid on top of me. he gave me another kiss before we got up and headed for his house. i thought it was cute. it was the closest i got to a kiss in the rain.
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it was friday late afternoon and i was just doing the finishing touches of my make up. then i heard a horn from outside my house. i looked through my window and found justin's truck in the drive way. i ran all giddy downstairs and headed to the truck. i hopped inside and gave justin a quick peck on my cheek.
justin: hi baby. i missed you.
me: justin, i was just talking to you an hour ago.
justin: you don't miss me?
me: yeah justin. i missed you oh so dearly.
justin: that's better.
me: justin, i can't believe you're taking me to a club.
justin: we haven't been to one in months.
he was right. the last time i went to a club for all ages was at that black and white party during summer when kayden was still alive. at first, i didn't want to come but justin gave me this whole speech about how he's in a better place and that i should let the past get to me. that's what i loved about justin. he made me realized this that i never thought he would know and stuff.
FLASHBACK
me and justin had our first argument since we were together. i thought the topic about why were were arguing was super stupid. he was talking about how dark meat and white meat was totally the same. i disargreed and we started arguing about it. at first, i just thought it was a playful argument but when he started yelling and saying that i was acting like i knew everything, i started to get mad. i was ready to just hang up on him but he saved himself.
me: you're so lucky you saved yourself. i wouldn't hung up on you.
justin: why?
me: you were pissing me off.
justin: so? you know what i don't understand? why girls gotta hang up on guys for when they're mad. it's stupid how they do that.
me: why?
justin: because...when girls hang up on guys while they're arguing, it doesn't do anything. yeah it stops the yelling for a while but when guys called back and start yelling again at the girl, it just pissed both people off. but when both stay on the phone without hanging up, yeah you can keep arguing at each other but it's gonna go somewhere.
me: oh yeah. that's true.
justin: that's why even though we get into fights, i want you to promise me that you will never hang up on me.
me: i promise.
END FLASHBACK
when we finally got to waikiki shell, i didn't want to lose justin. i held on tight to his hand when we were going through the crowd. when we first got inside, we went straight to the food table. justin got me a cup of lemonade and handed it to me. i took a sip and it lead to me chugging the whole thing. i haven't realized to dehydrated i was. then my stomach started growling but i knew justin didn't hear it.
justin: i'm gonna grab some food. it's on the other side of the table. it will only take me a few seconds. don't go anywhere.
i just nodded at him. he was probably hungry too. i looked around the whole place when i found myself getting thirsty again. i grabbed a new cup and grabbed the laddle when i saw that someone was already getting a drink. but i couldn't control my hand. it went for the laddle which made me grab his hand. i immediately pulled it away. he looked at me and smiled. i just blushed.
me: sorry.
guy: that's okay.
he flashed me another smile which made me feel tingly. he noticed that he had the best and whitest teeth i've ever seen. i didn't know but i was staring at him the whole time. i looked at his perfect face structure. his perfectly clear skin. and his shiny, straight hair. my mind started drifting off when i felt someone poking my side. i turned around and it was justin holding a little styrafoam bowl with cake, brownies and cookies. i tried to grab a cookie when justin pulled it away.
me: hey, i want some.
justin: before i give you food, give me an answer to why you were staring at that guy.
me: justin, please. not now.
justin: i admit, if i was gay, i'd bang him.
me: justin.
oh no. not another fight. great. thanks a lot justin for your short jealously span.
justin: c`mon mailyn. let's go talk to him.
me: justin, don't.
justin started walking towards him on the dance floor but i pulled his arm. he put down the bowl and took my grip off his arm. when he pulled his arm from me, he continued his way towards the guy as i followed him. then he tapped the guy on the shoulder. the guy turned around and looked at justin with a confused face.
guy: can i help you?
justin: actually you can.
guy: with what?
justin: i couldn't help but see that my girlfriend was staring at you.
the guy was in shocked and started getting nervous.
guy: ohh. sorry?
justin: you should've just let her stare at you but you had to smile? bad move boyeeeee.
i was getting tired of justin's behavior. i tried to pull his arm to take him out of there and just go home but he was too strong anf stubborn.
guy: i didn't know.
justin: but you can do me a huge favor that will make me forget about this?
guy: what's that?
justin: i know she'd love it if you danced with her.
i just wanted to cry. i seriously did but not at a club. i was ashamed when the guy looked at me with the weirdest face.
guy: i don't mind.
the guy tried to go behind me to dance but i didn't want to. not with him.
me: but i do mind.
i tried to go behind justin but justin kept moving. he then put my his arms around me which i thought meant we were fine but he did that to bring me to that guy.
justin: do you want me to just forget about this or nag you about this everyday?
i gave up. i really didn't want to get into another fight. the guy got behind me and started putting his arms around my waist as he bounced to the music. i just wanted to cry. i can't believe justin was making me do this. i looked at justin who was watching us the whole time. i wanted justin to be dancing with me. not some guy i just met.
justin: btw, what's your name?
guy: max.
Chapter 7
the next morning, justin woke me up super early. he felt super bad about what happened last night.
justin: i wanna take you our for breakfast before you go to work.
me: sure, i'd love to.
justin: i'm just super sorry about what i did last night.
me: okay, i have work in three hours.
justin: hurry up. i'll be there in an hour.
45 minutes passed and i was still getting ready. i was home alone and i heard footsteps coming up the stairs. i looked out my window and saw justin's truck in the driveway. i went back to what i was doing and then...
AHHHHHHHHH!!!!!
justin was outside of my door wearing a fxckin` scary halloween mask. he was rolling on the ground laughing his ass off. i slammed the door and went back to getting ready, then i heard pounding on my door. i opened it and justin ran inside and tackled me onto my bec and held me tight. then he started kissing me.
me: you're 15 minutes early
justin: i couldn't wait to see you.
me: aww.
justin: sorry for scaring you.
me: it's okay.
justin: at least i got to tackle you onto bed.
me: you know i'm home alone. we're the only ones here.
he started to smile. he got up and picked me up bridal style from my bed and carried me down the stairs to get me into to kitchen. his fantasy is to lose his virginity on the kitchen counter because he knows that i cook majority of the time and if we actually do it on the kitchen counter, it will gross me out. i was sitting on the counter and he was standing in front mf me between my legs. we were making out and i could tell he really wanted to do more. he kept kissing me but not just on my lips. he started kissing me on my neck and touching other placed. i looked at the time on my microwave. it was 7:23. i had work at 9. we started making out some more and just to tease him, i started moaning but not too loud, enough to making him think he's gonna get what he wants. when he started to lift up my shirt, i stopped. he backed away and got off the conuter. i exited the kitchen with a smile on my face. i turned around and signaled him to come with me. then we headed up to my room.
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we got to ihop and my stomach was growling. i didn't eat last night because i got home last and i didn't have engery to cook or eat look for food. i need energy since me and justin got into a little argument before we left the house. hated that i was teasing him and seducing him but didn't do anything with him. but he just laughed it off. it was funny because we promised each other we'd wait until out one year anniversary which is in 3 months. i knew justin couldn't wait but i keep telling him i want it to be special.
me: omg, i finally get to eat at ihop with my loving boyfriend.
justin: and it feels so good to have a good breakfast with you.
me: okay but not for my pancakes. i'm starving.
justin: we have to cherish the moment.
me: i have work in an hour.
justin: it only takes 10 minutes to get to pearlridge from here.
me: i know but i wanna enjoy the pancakes.
justin: you love pancakes more than you love me?
me: yeah.
justin: so if a guy smells like pancakes, looks like pancakes and his lips tasted like pancakes, you'd leave me for him?
me: no because i'd be with him right now.
i looked at him and he looked like i just shot an arrow through his heart. i couldn't believe he was actually believing me. what an idiot. i showed that i was just joking by giving him a little titi twister and gave him a little kiss. his expression changed and he was smiling again. we sat in a small booth and a waiter came to take out order. justin got the original buttermilk pancakes to make me feel fat since i got the pancake combo that included chocolate chip pancakes, two eggs, a hash brown and bacon. but i didn't care, i didn't wait for him to set up our table. i just started eating without him.
justin: you're hungry.
me: what? are you calling me fat?
justin: no. do you have your period?
me: so what? if i eat like this, it's because i have my period?
justin: never mind.
me: i'm just kidding justin. you know i love you.
justin: i love you too.
it took us 20 minutes to finish our food. it was a record. our fastest time it took us to eat a meal from mcdonald was half an hour. we were pretty surprised but i needed to get to work. i started to get paranoid that i was gonna be late.
i was getting paranoid for nothing. i got to pacsun with 15 minutes to spare so we stayed outside on the bench playing. we were coming up with pick up lines we could tell each other.
justin: all those curves, and me with no brakes. i'm gonna get banged.
i started giggling. i didn't know where he got that but to go along with that pick up line, he hit his head against my shoulder.
me: what was that for?
justin: i just wanted to touch you.
me: have you have had a foot orgasm?
justin: wtf? what happened to our pick up lines?
me: can you get an orgasm from getting your foot sucked?
justin: i don't know.
me: how'd you do that?
justin got confused. he started looking down just in case he was doing something that he didn't know he was doing.
justin: do what?
me: look so good?
justin: so gay.
me: you're gay!
justin: it's already 8:52.
me: you want me to go already? fine.
i got up and acted like i was mad but i couldn't keep a straight face. i started laughing when he grabbed me from behind.
justin: i just don't want you to be late okay?
me: okay.
justin: i'll pick you up after work okay?
me: yeah.
justin: i love you.
me: i love you too.
he gave me a quick peck before letting go of me. i watched him walk away and waved everytime he looked back and blew me kisses. when he was out of sight, i headed inside the store where stacey was so spaced out. i walked up to her and pinched her nose. then she slapped my hand away.
stacey: wtf?
me: you looked lost.
stacey: did you see the new guy?
me: what new guy?
stacey: the cute one.
me: there's a new guy? since when?
stacey: i saw him the other day for an interview. man, he's hot.
me: halala, i'm gonna tell jerome.
stacey: i bet when you see him you'll think the same...look, he's over there.
stacey grabbed my arm and spun my around and pointed to the new guy. he was by the shoes fixing it up. when he turned around, the only thing i could remember was that i squealed. the new guy was max from the club.
Chapter 8
it was tuesday morning and justin's been acting really weird around me. every morning, he'd usually call me and make sure i had a ride to school but today, he wouldn't even answer his phone. so i went to school by myself. if we don't ride to school together, justin would usually wait for me in the parking lot in one of the guys' cars but they said that justin "went to class" when i got to school. was he cheating on me?
the first period bell rang and i headed to my class. i got to the door when i remembered justin's class was right next to mine. i took a peek into the class and didn't see him. i was a little upset since justin's avoiding me today. i started heading to my class with my head down when i heard a familar voice calling my name.
justin: mailyn! mailyn!
i turned around and saw justin running for me. now i was happy. i thought he was just gonna run up to me and hug me but he jumped into my arms first and gave me a hug. instead of him carrying me, i was carrying him. we collasped and got up immediately when we saw the principal heading our way. when he was out of plain sight, justin gave me a kiss and hugged me again.
me: what was that for?
justin: i missed you.
me: yeah, what's up with this morning? you didn't call me, you didn't answer your phone and where were you with the guys? you better not be cheating on me.
justin: oh sorry. you know it's kinda hard to juggle two girlfriends at once.
i slapped his arm. he gave a small scream and started rubbing it. he was wearing a short sleeve t-shirt so i slapped his bare skin.
justin: i was just kidding!
me: you better be.
justin: since you slapped me, i'm not giving you your surprise.
my eyes lite up and i was smiling. he hardly gave me surprises. we were together twenty-four seven so it was kinda hard for him to give me surprises.
me: okay, i'm sorry justin for slapping you. i'm very sorry.
justin: so fake your apology.
me: fine then. no need give me your surprise. that means that you wasted all that money for me.
i started heading to class when justin pulled my arm and spun me around.
justin: okay fine then. i'll give it to you. meet me by our tree after school. we'll take your car. i got a ride from steven this morning.
me: gimme a hint to what it is.
justin: it will make you scream.
he spun around and walked into his class. i was gonna chase after him but the bell rang again so i left it as it was. i had to go to class. i couldn't be late...but it will make me scream? what was is?
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i was playing with my backpack as i waited for justin by our tree. i've been waiting here for 5 minutes looking like a loner and he wasn't here yet. i decided to sit down on the bench twn feet away from the tree but as i started walking there, the sprinklers turned on the i had to run onto the cement. i looked around and no sight of justin so i decided to wait in my car.
when i got to my car, i saw steven and jeremy along with some girls that i didn't know. steven must've scored some freshmen because they looked pretty young.
me: hi you guys.
jeremy: where's justin?
me: i don't know.
jeremy: you know that guy has been on the phone a lot for the past few days. when i keep asking who it was, he would just say "this girl."
me: really?
jeremy: yeah. i just wanted to tell you since you since like you saw something bad.
me: no. but thanks for telling me about this.
jeremy: no problem.
jeremy gave me a hug before i got into my car. i grabbed my other backpack from the back to grab my bra that i left at stacey's house during spring break to ask about justin and see if he acted weird when i asked him.
i looked out the window and saw justin on the phone. was it the same girl he's been talking to for the past few days jeremy told me about? the driver's seat door opened the justin stepped inside without being on the phone. he looked at me and smiled then leaned for a kiss but i showed him the bra.
me: what's this?
justin: a bra?
me: yeah, but who's one is this? jeremy told me you forgot this in his car this morning.
justin: i don't know what you guys are talking about. why would i have a bra?
me: are you sure? they told me you've been acting weird lately and what's up with you avoiding me this morning?
i looked at justin and he was totally confused. then i knew he wasn't cheating on me. i gave him and hug and gave him a long kiss. he then pulled away.
justin: do you have your period?
me: no. i just wanted to test you.
justin: on what?
me: nothing. so what's my surprise?
justin stuck his hand into his backpack. i started excited when he started to take his hand out but it was only his green bandana.
justin: put this on.
me: why?
justin: just put it on.
me: no. what if you rape me? justin, i don't wanna get rape by my own boyfriend.
justin: mailyn, i'm not gonna rape you.
me: you promise?
justin: pinky promise.
justin held out his pinky and i grabbed it with my pinky.
me: okay good.
i put on the bandana and justin started up the car. the only thing i could think of was where was he taking me?
about an hour later, i heard justin turn off the engine.
justin: we're here.
me: can i take off my blindfold?
justin: wait, let me get you out first.
i heard justin open his door. in a few seconds, i heard justin open my door. justin held my hand as he held me out of the car. he then told me to walk slowly following him and made me stop. he then took of his bandana off my face and the first thing i saw was that we were on a bridge. i looked over justin's shoulder since his big head was in my way and saw people i haven't seen before. there was a lady that looked like she was in her mid-twenties that looked pretty tick. she had dirty blond hair and it was tied in a bun. she was setting up with this equipment that i don't know about. helping her looked like her husband. he had brown hair and was really tick. after we waited for a while then they started to shake justin's hand.
justin: mailyn, this is mr. and mrs. johnson. mr. and mrs. johnson, this is my girlfriend, mailyn.
i shook their hand as they both looked at me and smiled.
mrs. johnson: aww, she's more beautiful in person.
mr. johnson: you know this guy really loves you mailyn.
me: huh?
mrs. johnson: it was really hard to try and get your parents consent but justin got it.
mr. johnson: it was fun though, keeping this a secret.
me: justin, what are they talking about?
justin: remember our last anniversary, i asked you if you'd go bungee jumping and you said with me jumping down with you holding you, yes?
me: yeah.
justin: here's our chance to do it.
me: really?
justin: that's why i was avoiding you this morning. i had to make sure everything was going good.
me: how long have you been planning this?
justin: a week.
me: 'cause jeremy told me you were on the phone a lot and just talking to some girl.
justin: that was mrs. johnson. i had to make sure i had everything to allow us to do this.
me: aww, that's soo sweet.
i started bouncing and gave him a hug. then i gave him a quick peck. then i looked and saw that mr. and mrs. johnson was watching us.
mr. johnson: c`mon mailyn. that's what you call a kiss?
justin was still holding onto me and he leaned in for another kiss. this time, it wasn't just a peck but i don't really believe in PDA so i pulled away.
me: so how are we gonna do this?
mrs. johnson gave me the harness and everything to put on me and mrs. johnson gave justin his. after we put on our equipment, the hooked our stuff together so we can jumped together and not get separated.
justin: are you scared?
me: you won't let me go right?
justin: even if i did, we'll still be together.
me: okay.
we got on the ledge and just jumped off when mr. johnson said to jump. i was screaming the whole time. i was still screaming when we stopped bouncing. i think i might've made justin deaf. but it was fun. it was something that i didn't think i had guts to do but i felt safe having justin holding the whole time.
when we finally were back to solid ground, i was cheering and bouncing before we got into the car.
justin: i'm glad you love this surprise.
me: and i love the person who set up this whole surprise.
Chapter 9
me and stacey were in justin's car as he drove us home. we just finished school and i wanted to get home immediately. i was cranky since i had my period and i had work in an hour and a half. i was trying to calm myself down since i was getting paranoid about being late when i felt something poke my side.
me: what?
justin: there's no gas!
i looked at the gas meter and the arrow thing was at full. what a liar!
me: no there isn't. it's still full look!
justin hit the dashboard and the arrow went to empty. great.
justin: it's been stuck ever since yesterday. i didn't notice.
me: can we at least push the car aside?
justin: that's a good idea. you and stace push the car andd i'll steer.
me: haha, you're so funny justin.
justin: no mailyn. i'm fxckin` serious. you and stace go push outside.
justin poked my side and just smiled at him. i wasn't in the mood. i just wanted to smack him across his face. what he was trying to make us do was pissing me off. but i didn't want to look at him face so i went outside and i rolled my eyes.
it didn't really take us that long to go on the side of the road. me and stacey were really strong. i think it was because i was pissed off and wanted to get out of there. when the car was on the side, justin got out of the car and gave me and stacey a smile as we just leaned against the car.
justin: my phone can't call out.
me: i gave no batteries.
stacey: i forgot my phone at home.
so sad i swear. when a bus passed by, i looked in my pocket and my bag for money. i only had 49 cents. justin had no money, only his credit card. stacey had a dollar but it was ripped in half. we weren't gonna get on the bus. gosh we were screwed. the only way to get home was to walk.
me: but it's sooooo far!
justin: by the time i get home, george lopez is gonna be over!
it would probably take us an hour to get home. we walk reeeeeeeally show.
stacey: well that's your problem.
me: huh?
stacey put on her backpack and grabbed a scooter from the back of the truck. she unfolded it. she got on it and started to pedal away.
me: wtf stacey?
stacey: my korean drama is gonna be on!
me and justin watched stacey pedal away. as we did, we just laughed and i was happy. i wasn't in that bad mood i was in ten minutes ago.
justin: i guess we have to walk home.
me: but it's gonna take forever.
justin: but at least we get to spend some time together right?
he put his arms around me and gave me a wet kiss on my cheek.
me: eww, gross. it's wet.
justin: want me to lick it off for you?
me: no thanks.
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the customer looked at me like i just woke up from a coma. well i WAS tired. after taking half an hour to walk home, i was really tired and i didn't get to take my nap. but it was okay. walking home with justin made me see the deep side i usually see privately. he was tellling me the reasons why he loved me. i counted 35 reasons why. my favorite one was when he said the whenever i borrow his clothes, there's his scent on it and i wear it long enough where you can smell mine too. he said our scents combined smells good and that the scents are perfect together like me and him.
customer: don't forget the shoes.
i scanned the box of shoes and looked at the screen.
me: the [yawn] total [yawn] is $94.23.
i watched the customer reach into his pocket. meanwhile, i have some time to think. so where was i again? oh yeah...and the whole time we were walking, he had his arm around me. he made like i was gonna run away if he let go of me.
customer: excuse me, miss. here you go.
i shook my head and saw that the middle school looking boy hand me the money. i grabbed the money which was a hundred dollar bill. where the hell did he get the money?
me: your change is $5.77.
i handed him the change and he grabbed my hand. gross! i looked at him and that doofus was smiling.
customer: thanks. btw, your hand is soft...and i think your hot.
good thing the store was already closing. i just rolled my eyes and walked away from the cash register.
me: stupid. i should tell justin.
i fixed the clothes a bit and dusted the shelves before i headed to my locker. by my locker was max, that new cute guy and the guy from the club. i haven't talked to him yet but stacey did yesterday.
max: hey.
i looked at him with a confused but shocked look that he said hi.
me: hey.
max: soo...i'm max.
me: yeah, i know.
max: what's your name?
me: i don't think i should tell you.
max: protective boyfriend?
me: you tell me.
max: that's okay, i understand.
me: yeah.
i grabbed my backpack and put in over my right shoulder and clocked out and headed out.
i got to my car in the parking lot and i heard footsteps behind me. i looked over and it was max. his car was next to mine.
max: so we meet again.
i ignored him. i just stuck my hand into my backpack to find my keys. it wasn't in the small pocket. so i took off my backpack and searched in the big pocket. it wasn't in there. i checked my pockets and it was all empty. where the fxck is it? i looked inside the car and omg! there it was on the floor!
max: having trouble?
i ignored him again and just looked at the stupid keys laying there on the floor. i had to borrow my dad's old car. you know those cars where you have to lock it with the keys of lock it from the inside. those old cars that you can't just press a button to lock or unlock it? yeah, i had to use my dad's since my parents were using it. they didn't have time to clean it and the honda accord was shipped to colorado for byran. i was stuck with the old nissan. now my keys were locked in the car. my battery was acting retarded.
max: if you need a ride, i'm right here.
i rolled my eyes and got into his car. it was a kia spectra. outside looked super pimped out but inside was pretty messy but i didn't mind.
max: before i even put the keys into the ignition, i need to know the name of my passenger.
me: one: pay attention to mr. munoz next time he introduces us. two: i had a name tag but i guess you don't know who to read. three: don't think that you'll be talking to me often. this is a one time thing.
max: ooooh, a girl who likes it her way, i like.
me: can you just take me home already before i change my mind?
he was driving pretty slow. i think he was stalling `cause he kept trying to talk to me. i just ignored him or gave him one word answers. it was super irritating. it usually takes me about half an hour to get home. this time, it took 50 minutes. it felt forever. i was hoping that justin would call so i had someone to talk to and to keep me busy and to remind max that i had a boyfriend. but at the same time, i didn't want justin to call because he's ask me where i was and how i got home if i told him about me locking the keys inside the car. you'll never know if max would make noise making justin mad while i talked to him. good thing justin didn't.
when i finally got home, i didn't bother saying bye. i didn't want him to get the wrong idea but it's not like i cared. i didn't like him. he was too cocky and i just knew justin would get mad if he found out that not only i'm working with max but i got a ride from him.
i got to my room and collapsed onto my bed and feel asleep when i landed on my pillows.
Chapter 10
justin: i can't wait until i see you. it's been so long.
me: justin, we saw each other yesterday.
justin: really? man. when you're in love, it feels longer.
he wasn't the only one that was excited to meet up. i really wanted to see him. not talking to him last night and actually getting a ride from max made me realize that i should pay more attention to justin. i've been waiting at home for ten minutes. justin was taking me to school this morning and i was waiting for him to get here.
justin: mai, i'm outside of your house.
me: okay, i'm coming out.
i hung up the phone and head for the door. i grabbed my flats by the door and put them on as i stepped out of the door. i had one on one foot and when i went to switch feet, i lost my balance but the wall broke my fall. sadly, i still hit my head against the wall. that's about 500 brain cells lost. at least it's better than losing blood. i saw justin leaning on his car trying so hard not to laugh at me but when he saw me rubbing my head, he bursted out laughing.
me: shut up.
justin: okay, i'm sorry.
he gave me a hug and carried me up in the air and spun me around. i loved it whenever he did that because that meant he was in a good mood...and i was too.
justin: are you okay? do you need to go to the emergency room or something?
me: it will feel better if you kiss it.
justin: where's your boo boo?
me: right here.
i pointed to the point which was on the side of my head. he grabbed my face and kissed the spot that hurted.
justin: better?
me: yes. man, you should become a doctor for trauma patients.
justin: no. that means i'll have to kiss all those heads.
me: eww, gross.
justin: not that kind head.
me: i know.
justin: why you thinking like that for?
me: c`mon justin. we have two more months to go.
justin: you think we're gonna make it?
me: of course.
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i was so excited to get to fourth period. i had justin in that class. that was the only class i had justin in which was chinese. i wanted to take spanish but justin would always talk about going to china and visit the great wall so he conviced me to take chinese. for some reason, i was really excited to see justin. i watched the clock during the last five minutes of class. i wanted that release bell to ring.
riiiiiing.
and it did. my third period class was four rooms over from my fourth so i took my time getting there because justin's third period class was in another building. as i took my walk to fourth period, i heard a few of the seniors talking about this new girl. they kept making comments about how hot she was. i thought it was funny. so i walked into fourth period and sat on our normal round table that me and justin sat on along with stacey and other people. stacey didn't come to school today because she got sick from jerome. he didn't come to school either. so i sat alone at the table for a while until i saw justin come into class. he smiled at me and gave me a hug.
me: missed me?
justin: it's been three period since i last saw you. of course i did.
i love it whenever justin sweet talks me. i can see how he got all those other 52 past girlfriends and 42 girls that crushed on him. yes i counted but whatever, he's mine now. his one and only.
the tardy bell rang and our teacher, mr. wong-wai started to past out our last testwe took two days ago. i got 93 out of 100. justin got 94 out of 100. that bxtch. we started comparing answers because i didn't understand how he got a higher score that i did. he copied off my paper since we had a sub that day.
me: that's not fair!
justin: you're just jeal-wow.
me: huh?
i saw justin's face and i saw that he was looking right pass me. i turned around to see who he was looking at and i saw this tall girl. she was wearing a short pink dress with white legs that stopped under her knees. she had shiny black hair that stopped right at her bra line. she was pretty. she had a perfect body and a great tan...bxtch.
girl: hi, i'm new here.
i looked at justin who was still looking at her. i slapped his face with the paper but he didn't budge. i turned back around to look at her but i noticed that all the guys in class was staring at her.
mr. wong-wai: take a seat anywhere.
she sat at the front row where no one sat. even though she was fxckin` jealously pretty, she was shy. she sat in the corner where even the geeks don't sit.
me: she's probably the girl i heard everyone talking about.
justin wasn't paying attention. i poked his face and he didn't budge. he was still staring at her. i looked back and i saw that she was staring back at him but looked away when she saw me staring at her. i looked back at justin and he was looking at both our papers making like he was doing that the whole time.
me: i admit. she's hot.
justin: who are you talking about?
me: no act keh? i saw you staring.
justin: the new girl? yeah, i saw her around campus.
i looked at him and he'd try to steal glances that her. he'd blink and look at me but blink and look at her and blink again to look at me. i just ignored it for a while. i started reading our essays which was also copied word for word. i looked up and saw that justin saw staring at her again.
me: why won't you just sit by her? go talk to her and ask her to be your friend. she's really pretty,
justin: no.
me: why not? i know you want to. i can see in your eyes that you really wanna talk to her.
justin: i'm not even looking at her.
me: yes you are. you're about to get an orgasm already from staring at her.
justin: mailyn.
me: you know what? i'll go talk to her for you.
justin: mailyn, don't.
he tried to grab my arm but too late. i was already standing up. i walked over to her and sat on the chair that shared with the big table.
me: hi.
girl: hi.
me: what's your name?
girl: i'm daisy.
let's start calling her dasiy now.
me: pretty name for a pretty girl.
daisy: thanks.
she looked so nervous. it looked like she was about to cry. she kept clicking her pen which was kinda irritating and she kept looking around.
me: yeah, even my boyfriend thinks so.
daisy: boyfriend?
me: yeah. you know that guy sitting by me over there in the pool of drool? that's my boyfriend.
she looked over my shoulder to see who i was talking about. whatever. she made like that she didn't know who i was talking about.
daisy: isn't that justin delacruz? you know? shiny?
me: so you know him? did you have a celeb crush on him?
daisy: not really. i just loved his songs.
me: aww really? justin will be crushed if he found out. he's so used to girls throwing themselves at him. i'll talk you into doing that.
daisy: huh?
me: so you're a senior?
daisy: yeah.
me: wow, that's sad. you have to spend the rest of your senior year which is like 2 months in a new school.
daisy: i kinda had to. i got kicked out.
me: ooh, bad girl. justin likes that.
daisy: isn't he your boyfriend?
me: yeah but....
mr. wong-wai: mailyn, i can see that you're trying to welcome daisy but can you please do that after class? i need to talk to you guys about your tests. i'm not really happy about it.
me: i'll talk to you later.
she gave me a smile and i did the same. i got out of the table and head back for mine as i rolled my eyes after talking to daisy. i know she's fake. the way she looked at me when i said that justin was my boyfriend. whatever.
justin: why'd you have to do that for?
me: now you know how i felt when you just went up to max at the club.
justin: that was last week. you're still mad about that? i apologized for doing that.
me: but still. that's not fair for me. so shame!
justin: so you're trying to get back at me for doing that to you?
mr. wong-wai: that old married couple back there. can you please continue your argument at home?
i was pissed. i didn't want to talk to justin, i wanted to punch that stupid teacher in the face and i wanted to rip my test in half. i just wanted to pay attention to nothing but the lesson. we had a final coming up soon so i looked at the board. in the corner of my eye, i saw this pink thing. i looked and it was daisy staring this way. i almost forgot about her. she gave me and smile and i did the same. a real one this time. she might be okay actually. i started to turn my attention back to the board but i saw daisy roll her eyes at me. whatever, she's trouble. note to self-stay away from her but keep a look out.
Chapter 11
justin felt bad about getting me mad during fourth period. he even tried to talk to me during our readings but i just exploded and i got in trouble. i ended up getting detention. so he felt even more bad. i had to stay after school in mr. wong-wai's class just to sort out his papers. it took me only five minutes. we never really had any big detentions.
so i left mr. wong-wai's room and justin was waiting for me. he was sitting down leaning against the wall. he looked so stupid...in a cute way. i stood by the door looking down at him. he smiled at him and he smiled before he got up. when he got up, he stood there looking at me with his sad face he gives me when he feels bad about getting me mad. i've been getting that face for a while but i'm not getting tired of it. when he swayed back and forth not knowing if i'm mad still, he wouldn't really look at me.
me: get over here you idiot.
he had a smile on his face. his mood just changed completely.
justin: i'm sorry.
me: i know.
justin: you have work right?
me: yeah.
justin: i'll drop you off. i have work too.
me: are you sure?
justin: yeah. i have my uniform with me. i'll just get ready at your house.
me: okay.
an hour later, me and justin were driving our way to pearlridge where i worked. he worked at the airport which was a ten minute drive without traffic. i was really tired and i didn't really feel like talking to him. he thought i was mad at him.
justin: what's wrong?
me: i'm just tired.
justin: oh okay.
me: yeah.
justin: so i tried calling you last night.
me: oh, my phone was acting retarded.
justin: how'd you get home?
me: i took the bus.
justin: you know how i feel about you riding the bus that late.
me: well i had to use my dad's old car.
justin: oh.
me: i locked the keys inside.
justin: why didn't you call someone?
me: like i said earlier, my phone was acting retarded.
justin: oh yeah. are you mad?
me: no.
i wasn't. i felt awkward talking about last night because of the whole ride with max. i wanted to tell him because he had the right to tell the truth but i knew he was gonna blow up. he didn't even know that max and i were working together.
justin: i'll take you home from now on okay? now i don't have to worry about you getting home late at night.
me: sure.
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the whole mall had to close early. these stupid freshman from some other schools that were rivals chose pearlridge to start a fight. what idiots. some were running from each other and some were taking advantage of the workers and security guards being distracted with the fight that they started to steal stuff from stores. we had to close an hour earlier. this meant that i had to wait an hour until justin's shift ended at starbucks. stacey called in sick.
i closed my locker and i found max leaning against his smiling at me.
max: so mailyn, where are you going after this?
me: home.
i couldn't stand that guy. i just ignored him and i left him. i made it out of the store and i thought i was free. when i heard footsteps behind me, i knew i wasn't. but i turned around to make sure. yups, that was him following me.
max: c`mon, i know our first impression at the club was bad but you wanna start over?
me: actually yeah. let's make pretend that we didn't see each other that the club.
max: c`mon, stop doing that. you're turning me on.
me: why don't you just turn it off?
max: c`mon, let me take you to buy jamba juice or something?
in matter of fact, i was gonna go get some jamba juice before i went home. that isolated part of the mall wasn't closing. and he'll pay for mine so sure. gosh, i just talked myself into hanging out with a guy justin will probably kill if he found out.
max: so?
me: you got 20 minutes.
max: great.
he rode his scion to jamba juice. good thing we did. i almost fell asleep in the car even though it was a 3 minute drive.
max: what do you want? wait, let me guess. white gummy bear?
me: how'd you know?
max: you look like the white gummy bear type.
me: oh.
max: plus that's what i get all the time.
justin hated when i got white gummy bear. he always told me to get something that had a fruit in the name like strawberry wild or mango-go-go. that's why i didn't get jamba juice whenever i was with him.
after max got the two smoothies, we sat down on the little tables outside. we sat in silent for a while but he broke the silence.
max: so...?
me: so what?
max: so what? so what? i don't care what they say `cause you're my boyfriend, you'll always be there for me. something something, i forgot the words but i used to love this song.
i giggled. i actually giggled. i slapped myself in my mind. i felt so bad for taking that offer last night and now i'm at jamba juice with him. and i'm actually giggling. i just hope justin would call. oh yes, and he did. i answered the phone interupting max with his sentence he was saying.
justin: i heard that you guys closed early tonight.
me: yeah.
justin: my shift is almost over.
me: oh okay. i'll be at jamba juice.
justin: drinking what?
me: orange dream. don't worry.
justin: okay. i'll be there in half an hour.
me: okay, i love you.
justin: i love you too.
i hung the phone. i felt so bad. i'm lying to justin. i should tell him. i WILL tell him.
max: your boyfriend?
me: yeah.
max: i envy justin. he actually gave up his singing carreer to be with you.
me: yeah. i love him so much for that.
max: i wish i had that kind of relationship.
me: really?
max: yeah. i never really had a good relationship. they all ended up-gosh, why am i telling you?
me: it's okay. maybe i can help. it's so hard for just to find help. i think girls give the best advice.
max: my first girlfriend. she cheated on me. but she kept telling me "i love you. i don't know why i did that." so i took her back. until i found out she was cheating again. this time, i didn't take her back. even though it took a while, i moved on. then i found someone else. she was way better than the first girl. until she passed away. i just gave up on love. then i met this other girl. she made me feel so special. eventually, her parents found out. they told her to break up with me but she kept telling them she loved me too much. so they kicked her out. she lived on the streets for about a month. i would've let her stay at my house but her parents put a restraining order on me so i wouldn't go next to her or even have any communication with her. she was my last girlfriend.
wow. he's been through a lot. i didn't know what to say. even though me and justin fight a lot, everyone admires the relationship we have. i never realized how special my relationship is compared to others. i just looked at him. i didn't expect this but he ended up crying. i gave him a hug to comfort him and he cried on my shoulders. this lasted for a while but he stopped about ten minutes later.
max: i'm sorry. i just never really told anyone this. i mean, i have friends but i can never talk to them like this. they'll just laugh at me.
me: i hate those kind friend. those aren't really friends. you need new friends.
max: i know but they helped me through other things. my longest friend, derrick took care of me for a year when my father died and my mom went crazy.
me: do you have any siblings?
max: my father killed them. me and my mom weren't home because i was crying the whole day about getting a toy.
me: that was your family? omg, i'm sorry. i didn't know.
max: no, i'm sorry. that's why i act really weird around you. i just want a friend.
me: i can be your friend.
max: what about your boyfriend? don't you think he'll be pissed?
me: he doesn't have to know.
it was too late. when i saw max's face staring my way looking pass my shoulders, i knew what was gonna happen.
justin: mailyn you bxtch!
me: justin, i know you're mad.
justin: no, i'm fxckin` happy that you're out on a DATE with someone else.
me: date? justin. he's just my co-worker. justin! he's having some problems and i'm helping him.
max: i'm sorry. i'll just go.
justin: no! stay here but don't fxckin` say anything and don't interupt us.
me: justin, stop it!
justin: stop it? okay fine i'll stop...our relationship!
me: justin!
he was pissed. i've never seen him this pissed. i thought he was gonna hit me but he just stormed on his way to his car.
me: aren't you gonna take me home? justin, i'm sorry. can't we just talk about it?
justin: go talk to your new boyfriend and ask him for a ride. i don't wanna deal with you anymore.
Chapter 12
i woke up the next morning and my head was sore. i got up and looked at the time. 7:31AM. oh shxt! i'm gonna be late for school! i stretched as i made my way to the bathroom. i had to rush- take a shower, do my hair and put on make up under half an hour. good thing i picked out an outfit to wear last night. hmm, last night. was it a dream? stratch that...a nightmare? i needed to talk to justin.
i reached school with five minutes to spare and i saw justin wasn't at our spot today. we usually hung out at the corner of the senior building. justin wasn't there. stacey looked at me weird.
me: yes?
stacey: you guys broke up didn't you?
me: when i woke up this morning, i just hoping it was just a nightmare. i can't believe it's really true.
stacey: i shouldn't went work last night. i could've prevented that from happening.
me: it's not your fault.
stacey: are you okay? your eyes are super puffy. you should've stayed home.
me: you shoud've seen him, stace. he was super pissed. i've never seen him like that. knowing him almost my whole life, i've been seen him that mad. he was always a happy person.
stacey: what were you doing with max anyways?
me: he had problems he was going through.
stacey: you're always doing the right thing.
me: yeah but justin saw it as me being on a date with him.
she gave me a hug. i didn't realize it but i was crying. i felt it roll down onto my arm when i hugged her back.
me: where is justin anyways?
stacey: i don't know.
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fourth period came. today, i didn't want to go to that class. yesterday i was super excited but today, it's the total opposite. good thing i had stacey with me. she helped me get to class. i didn't even know if justin came to school. i haven't seen him yet. hopefully he didn't come to school but i made stacey check the class just in case.
stacey: he's not there.
me: okay good.
i walked into class and we headed to our table. i saw daisy staring at me. i forgot all about that bxtch. i didn't tell stacey about daisy yet. i'll tell her later.
so i started to calm down since i knew i was super tense and shaking wondering if justin came to school. when the bell rang, i thought i was saved for the day...until the door opened and in walks in justin. my heart jumped and i started sweating. i just wanted to break down. my eyes were super messed up but justin's were perfectly fine. i doubt he cried over me last night. what a bxtch.
he looked at me and gave me his mad face. i'd usually laugh at it but today, it looked scary to me. instead of him sitting on our table, he sat on the table where daisy was sitting. she smiled at him when he sat down. she looked over my way and gave me a fake smile. i did the same.
stacey: who's that?
me: this new girl. her name is daisy.
stacey: oh, she's pretty.
me: i know but she's fxckin` trouble. my bxtchassness senses are tingling.
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i didn't feel like going to work but i had to. i made stacey drive because i couldn't even concentrate walking. i bumped into five people today. i just wanted to stay home and eat ice cream forever. i had to hold onto stacey's arm and she held onto mine. i couldn't face max but too late. he saw us and he waved. i forced myself to smile.
stacey: are you sure you can handle this?
me: yeah.
we got to pacsun and headed straight to the back. i was in the lounge alone. the lounge wasn't that big but big enough to fit all the employees that had that shift. it had two couched on each side and a circle coffee table in the middle. i sat in the back corner just thinking. my think was interupted when max walked in. he sat on the same couch but sat two feet away from me.
max: if i knew that was gonna happen last night, i would've left you alone.
me: you know how he acted at the club.
max: but i didn't know he'd break up with you.
me: that's just how he is.
max: i'm sorry. if you want, i can just talk to him.
me: even if there's bars between you guys, he'll try find a way to get you.
max: i'm really sorry mailyn. what can i do to make it up to you?
me: leave me alone and get out of my life.
max: is that what you really want?
me: if i didn't meet you, this wouldn't have happened.
max: okay, if that's what you want.
me: yeah, that's what i want.
max: i'll quit too. i'll quit working here.
me: you can't do that.
max: i can, and i will. mailyn, today is my last day.
i felt bad. i really didn't want him to quit. he needs the money to support himself. if i talk him into staying, he'll get the wrong idea.
me: are you sure?
max: mailyn, it's okay. c`mon, don't worry about me.
he patted my shoulder and got up. he fixed his black zoo york shirt before he smiled and headed out the door. i started to follow him to grab the new shipping of clothes but before i stepped out into the store, i saw daisy in the guys' section. oh yes, she has a boyfriend.
max: damn she's hot.
me: that's daisy.
max: you know her? hook me up boo.
me: i don't like her.
max: why not?
i looked over back at her. she was checking out the jackets. i looked around for stacey. i couldn't see her. i came up with a plan.
me: i know a way to make it up to me.
max: what?
me: go talk to her and help her out. ask her who the jacket's for.
max: okay.
he put down the box and he headed towards her. i was getting super giggly. i put down my box also and sat on it as i watched max work his magic.
MAX'S POV
how is this making it up to her? oh well. damn, daisy's looking at me. she just smile. damn that's a hot smile. she came up to me first.
daisy: do you have any other jackets?
me: we just got a new shipping but you have to come back tomorrow.
daisy: oh okay.
me: yeah, sorry.
daisy: that's okay. hmm, you're a guy. what would you want from this store?
me: is this for a boyfriend?
daisy: actually, no. it's for a guy friend. it's a thank you gift for spending time with me for these past few days. i'm new here and justin was my first friend.
me: justin? cool. maybe you'll find something for him tomorrow. good luck though.
she gave me that sexy smile before she turned around and headed outside. i head back to mailyn who looked like she was watching the whole time.
REGULAR POV
me: soo?
max: it's for justin.
me: my justin?
max: she said her guy friend.
me: oh hell. it better not be my justin.
max: but she's hot.
me: i know. that's what i'm afraid of.
Chapter 13
i have a story behind this banner. i got it from a mysterious myspace page that had no friend, no picture, no info. this banner cracks me up. not that it's ugly or anything to whoever made this but i just feel awkward looking at this `cause i have a boyfriend. thanks though to whoever made it
it was finally friday and i couldn't take going to school. it's been three days and justin hasn't even looked at me. i haven't seen or talked to max almost. justin should be happy that max is out of my life. at least that's what i want to happen. my worst nightmare was coming true. the day after max quit, daisy came back to pacsun. she was looking for max, at least that's what trina told me. daisy bought this black and white FMF Mayhem hoodie. i hide in the back corner by the clearance section where people hardly come as i watched her buy it. the next day, i saw justin wearing the same exact thing.
tonight i had a party to go to. my co-worker dan was moving and he's been working at pacsun for three years. he was the first friend i made when i first started working there because stacey didn't start working there until three months later. dan goes to a private school so i hardly get to see him or even hang out with him...but whenever we're together, we act crazy like i do with my normal friends.
today i got my day off `cause i worked double time for the past couple of weeks so mr. munoz gave me the day off. i wanted to take a nap before the party. i knew it would be tiring because dan and his friends are party animals. i've met them before. let's say that last time i hung out with them, they had to carry me up to my room...literally. i got busted the following day.
school was really tiring today because there was a senior prom fashion show. senior prom is next week. i was supposed to go with justin but i guess i'm not anymore. oh well, he paid for me anyways. i crawled into my bed under the sheets and instantally, i was in a deep sleep.
me and justin were in the back of his truck in the parking lot of a beach. the seniors at school were having a bon fire because today was their last day in school and graduation was in two weeks. i didn't want to go home since i just had a fight with my whole family. they wanted me to inherit the catering business my aunty and uncle owns. i told them no. i didn't want to run my own business.
justin: what are you gonna tell your family?
me: i already told them i don't want to.
justin: okay. just calm down. you looked really pissed off at the bonfire
me: i know.
justin: let's just stay here for a while.
justin had a matress thing on the back of his truck because we used to tease each other about being light so we sun bathed together. most of the time, it was just for cuddling. this was what i needed. we laid for a while in silence as i closed my eyes. my relaxtion was interupted when justin started freaking out that he saw a shooting star.
me: then make a wish.
justin: for what? i have everything i wanted.
me: hmm, i love you.
justin: i love you too.
we just stared at the stars and looked for constellations.
justin: i see the big dipper.
me: i see orion.
we even started to make our own.
justin: i see hello kitty.
me: i see pickachu.
justin: the stars even spells out words. look, over says "justin loves mailyn."
me: really? `cause over it says "mailyn and justin forver."
justin: i really like the stars tonight. over there is says "mailyn, will you marry me?"
me: congrats to the other mailyn.
justin: those stars say " you idiot, justin's asking you that."
me: oh.
i didn't know if he was serious or not. i didn't know what to say except "oh."
justin: mailyn lauren ferrero, i really do love you and i wanna spend my life with you. will you marry me?
me: wow, a shooting star.
justin: mai, i'm being serious.
me: that shooting spelt out something. it says "i do."
i twitched when i felt something going up my nose. i opened my eyes and heard giggling. i gave a fake scream and tried to grab the twins. they started giggling and tried to run away but i was too fast. i got them and pulled them onto my bed. they both started to jump on bed and start screaming. i noticed that i had a headache so i told them to stop. they climbed down from my bed and ran out the door. i looked at the time and it was 5:43PM. i've been asleep for two hours. i shook my head and stretched as i got up. i headed to the bathroom to take a quick shower in cold water to wake me up.
ten minutes later, i got out of the shower and in my room, i noticed that my phone light was on. i checked it and i got a missed call. from who? justin! i was super excited so i called him. i hope he's gonna ask for me back.
justin: hello?
me: you called?
justin: oh yeah.
me: so what's up?
justin: nothing. i called the wrong number. i pressed the wrong speed dial button.
me: oh okay.
he hung up. i just wanted to cry. he doesn't even wanna talk to me. my dream was bullshxt already. we're done for good. he's never gonna forgive me. but i can't give up. gosh, i sound like a stupid cartoon character. hopefully the party takes me mind of this.
i ran out of my house wearing a black graffic shirt from charlotte ruuse[don't you think they have the best graffic tees?] with skinny jeans to meet up with stacey. we originally planned for me to drive but since i've been so depressed lately, she got scared that i was gonna break down out of nowhere and lose control of the car. she gets so paranoid.
stacey: hey sexy.
me: stace, no.
stacey: why not? that used to make you laugh all the time.
me: my point.
stacey went through a phase where she started talking "different." i don't know any other word to explain it. she'd try out different ways to talk. she started talking black then barbie kind and other stuff. i loved the conceited one. you know like bigego in ickest's videos?
we headed to dan's house which was on the other side of the island. that was another reason why we hardly hung out together. it was an hour drive.
we should've left early. by the time we got to his street, everywhere was packed. we had to drive in circles about five times until a neighbor allowed us to park in their driveway. it was a young couple. probably in their early twenties. the guy was pretty hot.
we got into the house and we heard the loudest yelling in the living room so we headed that way. we got into the living room and it was like everyone was waiting for us. everyone started cheering i was here and everyone started hugging me. stacey felt uncomfortable because she knew them but wasn't really close to any of them like i was.
dan: awwwright. the strippers are here!
i slapped his forehead as i sat between him and his best friend, ash. they were inseperable and they were the one who carried me up to my room.
ash: long time no see.
it really was a long time i've seen him. it's been almost a year. me and ash had a thing going on. i didn't really like him because that's when i was talking to justin at the time. we'd always flirt and stuff but never did anything. he was my little boy toy and i was his booty call. we'd just mess around with each other.
he had his arm around me and i didn't notice until i leaned against the couch. i almost jumped off the couch but he moved his arm. we were just smiling at each other. i looked away first when i heard yelling. someone else arrived...but not just anyone. it was...max! great.
ash: maxxy boy! sit down. sit down.
i watched him as i timed him to notice that i was here. one, two,three..
max: hi mailyn.
me: hey.
ash: you guys know each other?
me: we work together.
max: we used to work together.
me: how do you guys know each other?
max: school.
me: you go to a private school?
max: yeah. and?
me: you don't look like the private school type.
max just shrugged his shoulders. he's acting weird. he's not hitting on me or anything.
me: max, can i talk you to?..alone?
ash: maxxy's gonna get laid tonight!
me: can you shut the fxck up?
i grabbed max's arm and looked for stacey. okay, she's in the corner talking to trina. i pulled max into the backyard where dan's old playground use to me.
max: what's up?
me: you're acting weird.
max: how?
me: you're not hitting on me.
i got the answer i never thought of getting in a million years. his lips cut off mine. it took me a while to pull away.
me: what the hell was that for?
max: something i've been holding back.
Chapter 14
on sunday morning, i woke up to the stupidest thing. i thought it was my phone or the radio playing but when i woke up, i found steven beat boxing, jerome rapping and jeremy trying to dance. maybe if i pretend to still be asleep, they'll go away...but too late. i didn't shut my eyes fast enough. steven caught me awake.
steven: hey! wake up!
they jumped onto my bed and jumped like they were the twins. i swear, they are so immature. steven cuddling in my blanket with me and jerome and jeremy laid on by my feet.
me: what do you guys want?
jeremy startedd tickling my feet. i hated when they did that. whenever me and justin got into a small argument, i wouldn't want to talk to him. jeremy would pick me up and steven would hold my legs as justin took off my footwear and tickle my feet.
steven: we need an all-guys-day along with you.
jerome: we don't know what's going on with you.
jeremy: it's like you're a stranger to us.
it was true. when me and justin were together, we'd isolate ourselves from the group to flirt and stuff. now that we broke up, i've been coming to school late and during lunch, i'd isolate myself from the group. i'd be quiet and not talk to anyone.
me: so what's the plan for today?
steven: i know it sounds gay but it would be really good for you.
i got up from laying down. i looked down at all three of them who looked way too comfortable being in one bed with other guys. i poked steven's side and he flinched.
me: what is it?
steven: time to go to the spa!
me: spa? are you serious? who's idea was it?
jeremy told said it was steven's idea. steven said it was jerome's idea. jerome said it was jeremy's idea. i didn't know who to believe.
me: okay, i don't care who planned it. are you guys coming?
they all started smiling and nodded their head. what a bunch of gay guys.
me: thanks you guys. that's something i really needed.
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i laid on the massage bed with an uncomfortable feeling. i wasn't really covered. all i had was a towel around my waist and my boobs was bare on the table. not only that but i was in the room with three other guys. the massage therapists were running late.
me: you guys, don't you feel weird?
steven: not really. why? do you?
me: yeah.
jeremy: why? `cause of your boobs? don't worry. remember that one night?
me: what night?
steven: that time you flashed us? it was the same year that justin moved to reno. we had that good-bye party and you got drunk as hell!
omg, i didn't even know that.
me: wtf? are you serious?
steven: yeah! fxck, that was hilarious!
jeremy: you should've seen yourself!
i thought about it. i tried to remember and that's what happened. i remember everything.
FLASHBACK
we were at jeremy's house having a good-bye party for justin. he was moving in three days. i really wanted to cry in justin's arms but everyone looked fine. it was like justin's wasn't even moving so i kept my emotions inside.
jeremy busted out the wine. i took the first drinks. it was cup after cup after cup. after the wine was gone, jeremy busted on the tequila. there were three different flavors and jeremy's older sister brought out the jello. they started making jello shots. i took the first five shots.
in no time, i started to black out. i remember everyone laughing at me. then it started getting hot. i was wearing a tube top. i don't remember flashing them but i remember that it slid down.
END FLASHBACK
me: eww you guys! so shame already.
jeremy: c`mon lynn! we've known each other for how long already?
me: still yet! that's gross. i showed you guys my chuchas!
steven: that's okay mailyn. wanna make it even?
he got up with that stupid towel around his waist. i knew what he was gonna do.
me: don't do it! that's gross!
he started laughing. he got back onto the table.
steven: you seriously thought i was gonna show you my thoing-a-thoing?
me: uhh... yeah!
steven: yeah i was.
i rolled my eyes and that's when we heard the doors. the massage therapists were here and i was so excited to get my massage. i closed my eyes when i heard the massage therapists talking.
mt#1: good, you guys got ready without us.
this one sounds like a lady. by the tone of her voice, she sounds very friendly.
steven: yeah, we had a very interesting conversation.
me: omg steven. do NOT talk about that.
mt#2: oh really? sounds like a naughty conversation.
this one sounds like a gay man. he sounded cool though.
me: omg steven! look what you did!
steven: hey! jeremy was the one who brought that up!
jeremy: you were the one who mentioned your boobs!
the other massage therapists were really quiet. they were probably knew. they i looked over to my left where jerome was laying down.
me: jerome, why are you so quiet?
jerome: nothing.
steven: he feels awkward talking about your boobs.
me: it's not like he saw them.
jerome: actually, justin showed me a picture.
me: there's a picture? omg, so shame now! ugh.
the room went quiet for a while. then all of a sudden, all three of them and probably along with the massage therapists, they started laughing. this is such an embarrassing moment.
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i waited outside of the spa as the guys paid for our appointment. they kepy arguing about who should pay. they didn't want the workers to seem like they were gay. i offered to go but they didn't want me too. since they couldn't decide, all three of them went. what a stupid idea right?
it started to get hot so i got up to head to the car but we took jeremy's car. he had the keys so i sat back down. i looked at my watch. three minutes has passed already. man, does it take that long to pay for a massage? steven's probably talking to the girl. i didn't get to really look at her but she looked pretty from where i was standing.
jeremy: see steven, you should've just went inside by yourself.
steven: now she thinks i'm gay.
finally they were here. we made our way to the parking lot when i felt something tickling my leg. i looked down and i found a loose thread from my capris on my leg. i tugged it off then...
BANG!!
i bumped into a car. the guys could help but laugh. i gotta admit, it was funny. i started laughing too. but was there anyone in the car? i looked at the car...a silver scion tc. oh shxt! please god i'm begging you. please don't let it be who i think it is.
max: mailyn?
crap.
me: hi max. sorry for bumping into your car. bye now.
i walked as fast as i could away from him. i could hear him calling my name. i made so many turns that even i didn't know where i was. i stopped for a while to locate where i was. that's when a heard a honk right in front of me. it was jeremy them. i hopped into the car as the three of them watched me.
jerome: who was that?
me: i don't know. no one. how should i know?
jerome: okay then.
jeremy started up the car and he backed up from the parking spot. when we went around the parking lot and passed by where i bumped into max, i reached for my necklace because that's what i do when i'm in a negative mood. i reached for my upped chest area and it was bare. i tried to feel for it around my neck...nothing. crap, that's why max was trying to call for me. max has my necklace. the necklace that justin gave to me. how am i gonna get it back?
Chapter 15
kathleen: how are you and justin?
me: me and justin? wow, we broke up.
kathleen: are you serious? i thought you guys would get married. are you okay?
me: okay? not really. i hope it's a temperary break up.
kathleen: i hope so. good luck with that. catch you around.
she stepped into her car and started the engine. she drove off from the gas station and onto the main road. when the gas flow stopped, i put the thing away and got into the car. it was on my way home from work on a monday night when i noticed that i needed some gas. i got out of the gas station and got onto the main road. i was really tired `cause i did every single assignment handed today and i had work too. i just wanted to sleep while i was driving but yeah...that's a bad idea.
i yawned as i exited the freeway and i looked over to the car next to me...which was a truck. not just any truck but a silver tundra. the driver? justin delacruz. i watched him and i saw that he was laughing. why was he laughing? when he moved his head and i saw daisy's face. BXTCH!!! why the hell were they spending time together?
i got home in five minutes and i decided to call justin to ask him what's up. i was super scared to call him but i needed to know what's going on with him and daisy. they've been spending too much time together.
ring...ring...ring...
justin: hello?
me: are you busy?
justin: i'm just on my way home. what's up?
i hate it when he talks to me like that. he makes like everything is okay between but when it's the total opposite.
me: i know you're on your way home. i saw you on the road.
justin: really? where?
me: exiting the freeway. who was your friend in the passenger seat?
justin: oh her? my mom.
me: whatever justin. i saw who that was. that was daisy.
justin: so?
me: justin, what's up with you two?
justin: me and daisy? mai, she's my girlfriend.
i was speechless. i didn't know what to say. it was like he stuck an arrown down my throat and down to my heart because my heart was hurting.
me: girlfriend? wow, and you didn't talk to me about it?
justin: what was there to talk about mai? do i need permission from my ex-girlfriend to ask another girl out?
me: justin, this isn't fair.
justin: life isn't fair.
me: ugh! why? why would you do this to me?
justin: do what? make myself happy which makes you miserable? why won't you just hook up with max?
me: me and max are just friends!!
justin: me and daisy aren't. i'm happy with her. i think you should do the same and find someone else `cause mailyn, i'm over you.
he didn't give me a chance to speak. he just hung up the phone. that's when my heart stopped and i collapsed onto my bed.
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i woke up the next morning with a headache. i tried to get out of bed but my parents were right there staring at me. i looked at the time and it was 8:13AM. i was late for school!
mom: woah, where do you think you're going?
me: i'm late for school.
mom: you're not going to school today.
me: why not?
mom: you're going to the doctor. when i got home last night, i saw you collapse onto your bed. i tried waking you up but you wouldn't budge.
me: oh, wow.
mom: is everything okay?
me: mom, justin has a new girlfriend.
mom: really? omg, are you serious? who?
me: this new girl at school.
mom: really? no wonder i saw justin with this other girl the other day.
me: when?
mom: i forget but he was with this girl.
me: probably her then.
mom: but she's not that pretty. she's way better looking than you.
me: whatever. you're just saying that `cause you're my mom. she's really pretty.
mom: pretty? you better not be a lesbian. i want grandchildren you know.
me: mom!
mom: if you and justin had kids, they'd be the popular ones at school.
me: mom!
mom: okay, i'll stop. go get ready. maybe you can go to school after your appointment.
me: no. i don't wanna see justin and daisy together.
mom: are you sure? you can't avoid them forever.
me: i know but i can avoid them for now.
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stacey and steven came over my house after school was done. i guess they found out the news about justin and daisy because they looked disgusted.
stacey: you are SOOOO lucky you didn't come school today!
steven: it was so nasty. yuck, i can't get the picture out of my head.
me: why?
stacey: gross. when they kissed, it was like they were trying to shove their tongues down each others throat. eww!
me: and you steven thought that was nasty?
steven: it was! her tongue was a weird looking color!
me: you were watching them and staring at her tongue?
steven: no, when she talked. it was gross.
me: maybe she was eating candy?
stacey: i don't know but you gotta try break them up. she has the biggest eye problem. if i didn't know her, i might've thought she was checking me out.
steven: she's bi you know?
stacey: are you serious?!
steven: haha, no.
me: what can i do? i guess we're really over.
stacey: hello! you guys can't throw what you guys have after ALL you guys been through.
me: he said it himself that he was over me. i can't force him to fall back in love with me.
steven: i'll try talk to him. i'll make like that i'm love with you and see his reaction.
me: whatever. it's not gonna work.
steven: it will. trust me. i guarantee in a week that he'll be running back to you.
Chapter 16
me and daisy aren't. i'm happy with her. i think you should do the same and find someone else `cause mailyn, i'm over you.
that was what kept running in my mind for three days straight. seeing them together in the morning, during fourth period and lunch killed me inside. i hated seeing them together. i thought it was stupid when justin was trynna get closer to her, he wasn't with us. but now that they're together, they're with us. it sickens me that justin can't let go of her. it's like justin is her jacket. gross!
although watching them was sickening me, i stayed around our spot. i wasn't gonna let them take over the good side of me. ugh, but stacey was right. she had the biggest eye problem. i hated it but i didn't let it get to me. i just played around with steven this morning.
steven: what do you call cheese that's not your's?
me: i don't know.
steven: nacho cheese. [get it?]
me: that was stupid.
even though it was stupid, i laughed. it was those stupidly funny jokes. he's such an idiot.
steven: i just wanted to make you laugh.
me: yeah, mission accomplished.
steven: it seemed like you needed it.
me: yeah so thanks.
steven: i'm here for you that's why.
me: i know i know.
i looked at him and gave him a smile. he gave me an even bigger smile and it made him look like this cute guy from this korean drama that i'm watching called bad love. i just stared at him and started giggling when he made a confused face.
steven: what?
me: nothing.
steven: okay.
me: steven, i gotta find you a girlfriend like for real.
steven: only if i get to find you a boyfriend.
me: deal. oh and steven, you don't gotta talk to justin for me. i'll do it myself.
steven: sure okay.
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as i headed to fourth period, i saw that justin was already by the class. if we were still together, he'd yell my name and open his arms as i ran and jumped into them but this time, i just walked passed him. i was right by the door when he grabbed my arm. he only does that when he really wants to get something through to me.
me: what?
justin: i'm sorry okay?
me: sorry for what? tell me why you're apologizing to me.
justin: for pissing you off and making you feel uncomfortable.
me: but yeah. be more specific.
justin: okay fine. want a real apology?
me: yes please.
justin: okay mailyn, i'm sorry for yelling at you at jamba juice. i'm sooo sorry for assuming things. i'm sorry for making like you're out of my life and being with daisy. i'm sorry for all the pain i'm causing you. i'm sorry for everything.
he sighed as if he's been holding that in for a life time. but it relieved me too.
me: so why are you apologizing for? did you and daisy break up or something?
justin: break up? no way. mai, she wanted me to apologize to you. at first i didn't want to but she made me realize that i had to. mai, she isn't that bad once you get to know her.
me: 1) don't call me mai anymore. you were only to call me that because we were super close and that you were my boyfriend but that's changed. 2) i don't wanna accept that apology if it wasn't your idea. and 3) i don't care if daisy really nice when you get to know her because that's not gonna happen with me.
i entered the room and headed to my table. stacey was there waiting for me with a concerned face.
stacey: what happened?
right after she said that, that's when my least favorite couple walked inside. justin wouldn't even look at me but daisy did all the staring. i think that's why justin doesn't look at me anymore. daisy is doing it all for him.
me: nothing
Chapter 17
stacey: don't be nappy, be happy!...you better smile so i can dial...don't be depressed `cause it's a mess.
me: okay stacey. stop with the retarded slogans.
stacey: okay, sorry. i'm just trying to cheer you up.
me: yeah thanks but don't come up with slogans.
stacey: oh okay. well going to work might help you get your mind off justin.
yeah it will. that's what happened yesterday. for the whole week, we're having this sale. the whole week had been busy. all i've been thinking about in work was where to put the clothes and how many change i had to give to the customer.
we got to pacsun and it was packed! good thing my shift doesn't started until another half and hour...but as for stacey, her shift was in ten minutes.
stacey: are you sure you're gonna be okay?
me: yeah. i'll be around. just don't worry about me.
stacey: but i can't. i love you best friend.
me: just go and do your job!
stacey: okay. see you later!
i watched her run pass through the crowd of people and get to the back. when she was out of my sight, i walked the other way to get to the food court. i was starving and what's a girls best friend when she's depressed? ICE CREAM! a oreo mcflurry from mickey d's was sounding good to my stomch right now.
i made my way to the bottom of the food court to ride the stupid escalator up. i think that they shouldd get rid of the escalator and make it all stairs because people aren't gonna burn off those calories from the food court by ridng on the escalators.
i got into line as i looked for my wallet making sure i had money. it would be stupid if i didn't have any money and they already had my mcflurry ready.
as i got to the front of the line, i waited for someone to take my order. i looked down at my feet `cause it felt weird. i tried to wiggle my toes but someone was asking for my order.
me: can i have an or-
i looked up and i saw max's face looking at me. he was working here? wow, i was surprised. he was surprised to see me too.
max: what do you want mailyn?
me: an orea mcflurry. i mean, oreo mcflurry.
max: good saved because i don't know what an orea is.
me: hurry up and get me my stupid ice cream.
max: $2.53.
i handed him the money and stood on the side of the counter. it didn't take him long for get it since there wasn't anyone around. he gave me the mcflurry and sat aside by me.
max: so how are you and justin?
me: he fxckin` has a new girlfriend.
max: are you serious? wow, i'm sorry for breaking you guys up.
me: it's okay. it wasn't like that was your whole plan.
max: i'm still sorry. i didn't know he was like that.
me: max, you remember what happened at the club.
max: true.
me: shouldn't you be working?
max: my shift is over anyways.
me: oh, okay.
max: why are you here by yourself?
me: my shift is in half an hour.
max: want company?
i didn't mind so i shrugged my shoulders. i grabbed a bite of the ice cream and it just melting in my mouth. omg, it tastes sooo good.
max: oh btw, i have something of your's.
he pulled out something from his pocket and he handed me my necklace. the necklace justin gave me when we made six months. he said that's the month where it all counts.
me: thanks.
max: you're welcome. if you stopped when i was calling you, then yeah. you would have it right now.
me: sorry about that. i just felt awkward.
max: mailyn, i'm sorry that i kissed you that night. i wasn't lying okay? i really wanted to do that.
me: it's okay. i mean, i had no control over that.
max: i just don't want it to be awkward around us anymore.
me: okay.
max: but uhh, just to make sure. those three guys? what's up with that? your body guards or something?
me: no, those are guys my friends.
max: oh, so you're those kind of girls that have guys all over them? i can tell.
me: yeah right.
max: i should join your posse.
me: no!
max: c`mon, it'll be fun.
me: no!
max: why not?
me: it will feel weird.
max: how?
me: it just does.
max: why? do you like me?
me: what?
max: `cause i like you.
Chapter 18
i had the best feeling when i woke up. i heard the birds singing outside, the sunlight was shining in my room perfectly and for some reason, i was happy. i had a good feeling of today. i kicked off my blanket and stretched as i got up from bed. i knew i was gonna have relaxing day. i didn't have work today and i had plans with the guys to go the private pool in steven's neighborhood.
in an hour, jeremy was honking his horn outside my house. that idiot doesn't have manners. even if it was like three in the morning, he beeps his horn.
i headed outside and jeremy's car was in the driveway. i had my cute brown baithing suit on with my white dress over it. i smiled after i locked the door behind me. i hopped inside and i saw a guy that looked very familar. even though he was sitting down, he looked tall. probabably taller than the filfs. he had his left ear pierce but not his right one. he looked a little older than me, more like jeremy's age. i didn't know who it was.
jeremy: zack, mailyn. mailyn, zack.
zack: hey mailyn. you're sexy.
me: uhhh, thanks.
zack: are you still going out with that fagnut justin?
me: uhhh, no?
zack: good `cause i'm like to take you on a ride on my magic carpet.
me: uhhh, no thanks.
jeremy and zack starts cracking up. gosh, i knew none of their friends would be like that.
zack: i'm just kidding. i do that to everyone my friends introduce me to.
me: aww, you guys are so mean!
zack: oh and you're nice?
me: yes i am. i'm america's number one sweetheart. the president's daughter got that name from me.
zack: mmmhmm. okay.
during the ride to steven's pool, i learned that zack was a senior at a nearby school called kapolei high school. he has a girlfriend and had been together for only a week. his birthday is on may 3 which was tomorrow. he invited me to the party which was tomorrow. jeremy met him at work. zack was new.
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it was weird watching the guys have a chicken fight. it was hilarious though. i stayed on the side to make it even. i was laughing my ass off. zack was the tallest one. jeremy was the second so they were separate teams. steven was on jeremy and jerome was on zack.
jeremy: steven, you're so gross! i can feel your fxckin` boner!
me: steven was watching porn before he got here. eww, that's why he took so long.
jeremy started getting grossed out and pulled steven off of him. jerome slid off zack's shoulders. they all got out of the pool and three of them sat on a folding beach chair. steven carried me off and was about to throw me into the pool. i started screaming and i started to kick out of his grip. then accidentally hit his nose and it started bleeding!
he put me down and i was just speechless. i just looked at him with my mouth covered. i felt so bad. i didn't know what to do. all i could do was watch the blood drip down to his chest. then he ran to the bathroom to get some napkins.
i then followed him to the bathroom. i didn't care if it was the guys' bathroom, i was innocent of making a guy lose probably 1% of his blood. when i got inside, i accidentally bumped into this old man. i was so embarressed but i needed to get to my best friend.
when i saw him, he was blowing the extra blood out of his nose. he then washed his face and stuck a napkin in his right nostril. that's where it was bleeding.
i ran to him and gave him a hug.
me: i'm sooooooo sorry. it was a total accident.
steven: i know. it's okay mailyn.
me: i'm super sorry steven. omg, i hope it stops soon. can i see it?
he took out the little piece of napkin from his nose and threw it away. he looked at himself in the mirror and his nose was fine.
me: omg steven, i'm s-
steven: you apologize to me one more time then i'm gonna give you a bloody nose.
me: okay, fine.
we made our way outside and steven laid down on the beach chair with his stomach down. i jumped into the pool for a while until i heard steven calling me name. i got out of the pool and went by him.
steven: can you give me a massage?
me: right now?
steven: yeah.
me: you called me out of the pool just for a massage?
steven: hey, you gave me a bloody nose.
me: fine.
i crawled on top of him and started giving him a massage. i can tell he was enjoying it because i can hear him giving soft moans.
me: steven, please moan to yourself.
steven: my bad.
i continued massaging him.
five minutes later, i felt a poke on my right side and i flinched. i looked over that way and jeremy was waving at me so i smiled. he then poked me again.
me: what?
jeremy: i wanna massage too.
i got off steven who was half asleep and i climbed on top of jeremy.
jerome: me too after.
me: fine. zack, want one too?
zack: ooooh, suuuuuuuure.
it took me about 20 minutes total to massage all the guys. i felt so weird. everyone was staring. there was also this group of girls that passed by and just stared at me. ugh, i hate those kind girls.
zack: thanks for the massage.
me: i felt so uncomfortable. i looked like a slut massages four guys.
steven: at least you're not like the girls from hmf.
hmf stands for hardcore mother fxckers. it's this crew that we'd cruise with sometimes back in freshmen year. they originated from the other side of the island but there are crew members from over here. we were friends but we weren't part of the crew. they wanted us to join but we had to get initiated. we labeled them as a gang but they denied it. the guys had to get mobbed by all the guy members for 5 minutes. the girls had a choice. get mobbed by the girls for only 3 minutes for fxck all of the guy members. none of us joined and i think they got arrested or whatever.
so back to the story.
us five were just talking when zack got a phone call. he didn't leave as answered it. us four just stared at him and listened. we have a habit of doing that.
zack: yeah?...now?...where you at?...already?...gay...shoots.
me: aww, you're going already?
zack: i'll just see you at the party tomorrow?
me: okay.
zack: mailyn, mind if you walk with me outside?
me: ummm, no?
steven: ooooooh.
me: shut up.
i got up and put on my white dress. i saw zack by the gate already and i jogged over to catch up.
me: why'd you even ask me to walk with you?
zack: i need you to do me a favor.
me: what?
zack: i know justin's your ex-boyfriend and stuff but i was thinking about having him perform at my party?
me: don't you think it's kinda last minute?
zack: i'll even pay him. all the performers i wanted was already booked.
me: why don't you ask steven and jeremy? they have their own songs.
zack: they're already are. i just think it's gonna be complete if justin's with them.
me: i think justin hates me right now but i'll try. if i can't, then you can ask the guys to ask him.
zack: thanks.
he patted my head and we heard a car turn the corner of the street. man it was a sexy car. a scion tc. wow, really nice.
zack: that's my ride. i'll see you tomorrow. gimme your answer by tonight. the guys got my number.
i started to head back into the pool when i heard a familar voice call me name. no, it was zack's voice. it was max's voice. i turned around and i saw the window down and max leaning my way.
max: zack is part of your posse too? i'll see you tomorrow.
they drove off. i was shocked. they know each other? zack and max? omg, weird...in a good way. now i get to see max tomorrow. but justin?
Chapter 19
i just stared at my reflection in the mirror as i brushed my hair. i sighed as i glanced over to my phone that was on my dresser in was sitting in front of. i don't know why i kept looking at my phone. it's not like i was expecting a call. a call? oh yeah, i have to call justin. justin. wow, i haven't talked to him in three days. everything is so different with us know. but i can't let that get in the way of asking him about zack's party. i reached over to grab my phone and i dialed his number. i hesitated before i pressed the "send" button because i didn't know if daisy was with him or if he even wants me to call. i managed to call though. it took him a while to answer.
justin: hey.
me: uhh, hi. justin, are you busy tomorrow?
justin: why? what's up?
me: just answer the question first then i'll explain.
justin: i have work in the morning.
me: and after work?
justin: i just i'm free. now can you explain why you're asking me these questions?
me: i know this guy and he's having a party tomorrow. he wants you to perform?
justin: his name?
me: zack. zack tupaz.
justin: you know him?
me: uhhh, yeah. i met him today.
justin: he's cool yeah? i like him.
me: uhh, okay.
justin: so you're going to the party?
me: yeah.
justin: why didn't he just call me himself?
me: i don't know.
justin: oh okay. well uhh, just tell him i'll do it `cause i know that the guys have been talking about it and that they're gonna perform too.
me: oh okay.
justin: i'll see you there.
me: mmmkays.
then there was an awkward silence. out through the years, this was the first time...i think. so i decided to break it.
me: justin, i just wish that everything can go back to normal.
justin: i've explain this to you so much times mailyn.
me: justin, i'm not done yet. i didn't say i want you back. i just said everything would go back to normal.
justin: too bad.
me: i don't know why you're acting like this. it's so stupid.
justin: whatever. just forget about it.
then he hung up on me.
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me: i feel like a total groupie you guys.
steven: that's okay.
jerome: but this is so cool. i can't believe that zack actually sent a limo to pick us up.
jeremy: i know.
steven: you guys make like that you haven't been in a limo before. hello, we're the best friends of former teen sensation shiny.
when he said that, my smile went away.
steven: sorry.
i just smiled.
we were in a limo seated for ten people. there was only four. justin was supposed to be in the limo but he decided to just drive there. i think it was because of what happenened last night.
the guys had this idea about dressing up in different colors and looked like a rainbow. steven wore green, jeremy wore blue, and jerome wore purple. justin was planned to wear red and zack's wearing yellow. they wanted me to wear a dress that had all the colors but i just stuck to black and white.
zack's party was different from our usual party. we had hotel parties or at venues and stuff. he did something different. it was at the beach...ko'olina beach. we had the whole beach to ourselves. zack did himself very good.
the limo stopped behind the big stage and the driver opened up the door for us. i worked my way to get out. i always hated that part when riding in limos.
by the limo, zack was waiting for us along with justin. i gave justin a quick glance. i thought it was funny that daisy wasn't with him. they were inseparable. if they were hand cuffed together, that would be heaven to them.
zack: finally you guys. i wanted to do a warm up together. we're going in ten minutes.
i never heard them together. zack only got this group together last night. i didn't even know if they practiced or not.
zack: no groupies while practicing.
me: okay fine then. bossy much.
zack: i said groupies. are you a groupie?
me: i feel like one.
steven: then go away.
me: i will.
i headed to the other side of the stage. it was really crowded. i had to squeez through people and ducked down. zack must be really popular. i finally got to the other side and managed to get to the front. i started screaming when the emcee introduced the guys.
emcee: give it up for the rainbow!
everyoone started screaming and i followed. then i felt someone bump into me. i looked over and i saw max smiling at me.
me: hey!
max: you came!
me: yeah i did.
max: great.
me: yeah.
i think it's morning, my town is waking up already sunday night. i'm still up in here, still sippin` on champagne, the music feels so loud.
they were singing goodbye by joey moe. justin started the song. it was justin in the spotlight again. the crowd was going crazy. after ten months of being retired, wouldn't you think that people-especially girls-forgot about him already? wrong! all you can hear was "shiny! i love you. you're so hot."...you know, the usual.
the song was divided into each person has a verse and the chorus sung together. i admit, they did really good. everyone started getting hyped when "buck in here" started playing, especially the ending part. you know the part where the jabbawokeez got the crowd hyped up in abdc last season. i started dancing with max and i guess justin saw. even though me and justin were having major problems, he pulled me up on stage and started dancing with me. then the whole "rainbow" crew started dancing around me.
i looked down at max and he wasn't happy.
Chapter 20
i twitched as i felt something inbetween my legs. i opened my eyes and saw jerome and jeremy looking down on me with their forks. i attempted to slap them but i was too weak. i stopped when i lifted up my hand.
me: why'd you guys wake me up?
jerome: the limo driver couldn't wake you up. he has to go.
me: ugh, but i was getting so comfy.
jeremy: it's only 3.
me: only 3? it's 3 in the morning.
jerome: let's get her out.
i felt bad that i was super tired but i really was. i don't know why. i hardly did anything during the day.
jerome and jeremy got me out. it took them ten minutes but they did it.
me: when are you guys going home?
jerome: we're gonna crash at the hotel.
jeremy: zack didn't tell you?
me: no.
i was leaning against jerome. i had my arm on his shoulder and my head down. it was so hard for me to stand up straight because i kept wobbling. steven picked me up bridal style and he let me sleep in his arms for a while.
i was asleep but i knew what was going around me. i could hear the guys talking and i guess that max joined them.
max: mailyn's wasted.
steven: she's just tired.
max: i'm headed home right now. i'll drop her off. i know where she lives.
steven: you sure?
max: yeah. i'm headed that way anyways.
steven: her keys are in her bag. her house key is the pink one. if she can't make it to the front door, carry her inside. her room is upstairs to the right, all the way in. if her parents wake up, just introduced yourself.
max: has this happened before? like you guys carrying her inside?
jerome: way too much times.
max: okay. i got it.
steven: thanks man.
i felt my body shifting over into someone else's arms. i was getting cold and i started shivering. when i opened up my eyes, i was in the familar scion tc.
max: here.
i turned my head over and max put his jacket on me. the jacket was so warm. my eyes started getting heavy again but i wasn't really tired so i just closed my eyes and talked to max as he drove.
me: max, you're taking me home right?
max: you're such a party girl.
me: thanks for a good night.
max: thank the "rainbow." you should've seen yourself on stage.
me: don't talk about it.
max: talk about it? everyone saw it.
me: hmmm.
max: i saw how justin looked at you.
me: stop it.
max: stop what? i'm just saying what i noticed.
me: he's with daisy. it's been almost two weeks.
max: oh. so you're over him?
me: i try to but i just can.
max: well we're at your house. can you get up?
with my eyes still closed, i heard max get out of the car. i lifted up my eyelids when i heard my door open. i lifted up my head and found him looking down at me. he grabbed my gucci purse and looked for my keys. when he found it, he put it on his shoulders. he grabbed my arm and helped me up. he closed the door and locked the car. he wasn't holding me and when he turned around to check up on me, i was about to fall but he caught me in time.
max: okay, i don't think you can make it to your room by yourself.
me: thanks.
he picked me up bridal style and headed to the front door. it took him a while but he did it. he quietly made his way up the stairs and to my room.
when he got to my room, we collapsed onto my bed. he stretched his arms and rubbed them. he fixed my position on my bed and put my blanket over me. then he put my purse on my desk and he got a phone call. i guess it was one of the guys.
max: yeah, she's in...the lamp?....okay...how long?...no, i didn't hear anything...okay, shoots.
he looked at me and i can see it through the little space between my eye lid. he turned on my little night light. recently, i've been bored because i haven't been going out so i'm online scaring myself. i'd fall asleep without the night light but when i wake up, it's super dark and my wild imagination would just go crazy. that's why i need a night light.
i thought he was gonna leave but he sat on the little space on the bed.
me: you're still here?
max: i just wanted to make sure you're okay.
me: max, why aren't you staying at the hotel with the guys?
max: why? they didn't tell you yeah?
me: yeah. i thought they would. i was they little "groupie."
max: it was a whole set up. me and zack set this up.
me: why?
max: i wanted to be alone with you.
me: why?
max: i know you're tired so i'll talk to you in the morning...or afternoon because you're so tired.
me: max, no. i want you to stay here longer. i don't wanna be by myself.
max: i don't want you getting in trouble.
me: i won't get in trouble..and don't worry, you too.
max: nah, i should go.
me: max, i don't want you to leave me. justin gave up on me that easily because he knew you would treat me better than him. i know him already. he gives up on a girl when there's someone else better than him. he's right.
max: i have to go home. i'm sorry mailyn. maybe another time i'll sleepover.
me: okay. but before you go, can you do me a favor?
max: what?
me: i want a kiss.
and that's what he gave me.
Chapter 21
i woke up that morning...i mean afternoon remembering i had work. i looked at the time and it was 1:13pm. i had work at 2. i jumped into the shower and took a five minute shower. i had major speed showering skills but only if it was faster would be so cool.
i looked at my phone and i found 17 missed calls. most from stacey. i took a few clothes out from my closet and threw on whatever matched.
i took my tote and threw in my hair straightener. i grabbed everything else i needed and threw it in my bag. i ran downstairs and i shouted for my parents informing that i was leaving.
i hopped into my car and checked the time...1:30. i had half and hour left.
it was 1:42 when i parked my car in the parking lot. i grabbed my bag and got out. i made it to pacsun under five minutes. i got to the back and stacey was there waiting for me.
stacey: how was the party?
me: it was boring stacey.
stacey: then why'd you sleep like a rock last night?
me: didn't you catch on to the sarcasm?
stacey: oh, wow. i think something's wrong with me.
me: can you straighten my hair while i put on lotion?
she plugged in the straightener as i put on my victoria secret pure seduction lotion on. i had tons of victoria because justin would always give it to me.
stacey: so anything big happened at the party that you should tell me about?
me: what makes you think what?
stacey: you were super tired.
me: oh, yeah. i was.
stacey: soooo...?
me: me and max hooked up.
stacey: WHAT?!?!
she exploded. we BOTH forgot she was straightening my hair and she accidentally burnt my neck. she didn't care. she turned off the thing and unplugged it to ask me about the details.
stacey: no wonder you were tired.
now i know why she was freaking out. she took it worst than i thought.
me: yuck, gross. not that kind hook up.
stacey: oh, wow. man i got scared.
me: now i probably got a mark on my neck.
stacey: sorry. eww, it looks like a hicky.
i looked in the mirror and i looked so stupid standing so close. it did look like one.
stacey: you got a burnt hicky. let's tell justin it's from max if he notices.
me: your weird.
stacey: no, i'm weird.
me: yeah, that's what i said.
stacey: no, you said that.
me: stacey!
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i headed home after i finished work. stacey drove in her car so i was by myself. there was major traffic and i was by the bus stop. it's been a while since i rode in a bus. i started scanning the bus stop and i saw max. i honked my horn and he was the only one that looked up. i rolled down my window and he came up to the window.
me: hop in. my turn to take you home.
max: okay sure but only if we get a bite.
me: sure.
we got into the parking lot of zippy's. i wanted to do take out of stay outside but he wanted to go inside the "fancy place." it didn't take us long to figure out what we wanted. he got the bbq trio and i got grilled italian chicken fillet. it also didn't take that long to get the food ready.
max: so did you and justin get back together?
me: no?
max: what's up with that hicky?
me: oh, that. stacey was doing my hair and she hit my neck.
max: oh, believeable story.
me: i'm not making it up!
max: i'm just kidding.
me: just eat your food.
we just finished our food in silence. i hate how people talking while they eat and they talk too much that they don't finish their food. so waste food and money.
when we were done, we got to the counter with the bill and i took my wallet to pay.
max: what are you doing?
me: uhh paying for my share...unless you want me to pay for both of ours.
max: i got this.
me: can't guys understand that girls sometimes wants to pay?
max: are you sure?
me: yeah. i need gas so you can pay for that.
max: okay fine.
five minutes later, we were in my car. i didn't feel like going home yet so me and max got into the back seat. the tinted windows were up and the ac was blowing. me and max just listened to my cds and talked. when i cd was done, it was quiet. i didn't want to get up to change the cd so i just stayed there. me and max decided to just play 21 questions but it changed to like an interview.
me: spiderman or batman?
max: spiderman.
me: alright!
max: sears or macys?
me: macys all the way.
max: cool.
we were just laughing our asses off when our 1043408 questions turned into would you rather.
max: would you rather be strapped down on a table with a guy dingling his doodoo right in front of your face of go up an elephant's ass?
me: gross.
max: pick one.
me: strap down to the table.
max: would you rather be a dildo or a piece of toilet paper?
me: dildo!
max: uhhhh...
me: where do you come up with these things?
i shivered because it started getting cold but i didn't want to turn off the ac. we were both lazy to get up, he just gave me his jacket to wear and we got closer because i guess he was cold too.
max: would you rath-
that's when his phone started ringing. it was an old song but still good. it was bed by j holiday. he answered the phone and i just watched him. i hated that song. it always got me kinky.
i guess it was his mom that called because he was yelling and the mom was yelling but they stopped when they found a good day to go shopping for a party.
when he hung up, he looked down on me. he had his arm around me and my head was on his shoulder with my arm on his stomach. he smiled at me and i tried to smile back but my lips were cut off by his.
i pulled back as i started talking but he just kept going down. then one thing led to another. our clothes were on the car floor, my bra was hanging on the rearview mirror and his boxers were on the steering whel.
in no time, we got the the "climax" of our baby making. oh shxt. baby making. that was when i realized what happened. we didn't use a condom.
Chapter 22
i had a hard time walking the next day. stacey noticed. after school was over, she dragged me into her car and slapped my arm.
me: what was that for?
stacey: i know that walk.
me: nothing gets pass you.
stacey: who'd you do it with?
me: don't scream.
stacey: you know i will.
me: at least do it outside.
she rolled down the window and stuck her head out.
stacey: i'm ready.
me: max.
she didn't scream. she rolled the window back up and slapped my arm again.
me: what?
stacey: why max? mailyn! what if justin finds out?
me: he's NOT gonna find out. stacey, you better not tell anyone.
stacey: i promise.
me: okay.
stacey laid down in the driver's seat and i turned on the radio. we were waiting for zaileen to hurry her ass from detention. she was caught texting during class. stupid.
when i closed my eyes but stacey poked my side. i looked over to her and she was giving me a creepy smile.
stacey: so.....how big is he?
me: eww, gross. stacey, why are you asking me this?
stacey: `cause i wanna know. and why you saying gross for? you were the one who had sex with him.
me: well i don't wanna talk about it right now.
stacey: okay gosh. i gotta start watching out for your mood swings.
me: mood swings? haha stacey, you're funny.
i started to get nervous. i was skeptical about not wearing a condom since she abused me when i just told her. what if she kills me when i tell her we didn't use a condom? i should just talk to max first about it.
and speaking of max, my phone started ringing and it was him.
max: please don't tell me you left school yet.
me: i'm in the parking lot. how come?
max: let me take you out to eat. i need to talk to you.
me: uhh, okay. sure. i'm in the school parking lot.
max: i'll be there in a minute.
i hung up the phone and stacey was giving me the same creepy smile. i hate it when she does that.
stacey: who was that?
me: my mom.
stacey: your mom is picking you up?
me: i have a dentist appointment.
stacey: okay. have fun.
i got out of the car and stacey rolled down her window. max's car entered the parking lot and i waved at stacey before i stepped into max's car.
stacey: since when did you guys get a scion?
me: you're so funny stacey. this is max's car. he's taking me out to eat.
stacey: you better not do anything stupid.
me: yeah yeah yeah.
i got into the car and max had a little white teddy bear with a heart in the middle that said "here's my heart." he reached in the back seat and gave me a bouquet of chocolate ship cookie roses.
me: aww, this is so cute. what's all this for?
max: i just wanna say sorry about last night.
me: last night? what happened last night?
max: you know...we had sex and i wasn't even sure if you wanted it.
me: if i DIDN'T, don't you think i would've said no?
max: okay but i just wanted to do something nice for you.
me: well picking me up from school is nice.
max: where do you want to eat? you can pick.
me: i'm craving genki's.
max: genki sushi?
me: yeah. why? you don't like sushi?
max: i don't like seafood but if you wanna go genki's, i'll try sushi.
me: i don't like seafood either, there's chicken you know. maybe we can try sushi together.
max: okay.
in six minutes we got into genki sushi and sat down in a booth. we saw the conveyer belt filled with the food. the waiter came by us and asked us what we wanted. we got two each of the teriyaki chicken bowl and we ordered one california roll to share.
while we were waiting, max thought it would be funny to bring up what happenened last night.
max: you have big boobs.
me: don't talk about it in public!
max: was that your first time?
me: yeah.
max: really? i thought you and justin would've done it by now.
me: oh, we were gonna wait until we made a year. that would be in a month and a half.
max: i'm sorry. you guys make me feel so guilty. i mean, i always blame myself because it was my fault for breaking you guys up.
me: max, it's okay. justin is not being fair. i was okay whenever he had those fxckin` groupies but he can't handle me looking at a guy.
max: i took everything from you guys. hawh, i never really thought about that.
me: stop blaming yourself.
he didn't say anything. i can tell that he felt bad about how me and justin turned out. but the moment was ruined when we heard a screaming. we looked over to the door and saw a booth with five girls. the girl on the phone wearing black had spilt her water on table and on the ground. her friends were cracking up.
max: you know what i just realized?
me: what?
max: i wanna be more than friends. i don't want what happenened last night a one night stand. as much as i feel guilty about what happened between you and justin, i want you to myself. i really do like you mailyn. when i first saw you at the club, i couldn't take my eyes off you. when i saw how justin was treating you, i knew you deserved better than that.
i just smiled and ate my chicken. he looked at me with a clueless face.
max: you're not gonna say something?
me: not really.
max: was that too corny?
me: yeah.
max: corny lame or corny but cute.
me: both.
max: which one is more though?
me: cute.
max: so what do you think? do you think we'll make a relationship work?
me: i need you to answer a few question.
max: no problem.
me: how do you handle arguments?
max: it depends how it started. if it's my fault then i'll try fix it myself but if somehow it's your fault, i'll try to get you to notice what you're doing wrong.
me: max, we didn't use a condom last night.
max: so random.
me: it's been bothering me.
max: me too.
me: what if i was pregnant? would you still be with me? would you ever leave me?
max: no way. mailyn, my mom got pregnant with me when she was 13. my father left her so i know how the baby will feel if i left both you guys. i would never do that. i wouldn't leave the two people i love the most.
me: then you wanna buy a test for me?
max: let's wait a week okay?
me: okay, thanks.
max: so what? is it okay if i told people you're my girlfriend?
me: yeah.
Chapter 23
me: i wanna see you today. can we watch a movie?
max: babe, i gotta baby sit. i'm sorry.
me: it's okay.
max: but you can come over.
me: okay sure.
i just got to school and i was talking to max on the phone. he went to school early because his new born baby sister was crying. when he got to school, none of his friend were there so he called me as he waited.
max: it's raining over here. is it over there?
i was walking to our hang out spot but i stopped where i was to feel any raindrops. i looked up in the sky and it was pretty dark for a spring morning. that's when i felt a tiny drop on my nose.
me: i think it's gonna started drizzling.
max: do you have a jacket with you?
me: yeah. i wasn't gonna bring one but it kinda got cold when i walked out of my house so i ran inside to grab one. how come?
max: just making sure. i don't want you getting sick.
me: awww, so sweet.
max: babe, it's starting to pour. i don't want my phone to get wet and then it won't work and i can't talk to you until after school so i'll call you back later okay?
me: okay.
he gave me a kiss and hung up the phone. i just smiled as i made my way to our spot which was a few feet away. as i saw who was there, i noticed someone different. daisy wasn't there but justin was. the guys were around justin so i guess something happenened to them.
me: they broke up didn't they?
stacey: yeah. we tried talking to him but he wouldn't say anything. the guys are doing better than we did.
stacey was eating poptart so she offered me some. i grabbed a piece when i heard someone calling me name. i turned around and i saw justin looking at me. he got up from the table and pulled me aside to where we'd used to go to have some "alone time" when we were still together.
justin: i fxcked up big time mai.
me: what happenened to you and daisy?
justin: i don't even wanna talk about that right now. mailyn, when i said i fxcked up big time, i meant that i fxcked up everything that we had. i fxcked up our whole relationship and not only that...i fxcked up our friendship.
me: i miss you a lot.
justin: i miss you too. i feel such an idiot. i just want you back.
me: uhh....
justin: don't say anything, just listen. i want to prove to you that i'll treat you better this time. no more jealousy, no more fights, no more problems.
me: okay.
justin: i just want everything to go back to normal.
me: okay.
justin: i know you're speechless right now and that's what i was expecting.
me: okay.
he gave me a hug and i could feel tears drip on my back from justin. that's when tears started forming in my eyes. i stayed in his arms as i held onto his shirt and cried. i wanted him back too but i'm with max.
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max: babe, are you coming over?
me: i'm at home right now. it's funny because i have to baby sit also.
max: but i really wanna see you.
me: hmmm, me too.
max: can you bring them over? the twins?
me: uhh, yeah. sure. i'll come over.
max: only if you want to. i don't want you to come over because i told you to.
me: i'll come over. don't worry.
max: okay.
me: i'll just call you when i get in your neighborhood.
i hung up the phone and i find the twins looking over my shoulder because i was doing homework while i was talking to max. since this was due in two days, i'll work on it tomorrow.
me: you guys wanna get out of the house?
michelle: yes!
michael: are we going to justin's house?
michelle: please? i haven't seen him in a long time.
michael: he didn't go back to reno right?
me: no he didn't. he's just sick.
michelle: can we go visit him? i'll make him a card.
me: he's really sick. you guys don't want to get sick right?
michael: no.
me: go upstairs and get an extra pair of clothes just in case you get your clothes dirty. i'll pack some food.
they ran upstairs racing each other, trying to push each other.
in 30 minutes, i was getting the twins out of their car seat. when they were looking up at the unfamilar house like they were about to enter a haunted house. they haven't met max yet or even heard about him.
michael: mailyn, where are we?
me: i want you guys to meet someone.
i started to make my way into the house when i felt one of the twins tugging on the backpack.
michelle: whose house is this?
i don't know why they were scared to go in. the house was so beautiful. i love coming to this house. i've only been here twice and i already fell in love with it. it was huge and great for the twins to play around in.
i picked up michelle and held her in my right arm as i held michael's hand with my left hand. man, i felt like a total mom already.
i rang the doorbell a few times but max didn't answer the door. i tried to open the door myself and it was unlocked so i walked right in. that's when i saw max walking towards the door with baby tracey in his arms.
max: hey mailyn.
me: hi.
i gave him a peck on the lips since the twins were watching and i had michelle in my arm. i put her down and rubbed my arm.
me: michelle, michael, this is max. say hi to max.
max: hey guys.
michelle: hi i'm michelle. we're twins you know.
max: really? no wonder you two looked exactly the same.
michael: but i'm older by 3 minutes.
max: hi michael.
michael: are you mailyn's boyfriend?
max: uhh...ask her.
me: yeah.
we made our way to the living room and the twins were going crazy playing with tracey's toys.
me: you guys, get over here. those are not your toys.
max: babe, it's okay.
me: whenever they find a toy they like, they keep it even though it's not their's.
michelle started running towards to me with one of tracey's bottles that was on the ground.
michelle: do you think max will let me hold the baby?
me: you're too small to hold her. you have to be strong to hold a baby.
max: come michelle.
michelle went running toward him but almost tripped. i started to laugh but max acted like a total dad and started to make sure she was okay.
when he was done, he started to rock tracey in his arms and she started to move.
max: you can't really hold her yet but you can feed her.
michelle: okay. i got gushers in the backpack.
max: no, not that kind. just hold the bottle while she drinks it. you can also touch her.
max took off the cover of the bottle michelle was holding and michelle held the bottle as tracey drank from it. michael kept glancing over getting curious but he gave up and went up to them.
michael: can i try?
michael got a turn to hold the bottle and they both started to rub tracey's forehead. as i watched them, max glanced over to me and smiled. that's when i realized that max would be a good father...if i was pregs.
Chapter 24
i just wanted to cry when justin was apologizing to me. justin called me before school started and offered me a ride. of course i took it. i really wanted to see him and talk to him and actually spend some alone time with him.
justin: mailyn, even though i apologized already, i want to say i'm sorry again. i don't ever want us to feel awkward together. i know we promised each other that even though we started seeing other people, our friendship wouldn't change. i hate how our friendship turned out.
me: i missed you so much justin. i thought i was gonna go crazy without you.
justin: well you didn't. mai, can you find it in your heart to forgive me?
me: yeah i do forgive you.
justin: i don't ever want to let you go.
me: how am i supposed to trust you though?
justin: it will just take time. i don't care if it take a month, i don't care if it will take a year. at least try find a way to trust me again.
me: okay.
justin: i missed you way to much to handle. i'm sorry for everything.
me: it's okay justin. let's just forget about it.
he grabbed my hand and kissed it. it was pretty cold in the car and my hands were cold. justin squeezed it and rubbed it to warm it up. he then smiled at me and started crying. i just laughed and he stopped.
justin: it feels so good to hear you laugh again.
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stacey: YOU'RE WHAT?
me: stacey, you heard me.
stacey: actually, i heard "max is my boyfriend." please tell me i heard wrong.
me: you heard it perfectlly clear. that's exactly what i said.
it was super early in the morning. me and stacey came up with this list yesterday at work with things we should do before we graduate. it was our little "bucket list."
our first one was go jogging at 4 in the morning on a school day. it was super hard to do it but we managed to do it.
so we were at the shoreline park, the park down the road by our place. i thought it would be the perfect time to tell stacey about me and max since i haven't told her yet.
stacey: what about justin? didn't you realize that he still loves you unconditionally?
me: but max is taking good care of me...and the baby.
stacey: does justin-wait, WHAT BABY? YOU GUYS DIDN'T USE A CONDOM?
me: stacey! take a chill pill! i'm not even sure yet. my period is due soon so if i'm late, he'll buy a test.
stacey: MAILYN! WHAT IF YOU WERE PREGNANT? YOU JUST MET MAX THREE WEEKS AGO!
me: stacey, i don't know why you're mad for. it's my life and my boyfriend and my problems.
stacey: you're right. i'm sorry. so shocking that's why.
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justin: mailyn, i know it's your day off and it's mine also. you wanna come over? like before?
me: i gotta babysit.
justin: bring the twins over.
me: uhh, they're sick.
justin: then i'll come over.
me: but they're sick. i don't want you to get sick also. sorry but maybe tomorrow?
justin: okay.
justin's big white pearls of a smile went away. his usually cheerful attittude went away and his head was down. i felt so bad; not because i turned down his offer but because i turned down his offer because i had to meet up with max.
as i watched justin walked to his truck with no dignity in himself, i heard a horn behind me. that's what i get when i stand in the middle of the parking lot. i looked behind me and saw a familar scion.
i walked over to the passenger side and hopped right in. max gave me a deep sweet kiss but noticed something was wrong.
max: why the long but stull beautiful face?
me: nothing. i'm just tired. me and stacey went jogging this morning.
max: so that means you don't really have enough energy?
me: for what?
max: nothing. i just got something planned for the two of us.
me: i hate it when you do that. get me excited for nothing.
i never realized it but we were already a few minutes near his neighborhood.
five minutes later, we were at his house. he said he wanted to change to look better because he said that my beauty makes him look ugly.
i was just waiting in his room holding little tracey while max was taking a shower. his mom, kylie, was passing by the hall and came in.
kylie: she's so quiet when she's with you.
me: i have a younger brother and sister. they're four years old now but i used to take care of them before.
kylie: it used to be max taking care of me. now i met jake and he's taking really good care of me. i just hope you find someone that will love you the way jake lives me. you deserve someone like that. so thanks for giving max a chance to do that.
kylie's voice starting to crack. i guess this was emotional for her because it used to only be max and her because they were abandoned by max's dad when kylie down pregnant.
max: babe, can you get me a towel please?
i handed tracey over to kylie and she hugged me before she left the room. i grabbed the towel on his bed and opened the bathroom door. he reached over from behind the curtain to grab the towel.
max: i heard my mom. is she still out there?
me: she left.
max: lock the door.
and i did not understanding why. when i came back, he was out of the shower with the towel around his waist. then he grabbed my waist and just started kissing me. the kiss got deeper and deeper, and that's when he carried me onto the sink. he started to make his way lower than my neck but i stopped him.
me: what if i AM pregnant? the baby will come out all gross. but if i'm NOT pregnant and we do it, i might get pregnant this time.
that's when he opened up the medicine drawer behind me and pulled out a condom.
me: i'm not sure.
max: i hate it when you do that. get me excited for nothing.
from there, we continued what we started.
Chapter 25
it was like the old days. the whole milf and filf crew went out to cruise together. everything has been weird between all of us because of me and justin but since they noticed that we've been okay lately, everyone decided to go out like before. this time, we went to the waterpark. it's been getting hot lately so we wanted to go to the pool. majority of us recently got our paychecks so we had a lot of money.
we all packed into justin's truck and it was hilarious. justin was driving and had jerome, stacey, jeremy and kat with him. in the back had me and steven, and we invited zack to come with us so had us. before we went on our way, we decided to play a little truth or dare game. it was steven's turn and i asked him a question. i asked him if he had any dreams about me because he chose truth earlier and jerome asked him if he liked any of us so steven told them about me. steven admited that he had sex dreams about me when he still liked me. i wasn't surprise because majority of the time, the guys would talk about sex. hence that's where they got their name "filfs."
the guys inside kept teasing us three in the back that we were gonna have a three some. what idiots. i looked at justin and he looked pissed so he turned on the radio and it started blasting. then we remained quiet during the rest of the ride.
we were getting hungry so we decided to stop by restaurants. we stopped by panda express for orange chicken, zippy's for chilli and fried chicken and chantilly cake, subway for $5 foot longs, papa john's for pizza, tasty's korean bbq for bbq chicken, and aloha sushi for sushi. we got a lot of food because the guys couldn't make up their mind on what to eat so justin came up with the stupidest idea by getting everything. i didn't mind because they paid for it. the even more stupidest thing happenened though. we all forgot that outside food and drinks are not allowed inside so we went to kmart to buy a luggage big enough to fit all our food in.
majority of us thought it was so shame so they didn't want to go inside. me, stacey, zack and jerome volunteered to go inside. so if you were in kmart the time we were looking for the perfect luggage, you'd see four teenagers holding all the food walking around trying to find the luggage section. me and stacey were cracking up the whole time. jerome and zack were complaining that too much people were around and that they would see them. me and stacey were just yelling at them so they would hurry up and leave. we spend about 15 minutes to find one that would fit everything.
when we got to waterpark, we tried so hard not to laugh when everyone kept staring at us because of the luggage. it wasn't that big though. it was only 2.5 x 1.5 x 1 feet. we resevered a pavilion so by the time we got there, we were bursted out laughing. jerome and steven were rolling on the ground. yeah i thought the whole thing was funny but not the way everyone made it but the way everyone was laughing made me laugh even more.
finally we calmed down and got into our baithing suits. we all headed to first ride the waianae (y-n-i) coaster. we got into partners and we raced down. me and justin won.
we all started getting hungry so we went back to our pavilion where we had to sneak our food out because the workers knew we didn't order any of their food.
it took us so long to eat our meal because we had to hide it everytime a worker passed by. by the time we finished our lunch, it started getting hot. we knew we couldn't go on any rides so we just relaxed in kapolei kooler.
kapolei kooler is this 800 feet continuous river that went around our pavilion. we just rode around in the tubes and tried to stay together. it was so funny because it looked like a bunch of cheerios stuck together. we had our body on one tube and our left leg on someone else;s stomach and out right leg between someone's leg.
i felt so mad for everyone because we were moving so slow. in about 30 minutes, we moved about 100 feet around the river. jeremy and justin were guiding our way so they start to hurry us up. they started getting tired so they stopped. we noticed that behind us, there were traffic so we splittted up. jeremy and kat were together. stacey and jerome were together. steven and zack started racing and me and justin were together.
justin: i'm glad we did this today.
me: me too. this was so much fun. we're all still the same together.
we started talking about the past but unfortunately our talk was interupted by an old fan. we looked and saw that it was the lifeguard sitting up in his chair up on the wall.
lifeguard: hey, aren't you justin? you know shiny?
justin: yeah.
lifeguard: dude, this is so cool. can i take a picture with you when the place closes? are you guys leaving anytime soon?
justin: we're leaving until it closes.
lifeguard: okay thanks!
justin: no problem.
then the lifeguard was out of sight. that's when we bumped into everyone else. we decided to go one more time because we started to get hungry again. this time, the girls were stayed together while the guys raced around.
we went around faster than before. i think it was because we were hungry. then we got to the same lifeguard who wanted to take a picture with justin. the lifeguard started hitting on us. the lifeguard looked like he was about 20 years old. we were 17.
lifeguard: man, all the pretty ones have their boyfriends. especially her, she's the one with the ex-famous singer.
me: justin? he's not my boyfriend.
lifeguard: really?
me: but i have a boyfriend.
lifeguard: really? man, i was gonna say that we need some hot girls like you to work here. we're running outta girls.
we all just shrugged our shoulders and swam to get out.
when we got back to our pavilion, justin looked mad. maybe something happened while they were racing. maybe he got mad at one of the guys or maybe someone was hating on him. i sat by him as he started to take a bite out of his pizza.
me: why do you look so mad?
justin: you should know.
me: what did i do?
justin: "justin's not my boyfriend but i do have a boyfriend." explain that.
me: can we talk about that later? this was just a good day.
justin: why do you wanna talk about it later? so you can come up with an excuse?
me: justin, i'm sorry okay? i didn't know what to say!
justin: so who is it? max?
me: yeah.
justin: HOW COULD YOU BE WITH A GUY LIKE THAT? he's trouble mailyn.
me: how do you know? you don't even know him.
justin: i just know.
me: he treats me better than you ever treated me.
justin: really? how?
me: i don't wanna tell you. you're gonna get even more mad.
justin: but you already started to tell me. now explain.
me: justin stop. can we talk about it later?
justin: whatever mailyn. i don't even know why i ran back to you. i should ask for daisy back.
me: do you really love me justin?
justin: what do you think?
me: by the way you're yelling at me right now, i don't think so.
justin: of course i still love you.
me: i'll break up with max tomorrow and we can be together again.
justin: you better. mailyn, even though we've been going through so much lately, i love you more than ever.
me: i promise.
so we pinky promised on it.
Chapter 26
i wanted to kill myself. here i was in my house home alone desperately waiting for max to get here. my period was late. it's been five weeks since i last got it. when i woke up this morning, i yelled at max and made him hurry to buy a pregnancy test. it's been half an hour since i told him to get it. does it seriously take that long to get a pregancy test? does he even know what a pregnancy test looks like?
the bell rang.
my heart jumped and i exited the kitchen to make my way to the front door. there he was. max with a little plastic bag with small boxes. i pulled him in and locked the door behind him.
max: okay, sure. i'm up for round three.
i slapped his forehead. i can't believe he was acting like this. today was the day to find out the truth if i was pregnant or not. he handed me the plastic bag and i looked inside. there were about three tests.
me: i only asked for one.
max: i bought three to make sure the results were accurate.
he gave me a hug and kissed my cheek, then my other cheek, then my forehead, then my nose, then eventually, he got to my lips. his lips felt different today. it felt more softer and it tasted fruitier.
me: what's up with the lips?
max: i was bored yesterday so i was playing with my cousin's trumpet and i was drinking jamba juice on my way here.
me: and you didn't get me one?
max: it spilt. i'm sorry baby.
me: hmm, whatever. it's time for me to pee on this tiny things.
for 15 minutes, me and max were talking about whose parents we should tell first if the tests resulted positive. we agreed that we should tell his parents first and then tell my parents along with his parents.
we set a timer because we had to let the tests set for 15 minutes. when the alarm was ringing, we headed to the bathroom where all three tests laid side by side.
i really didn't want to look so i had max look at it first. i squeezed his hands as i squeezed my eyes shut.
max: first test-positive.
i let out a little scream and that's when the tears started to burst out. he held me in his arms as as he read the second one.
max: second test-positive.
i was already holding onto his shirt crying in his arms. he held me super tight as he prepared for the last test.
max: third test, baby, you're pregs.
i just collapsed. max bent down to my level and lifting my chin with a finger. he gave me a soft kiss and sat down to hug me. we just sat on my bathroom floor crying together.
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i couldn't sleep that night. i kept tossing and turning on my bed. i stayed in my room the whole day. my parents thought i was sick so they made me saimin. i wanted justin's chicken noodle soup.
i looked at the time. it was 4:42am. justin hasn't called me yet to ask me about max. justin has no clue. he doesn't know about the sex...and he doesn't know about the pregnancy. i think if i confess to justin about everything, it will get me to sleep, althought it was almost 5 in the morning.
justin: mailyn, i was waiting the whole day for your call. you so late.
me: i couldn't go to sleep.
justin: me too. so did you break it off with that loser max?
me: justin, something happenened today.
justin: what is it?
me: promise you won't get mad.
justin: how can i promise if i don't know what you're talking about?
me: i'm pregnant.
my body got all tense preparing justin to start yelling at me. but it was the total opposite. he was quiet.
me: are you gonna say anything?
he just hung up the phone. i started to cry again.
ten minutes later, i finally got to sleep. i actually cried myself to sleep. i was woken up by a sound on my window. at first i was scared that it was a burglar trying to break in. then i looked...the person i saw was worst than a burglar.
it was justin.
when we first got together, he'd sneak into my room just to kiss me good night or cuddle together. he stopped a couple of months later because my parents would let him sleepover only if stacey or zaileen were with us.
he hopped into my room from my window and slapped my face. i wanted to cry again but i had no tears. justin was crying though.
me: i know i'm stupid. i wish that i could kill myself for doing this to you. it's okay if you won't ever forgive me because i can never forgive myself.
justin: i seriously thought everything would go back to normal. it's the total opposite. everything got worst. mailyn, how could you do this to me?
me: i'm sorry justin. i have no idea what to say except sorry.
justin: too bad. i should ask for daisy back. she wasn't fxcked up like you. it's stupid how you started with a guy like me and landed with a guy like max. he's stupid mailyn. but i guess you don't care. i guess it's all about the orgasms he gives you.
me: justin, i still love you though.
justin: shut the fxck up bxtch. i ain't playing for that anymore. after everything i did for us to be together from the start, you screwed me over. i hate you. i want you out of my life. don't ever talk to me again, don't ever look at me, don't even say my name.
i was bawling my eyes out. justin made his way to the window.
me: justin, don't say that.
justin: i mean every single word.
he was ready to climb down the ladder. he didn't even want to look at me. i don't deserve him to look at me. i was lower than dirt, i was an ass wipe.
justin made it safely on the ground. it looked like he walked here because i didn't see his car.
me: [to myself] he hates me. i don't blame him. i killed his heart. he's leaving me for good. he's almost out of my sight. as long as he turns around at least once, it means that he'll started having second thoughts.
i winced to see if i can still see him...and i did. he took a quick glance at my window. then he stopped and sat on the curb. from where i could see and from my knowledge, i knew he was crying. i still had a chance.
Chapter 27
i pulled up to my driveway on my way home from school when i saw my parents' car in the driveway. that's weird, they should be at work right now. i parked my car next to their's and i looked inside just in case someone's stole it or a killer was inside. i grabbed my keys from my backpack and unlocked the door. when i opened the door, i was someone i haven't seen for thte longest time.
me: BYRAN!!!
he started laughing and i started to run inside. he opened up his arms and i jumped and landed in his arms. he gave me a tight squeeze and set me down on the ground as my parents started to laugh.
remember byran? he's mailyn's older brother that moved to denver for college in the first story?
byran: so you've been doing good?
me: yeah.
byran: you're not going out and getting pregnant?
mom: byran! you should know that your sister's not like that!
ugh, that's not what you think. i just took three pregnancey tests yesterday and it all tested positive.
me: so how long are you gonna be here?
byran: just a week.
me: then we gotta get out as much as possible!
byran: i'm gonna be busy tomorrow out with me friends but tonight, i was thinking barbeque?
dad: great!
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ever since byran moved, i haven't been keeping in touch with his friends. i used to be so close with them but i think byran was the one that kept us together. it was so cool though. i was the one hugging everyone.
so much for a little barbeque, this was the party to be at.
jerome: omg mailyn, i can't believe all these people knows your brother.
stacey: i got used to it.
jerome: yeah because byran is your ex boyfriend.
stacey: but i love you now.
me: i'm gonna leave you two alone.
it was getting hot so i headed outside into the backyard. i sat on the twins' playground and just rested my head. then i started to hear heavy breathing. i looked on the other side of the playground and there i saw justin and daisy making out. daisy's top was half open and justin's neck was all covered with her lipstick.
i just wanted to shoot the both of them. i can't believe this waas all happening. how can one little tiny microscopic thing lead to something this huge?
i can never forgive myself for this.
Chapter 28
i waited in my living room for max to get to my house. last night, me and max decided that we'd go to the clinic to find out when i was due. i've been crying for the past three days and i hated every minute of it. i can't believe i was pregnant. from someone i've known for only 6 weeks. when i heard the doorbell ring, i knew it was him. i opened the door and saw max with no car.
me: where's your car?
max: mailyn, to tell you the truth. i don't have a car. that was my friend's car the whole time.
i just wanted to cry. i missed justin's truck. i missed being in a car everytime we went out. i missed justin also. we couldn't take my car because byran was borrowing it. great, we have to take the bus. i haven't rode the bus in a year.
the bus ride to the clinic was super long. i thought i'd have the baby before we even arrived. we got to the front desk and max asked for the doctor that helped his mom through her birth a few months ago. his name was dr. froolhemew. the secretary at the desk told us to wait in the waiting room. it didn't take long for dr. froolhemew to call us in. dr. froolhemew looked like he was in his early fifties. he was about six feet tall and was wearing a white apron. he showed us to his room and on our walk there, my heart was pounding.
dr. froolhemew: let's take a look. please lay down here.
omg, i just lost my viriginty to someone i haven't known that much and now i have to show my vagina to someone i just met?
me: i don't really feel comfortable.
dr. froolhemew: okay. let me just ask you a few questions before we take a look.
i nodded my head and gave him a smile because i knew he could tell i was nervous. me and max sat on the table as dr. froolhemew leaned against that bed thingy. dr. froolhemew took out a pen and grabbed a clipboard. that made me grabbed max's hand and squeeze it.
dr. froolhemew: okay. so when did you guys have sexual intercourse?
i didn't want to answer that so i let max's big mouth go on. he was good at that.
max: it was two weeks ago.
dr. froolhemew: okay. so max, this might be uncomfortable but did you ejaculate?
i looked over to max and i saw his face. he was starting to look really nervous. he looked worse than i did. his funny face calmed me down a little.
max: uhh, yeah.
dr. froolhemew: so mailyn, when was your last period?
me: uhh, it was seven weeks ago.
dr. froolhemew: okay, i'm glad you came to me. uhh, i gave a couple more questions and we'll take a look. okay?
i was nervous as hell but i had to do it. i just nodded and smiled squeezing tighter onto max's hand.
dr. froolhemew: did you take a pregnancy test?
me: yeah i did. it showed that it was positive.
dr. froolhemew: do you remember what brand it was?
me: actually no but i remembered that max bought it for me.
dr. froolhemew: max, do you remember what brand it was?
max: no, sorry. i took the cheapest one.
dr. froolhemew: well i have a few pictures of different brands of pregnacy tests. tell me if it looks familar. max can take a look first and mailyn can go after.
he handed max a little packet of different brands. he looked at every page and every picture carefully. he looked through it about five time then shook his head. he handed the packet to me and i did the same. i looked through every single detail and tried to even play back what happened when i took the test. i shook my head as handed the packet to dr. froolhemew.
me: sorry. i've seen it all before but not of it triggers "that's the one i used" in my head.
dr. froolhemew: well i'm gonna do one last test before you guys get to go.
me: what is it?
dr. froolhemew: i'll gonna need your urine. i'll take it to my lab and do some test on it. it will only take five minutes.
me: okay. we can wait.
i headed to the bathroom with the little container dr. froolhemew gave to me. it took me a while to pee inside that stupid thing but i did it. after i handed it to dr. froolhemew, i headed to the waiting room with max. we just sat there in silence watching all of the pregnant women in the room.
five minutes later, dr. froolhemew finally called us and we headed back to the same room. we sat down and i squeezed max's hand again when i saw dr. froolhemew looking at his papers.
dr. froolhemew: well i got some good news, or maybe bad news. depends on how you look at it. i found out that from your urine, mailyn, you are not pregnant. you just took a generic pregnancy test. that test you used wasn't really accurate.
me: are you sure?
dr. froolhemew: yeah. oh btw, i think you have your period. i found some tissue in your urine.
me: are you serious? thanks!
i started jumping and i hugged max. i was so happy i wasn't pregnant. i don't what i would do if max was the father of my baby. he had no car, he had no job, and he doesn't know how to cook. he was the total opposite of justin.
we got out of the clinic and headed for the bus stop. i saw across the street was jack-n-the-box. i looked at my watch and it was 3:45PM. jeremy was finishing work in 15 minutes. i looked at max and gave him a smile. when we sat down at the bus stop, i looked at him with a serious face.
me: aren't you glad i'm not pregnant?
max: yeah.
me: max, you know you're a great guy but i don't think you're ready for a girl like me. i have a car, i got a stable job, and i can take care of myself. you need time to get yourself together. i'm sorry but i think it will be better if we went our separate ways now that we know i'm not pregant.
max: okay, good. i got a girl waiting for me. i was gonna leave you a month before you gave birth anyways.
oh hell no. what a bxtch! he would have to pay child support anyways. whatever. he just pissed me off. i slapped him across the face and crossed the street. when i got to the other side, i waved at him.
me: have fun riding the bus!
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me: meet me at kfc?
justin: why can't you just tell me over the phone?
me: justin, this kind of stuff shouldn't been talked about on the phone. this is a face-to-face topic.
justin: kfc in an hour then.
i had the biggest smile as i washed my face and my hands. it felt so good to hear justin's voice after two weeks of not talking. now i was gonna tell him what happened with max today. i just couldn't wait to tell him.
50 minutes passed from when i called justin and i was already at kfc. i sat by the door so i could see who was going through it. i was getting hungry so i ordered a famous bowl. i didn't want to finish it myself because i knew justin would want some but when that ten minutes passed, i ate the whole thing. five minutes passed when i noticed justin wasn't here yet. fifteen minutes passed and that's when i called justin.
ring. ring. ring. ring. ring. ring. leave a long message aiight?
my heart started pounding. i started getting light headed. the room started spinning. a flashback of kayden popped into my head. i decided to call back again.
ring. ring. ring. ring. ring. ring. leave a long message aiight?
shxt, why wasn't he answering? i decided to call steven. after five rings, i started to get worried. did something happen to the both of them? but on the sixth ring, i heard steven's voice.
steven: sawp lyn.
me: are you with justin right now?
steven: no. why?
me: we're supposed to meet up but he's not here yet. i even tried calling his phone but he won't answer. i know he can't be with jeremy because i was just with him like an hour ago. he can't be with jerome since he's grounded.
steven: try calling his house.
me: i should. thanks steven.
steven: no problem.
steven hung up and i dialed justin's house number. after three rings, i heard tommy's voice on the line.
me: hi uncle. do you know where justin is?
tommy: sorry no. he's been out all day though. i thought he'd be at work. why?
me: we were supposed to meet up almost half an hour ago.
tommy: i'll try call him and i'll call you back.
me: thanks.
i was getting worried. no one knew where he was. maybe he's with daisy. he's with her twenty four seven now; but shxt, i don't have her number. i decided to go to her house. i knew where she lived. i left the restaraunt and started up my car. i left the parking lot and drove down the road to where daisy lives. he's probably over there. i decided to call justin one last time.
ring. ring. ring. ring.
i heard a click on the other line then heard air and then another click. that bxtch hung up on me. i got so pissed off that i forgot i was even driving. i started focusing back on the road but that's when i started panicking. i wasn't on the road. i was on the grass next to the road. i tried to turn the steering wheel but it was jammed. i tried to unjammed it and it finally got out. i turned the wheel but it was too late. the last thing i could remember was people yelling and screaming.
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am i right? is it already killing you to know what happens next?
Chapter 29
i opened my eyes and i found my parents, the twins, and some of my friends looking down on me. majority of them were crying. i started to freak out. i didn't know where i was.
me: where's justin? where is he? i wanna see him.
i got up from where i was laying down. my mom started to freak out and she set me back to lay down. that's when i realized that i was in a hospital bed. there were machines with buttons and wires going through my skin. i didn't like it but all i kept thinking about was justin.
me: where's justin?
mom: why do you wanna see justin so badly?
me: i gotta tell him. i really need to tell him.
mom: tell him what?
me: i need to tell him. i have to tell him the truth. he's gonna be so happy when he finds out i'm not pregnant.
i looked at my mom. she knew i wasn't feeling good. she told my friends to take the twins and stay outside. so they did. when they left, my mom grabbed and squeezed my hand.
me: i gotta see justin. we were supposed to meet up an hour ago but he didn't come. i have to go to daisy's house to talk to him.
mom: mailyn, you've been in a coma for a week.
me: why? what happenend?
mom: you got into an accident.
me: but where's justin?
mom: we don't know. i haven't seen him in months.
me: i need to talk to him.
mom: okay, you can call him. we'll go outside and get you some food.
my parents left the room and i leaned over to grab the phone. when i got it, i dialed in justin's number. it went straight to his answering machine. that's when i started to cry. then stacey and steven came into the room.
stacey: are you okay?
me: where's justin? i gotta talk to justin.
steven: i haven't seen justin in so long. i don't know what happened to him already.
me: what do you mean? he's okay right?
steven: yeah he is but i'm just saying i haven't seen him in a while.
me: i gotta pee and wash my face.
stacey: we'll help you get up.
i never realized how so sore my body until i tried to get up from my bed. steven basically had to carry me out of my bed but even that hurt. stacey help put my feet on the ground because i couldn't move it. they helped me straighten up on the ground.
when i managed to stand up on my own and walk, i got into the bathroom. i was in so much pain. when i sat down on the toilet seat, i tried so hard not to cry. it really hurt. all my muscles were aching.
it took me a while to do my business. like a really long time. stacey kept knocking on the door making sure i was doing fine. when i walked over to wash my hands, i looked up in the mirror. i was shocked to see what i saw. i had bruised all over my face. i had a big cut near my collar bone and it was stitched up. i looked so ugly!
it took me probably a total of 10 minutes to use the bathroom and wash my hands. when i got out, my parents had a big meal for me. i was super hungry.
mom: mailyn, we're gonna be back later. hopefully you're okay.
my mom gave me a hug and kissed my forehead. my dad did the same. i got into my bed before i painfully and slowly crawled into bed.
mom: we'll be back later.
me: i love you momma. i love you daddy.
they opened up the door and smiled as they left the room.
jeremy, jerome, zaileen, and zack joined the room with stacey and steven. they looked soooo scared and made like i was on my death bed. i just wanted to cry but slap them.
jerome: you still love justin don't you?
me: of course. look, i'm in here because of him.
jeremy: let us talk to him.
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A WEEK LATER....
i was asleep when i felt someone grab my hand. i looked over to my side and i saw justin's head down in the bed and i couldn't hear him crying. i was still in the hospital and today was my last day. i was getting out first thing in the morning.
me: justin, i love you.
justin: mai, what happened to you?
me: all i remembered was that i was supposed to meet up with you but you didnt show up. so i headed to daisy's house and that was it. i woke up in here and found out that i was in a coma for a week.
justin: oh.
me: why didn't you show up?
justin: i was with daisy.
me: but you agreed to meet up. if you showed up then i wouldn't be here in the hospital right now. what if i died justin?
justin: don't say that.
me: you know why i really wanted to see you so badly? me and max went to the clinic and i'm not pregnant. the doctor confirmed it.
justin: oh.
me: that's all you can say? "oh?" justin, are you still with daisy?
justin: yeah.
me: then why aren't you with her? why are you here crying because your EX-girlfriend is hurt? you should be with her right now. nothing stopped you from being with her so go.
justin: okay fine. yeah i admit that i put daisy before you guys but you should know how i am mailyn. out of all people, you should know already how i am when i have a girlfriend. i know this time i took it too far. i know if i keep doing this, there will be one day where i'm gonna run to you guys and you're not gonna be there for me. but i promise to you guys, to the whole world, to god...i thank all you guys everyday for being there for me and helping me through everything and i'm sorry for how everything is at the moment. but if our friendship-even my friendships with the others-ends because of daisy, i don't know already. i don't know where my life will go on from there.
me: i don't want this friendship to end. we've been friends for 11 years justin! we can't through all the away. who taught me to tie my shoes? you! who did i run to when vinny tried to rape me? you! who was there to helped me cope with kayden's death? you! we've been through so much together. i don't want that to be forgotten.
Chapter 30
tonight was an all ager-rager event at the o-lounge and i so wanted to go but my parents didn't want me to go because i just got out of the hospital so they allowed my friends to sleepover tonight. i went to the store to buy some food because our kitchen was super empty and they like to eat a lot.
i was in the candy aisle getting chocolate for smores when i saw daisy with her cousin. i ran to the next aisle before they could see me. i needed to grab marshmallows anyways. i took a bag and threw it into my cart when i heard voices from the next aisle. i knew it was daisy and her friends.
daisy: do you think i should go to the clinic to get tested?
cousin: did you at least try getting a pregnancy test?
daisy: no. you better not tell my parents or even your parents!
cousin: of course i won't. does justin know though? like did you tell him about the symptoms?
daisy: he just thinks i've been really hungry and moddy because of my period. when i get morning sickness, he just thinks that i ate something bad the dinner before or that breakfast.
cousin: i think you should go get tested then tell justin.
daisy: but i'm scared. sometimes, it feels like he doesn't want me anymore. i know he still loves mailyn.
cousin: really? fxck that bxtch!!
i had enough. i had to fxckin` confront those bxtches! i left my cart where it was and ran to the other side. they were gone. i ran to the next aisle and i got a glimpse of daisy's hair. i followed them and they were heading outside. i saw justin's car and they hopped inside.
i didn't want to do anything in front of justin so i headed back inside to purchase the items in my cart.
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jeremy: i heard that all jabbawokeez and kaba modern and status quo and all them are there right now.
me: gosh, you guys are making me feel bad. you guys can be having the time of your lives but you guys are here stuck with me.
stacey: stop lying stupid jeremy.
jeremy: no one famous is even going. good thing you saved us lyn.
me: do you guys know if justin's coming?
steven: i called his phone and he wasn't answering.
me: me too. you know i saw him today. he was with daisy and her cousin.
steven: did you kick their ass?
me: fxck, i over heard them talking and her cousin called me a bxtch. i don't even fxckin` know her!
steven: cousin? you mean kelly?
me: i don't know her name. i just know they're cousins.
jerome: does she have black hair with red highlights? her eyebrows are kinda bushy and she has a cut my her lip?
me: well i saw the hair but i didn't really stare deeply at her face. she was wearing this green bracelet though.
zack: that's her.
me: how do you know?
zack: my ex.
me: gross.
zack: i gave her that bracelet.
me: why'd you guys break up.
zack: too clingy and such a stalker.
me: oh.
zack: i have her number. let's prank call her!
we all started cracking up and zack grabbed out his phone. he searched through his phone and called her then put it on speaker.
kelly: hello?
steven cleared his throat. he is soooo good at pranking calling people. one time, i thought i was getting arrested because of him.
steven started talking and he started to use his tranny voice. i love that voice. it cracks me up. and i love that way he can keep a straight face.
steven: hello, is this kelly?
kelly: yeah, who's this?
steven: this is assumption!
kelly: who? oh shaa?
steven: i said assumption!
kelly: who?
steven: i ain't gonna repeat it girl...but since i love my name so much, imma gonna say it one more time. assumption!!
kelly: assumption? what kind name is that?
steven: heyyyy! don't be hatin` on my name! what kind name is kelly? k-k-kelly-lee-lee-lick the lollipop!
kelly: so ugly. man, for real. who is this?
steven: how many times already? my name is assumption! assumption lumpitoc!
kelly: okay?
steven: so you single girl?
kelly: uhh, no.
steven: oh shaa! that's good because i'm single too.
kelly: really? who is this? is this robert?
steven: who the fuck is robert? this is assumption!
kelly: assumption lumpitoc?!
steven: that's right! you got it girl!
kelly: oh-em-gee, seriously, who is this?
steven: assumption! assumption lumpitoc! where's your cousin daisy?
kelly: you know her?
steven: hell yeah!
we were all cracking up. man, we had tears running down our face, screaming into the pillows. then we heard in the background on kelly's side daisy's voice.
daisy: hello? who the fxck is this?
steven: daisy?
daisy: yeah, so who the fxck is this?
steven: hey girl! it's assumption!!
daisy: assumption?
steven: assumption lumpitoc!
daisy: who the fxck is assumption lumpitoc?
steven: aww girl. you better not have forgotten me.
steven was going all out. he was moving his head and making hand motions like he was in front of them.
daisy: babe, tell this guy to fxckin` stop calling.
we knew it was gonna be justin.
justin: ehh, who the fxck is this?
we gave the phone to zack. justin already knows how steven sounds like when prank calling.
zack: hey! it's assumption!
justin: assumption? what kind name is that?
zack: hey! it's my name okay! what kind name is that? justin? justin. you're justin time for hep hep hooray!
justin: so filipino.
zack: hep hep! hooray!
justin: hep hep...goodbye.
zack: ahh you so boring justin time for horny time. i'm gonna go now. assumption lumpitoc out!
zack hung up the phone and we bursted out laughing. that's what i needed today. i needed to have fun. i didn't need to feel locked up when i have a boyfriend. i need to be free. but there school's almost done. we have one more month left until summer and justin and jeremy are graduating. will justin be with daisy forever and just leave?
Chapter 31
i was super tired. school was a drag. i had to stay after class after period for a while so i could get all thte work i was missing. ugh, i hated it but i guess it's fair? i don't know.
so i was walking to the school parking lot when i saw the bus stop in front of the bus stop. i watched to see who would get off that bus then that's when he stepped off.
the shock made me drop all my work and he saw me. he started running towards me and stuck his hand out to help me out but i didn't want to even touch his hand. i didn't even want to look at him. his presence digusted me. i couldn't even bear looking at him.
so i gathered my stuff and i got up without saying anything. he is such a disgrace to man kind. i don't understand how he can still walk on this earth. i headed to my car [repaired btw] and omg, i just wanted to smack his face when he started talking to me. how dare he have the nerve to still talk to me after what he did to me.
max: okay, i understand that you don't wanna talk to me or even be in my presence. i just wanna say that i'm sorry after what i put you through. i don't know why i did that. i really wanted to do the totall opposite. mailyn, are you even listening?
i was but i didn't want him to know. i wanted to hear what he wanted to say but i made like i wasn't listening to him. i just headed to my car and he followed me.
max: okay, fine. but if you ARE listening, i'm really sorry. i wish i could just kill myself for making you feel like nothing to me. only if i could turn back time, i shouldn't have said that. mailyn, i really did like you. i still do. that's why i really wanted you to be pregnant to keep us together. mailyn...i love you.
i got in my car and just drove off leaving him. i looked in my rear-view mirror and saw him in the same spot he was in when he told me he loves me.
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i had to go back to the hospital to get the stitches of my head. i only had 5 stitches from when i hit the windshield. so i was waiting in the waiting room when i heard my name called. i got up to head into the room but i almost collapsed when i saw who said my name.
max: mailyn, we meet again.
me: whatever.
max: you finally said something. that's a start. only one word but that's a start.
i followed max to wherever he was taking me. he kept talking and this time, i didn't want to hear it but he just kept talking and talking and it was the only sound i could hear so i just started listening.
max: i hope i didn't scare you earlier. i do love you mailyn. c`mon, please don't tell me you didn't feel the same way. remember when we first met? you hated me? then i finally got you to crack. that's what i'm trying to do right now. i know i really hurt you and you want me out of your life, i want you to tell me that.
i know i had to tell him off but in a calm matter since we were in a hospital. i knew that he'd leave me along with i told him to.
me: okay max. leave me alone. i don't want you in my fxckin` life. i actually thought the time at the bus stop was the last of you. i can't believe you actually think i would crack after all what you said. wtf max? are you that stupid? i don't even know why you're fxckin` running back to me! you know you caused all my problems with justin. if it wasn't for you, i wouldn't be here right now. i would be with him right now. i didn't get to go to his senior prom, i didn't lose my virginity to him, and we're supposed to make a year on his graduation day.
max: well i feel like that i took your whole life away from you. i'm sorry for that. i'll understand if you don't forgive me because i don't forgive myself also.
we reached the room and he guided me inside. he told me to sit and he looked at me with a sad face.
max: the doctor will be with you.
he walked out of the room with his head down and no dignity. i admit that he was such a low life but low life people have feelings too, so i kinda felt bad.
so an hour later, i was making my way out of the hospital when i noticed that someone was walking besides me. i used my peripherial vision and saw max walking with a backpack. i guess he was done with work?
me: hey max.
max: i thought you wanted me to leave you alone.
me: okay, so you're really gonna listen to me?
max: that's what you really want. i messed up your life so i don't deserve to be part of it.
Chapter 32
all day i kept hearing about this party going on tonight. it sounds fun because it was at the waikiki shell and everyone's talking about it so it has to be big. i was getting super curious and wanted to know who's party it was.
on my way to the school parking lot, i saw stacey and jerome all lovey dovey. i joined them and they were talking about the party too.
me: everyone keeps talking about that party. who's party is it anyways and why is it so big?
stacey: you don't know?
jerome: it's justin's party. you weren't invited?
jerome reached into his backpack and took out a piece of paper. he handed it to me and i read it aloud.
me: come get hyphy at the waikiki shell on may 5 from 8pm to whenever because we got it until 7 in the morning! $3 to get in. i wasn't invited!
jerome: oohhh.
he grabbed the invitation but i held tight onto it. he rolled his eyes and i hitted him and started complaining.
me: how can he not invite me? what a bxtch! i bet-ugh-daisy-gross-told me not to invite me.
jerome: you know about them?
me: what?! they're back together! ahh!
i started to clench my fists tight that i ripped a whole in that invitation flyer.
jerome: i need that!
me: i don't care. how can they get back together!?!? he wanted to get back together with ME!!
stacey: calm down!
me: i can't calm down! fxck! i wanna kill both of them!!
i started to jump up and down hitting the bottom of my feet on the solid concrete. then i started to pace back and forth. only if i had a punching bag...or even better, daisy's face.
speaking of daisy, here she comes dangling on justin's arm. everyone was crowding around them. probably asking about the party.
jerome: oh shxt.
out of no where, jerome grabs my arm as i watched daisy and justin. i see justin looking around and he sees me. i know he sees me because when he looked my way, he turned around and interupted daisy and headed the other way.
me: oh hell no!
i can see why jerome grabbed my arm. next thing you know, it was like a secret swat team because here comes out jeremy and steven [not really a "team"] and prevents me from killing daisy and justin.
me: let me go! let me kick her ass.
they carry me into jeremy's car and i see stacey laughing her ass off.
me: you're really loving this ain't you?
stacey: guarantee.
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i allowed my friends to go to justin's party. i wanted to know what happenend anyways. i didn't stay home though. i decided to go out. i had a wedding to go to anyways so i needed a dress.
i got to pearlridge and the parking lot was empty. i bet everyone is at the party. ugh!
i made my way to wet seal when i saw someone on a bench that looked familar so i sat with him.
me: hey.
max: uhh, should i leave?
me: no.
max: are you sure? because last time i talked to you, you said you wanted me out of your life.
me: just forget about it.
max: so what brings you here? it's totally empty.
me: i needed to get out. i have no one to be with right now.
max: besides me.
he gave me a big smile and a two tumbs up. i just smiled back and shook my head.
me: yeah. so why are YOU here by yourself?
max: i just felt like it.
me: ohh, so you're not really busy?
max: nopes. got something in mind?
me: yeah. there's this party going on at the waikiki shell. wanna check it out?
max: uhh, isn't justin the host of the party?
me: yeah.
max: and why didn't you go?
me: i wasn't invited.
max: really? then let's go crash it!
me: no!
max: i'm just kidding.
me: let's take my car!
max: okay but after, we gotta come back. i drove here.
me: you got a car?
max: yeah. it's actually mine.
me: oh. no problem.
before we left, i had to get my dress. max picked it out for me. he said that tan makes me look darker since i've been complaining i'm so light.
it didn't take us that long to get to waikiki. usually takes 15 minutes. only took us 5. there weren't any traffic. what do you expect? tonight was the party of the year...and i wasn't invited.
we passed by the shell and omg, even though we were still on the main road, not yet in the parking lot, we could here the music and screaming.
max: sounds like fun.
me: whatever. i can throw a better party and justin and daisy won't be invited. and you and me are gonna throw it.
Chapter 33
me: what if i died?
max: don't say that!
me: no really. what if i died? would you come to my funeral?
max: no.
i hit his stomach and he grunted from the pain. then he smiled.
me: why not?
max: because i'll die with you.
me: so corny.
max: oh.
me: but so cute.
max: oh.
he started to giggle and he leaned in to try to kiss me. i smiled and dogdged his kiss.
max: aww man.
me: wanna go with me somewhere?
max: i thought we were gonna plan the party?
me: yeah. at my friend's house.
max: so shame! who?
me: maria.
remember maria from the first story? she's the one who had summer school.
max: hawh, fine then.
FIFTEEN MINUTES LATER...
maria: do you have a job?
max: yeah. i work at the hospital mailyn was staying at.
maria: okay, is that what you wanna be when you grow up?
max: that and mailyn's husband.
maria: aww, that's so cute...but i still don't like you.
max: oh okay. that's alright.
me: hey! we're not even together!
maria: really? okay, i approve you.
max: haha okay. mailyn, i love her. she's cool.
me: she's single.
maria: hello!?! remember jacob!?
me: oh yeah.
max: awww man. [note the sarcasm]
we went on and talked about the party. we sat around the little coffee table making like it was a conference. i felt like a business woman. i was running everything and i had my little notepad and pen.
okay, back to the story....
the "conference" was interupted when stacey, jeremy and steven came in the house.
jeremy: so where the party at?
steven: we're gonna beat justin's party! it was so boring!
me: really?
jeremy: no. it was so fun...[i shot him an evil glare]...but it would be funner if you were there.
me: okay so i g-
steven: what the fxck is he doing here?
i didn't know what he was talking about. i gave him a confused look and saw him pointing. my eyes followed to where he was pointing to and it was max. oh crap, i forgot they all hate him.
max: oh okay. if you guys don't want me here, i'll leave.
me: you don't have to go.
max: nah, i'll go.
he got up and fixed his clothes before he waved at me and everyone else. he left the room pretty disappointed at him and also steven. when i looked out the window and he was out of sight, steven started laughing and sat down by me and put his arms around me.
me: that was stupid.
steven: i was just joking!
me: whatever.
steven: i hope you guys aren't back together.
me: what if we were?
steven: i'd kick his ass. don't tell me that you guys are!
me: we're not! i don't know why you're acting like this.
steven: because you don't belong with him. you and justin belong together!
me: well he moved on already. i can't do anything about it.
steven: yes you can. c`mon, i know your "love" for max and his "love" for daisy is all fake.
me: it's so stupid why you're getting mad.
steven: okay fine then. i'm not mad.
i just ignored him. i seriously had no idea why he was acting like this. i don't see anyone else having a problem with max. i didn't even want to sit by him anymore so i got up and walked over next to stacey and maria.
stacey: so where's the party at?
me: max has this uncle and his uncle has this mansion. max got permission from his uncle already and we can go check it out tomorrow after school.
steven: wow so max got money.
i couldn't take his attitude today. i hated it. me and steven never have problems. out of the six years i've known him, we only had five problems.
i just started to complain under my breath just so the girls can hear.
me: he's being to stupid. i don't know why he cares about me and max.
stacey: are you guys together?
me: no.
stacey: do you still have feelings for him?
me: i don't know.
maria: he's so cute though. i asked him what he wanted to be when he grows up. he said mailyn's husband.
steven: you guys are so stupid, i can hear you.
Chapter 34
JUSTIN's POV
i was going through my old box with all the memories i had with mailyn. i took out the picture of me and her in second grade. on valentine's day, we had to partner up with a girl and we'd take a picture and decorate a picture frame for it. we chose each other.
my thoughts was interupted by my phone ringing. i looked at the caller id and it was daisy calling. i didn't feel like talking to her. i threw my phone on the other side of my room so i couldn't hear it. i went back looking through the box and found a recent gift she gave me. for our sixth month anniversary, she got this picture frame with a recording thingy. she put a picture of us in it and recorded herself saying i love you. i played it and i heard her say those words i'll never hear her say to me again. so i kept playing it and playing it and playing it. i felt a pain in my chest and started to cry...but my thoughts were interupted again. i heard my door open and i really didn't want it to be daisy. i wiped my eyes just in case it was daisy. i turned my head but found only steven and jeremy. i didn't care if they saw me cry. i've known them for seven years.
steven: bro, are you okay?
jeremy: no steven. he's crying because he's cutting onions.
steven: i don't see any onions.
i couldn't help but laugh. i love these guys. especially when they act stupid when i'm going through my "emo" phases.
me: oh i'm just thinking.
steven: about lyn?
me: yeah. i fxckin` miss her.
steven: you know she's been hanging out with that max guy again.
me: wtf? are you fxckin` serious? are they together?
steven: i don't know.
jeremy: if you fxckin` miss her, get her back!
me: if she's with max again then i can't do anything about it.
steven: yes you can! beat the crap out of him!
jeremy: i'd do that for kat.
me: but she doesn't like that.
steven: you know how they started talking again?
me: how?
steven: you didn't invite her to the party.
jeremy: yeah. when me and kat were outside, i saw them pass by in lyn's car.
me: i really did want to invite her but you know daisy.
jeremy: no, i don't know daisy. i'm already embarassed that my best friend is going out with her. c`mon, you don't have feelings for her.
me: i know.
jeremy: then why are you with her man?
me: her older brother will kill me if i hurt her.
steven: no worries. we got your back.
me: no really you guys. he'll really kill me. he's in a gang.
jeremy: yo, wtf foo`!
me: i know.
steven: that's fxcked up.
jeremy: c`mon justin. if you really love mailyn, there shouldn't be anything or anyone in your way from getting her.
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MAILYN'S POV
me: i love this ho-mansion!
max: you haven't even looked inside.
me: i don't care. i love it already.
i was really excited when we rolled up tp the mansion. it was a light brown color with a pool! it had palm trees near the pool and a nice scenary of the house. from the outside, it looked like it had three stories.
max: c`mon, let's go inside! race you to the front door.
he got out of the car and i followed him.
me: wait, i don't even know where the front door is!
but i just followed him. he beat me though but i didn't care. when i got to the front door, i saw max shaking hands with this pretty young man. probably around his late twenties or early thirties. when i joined them, i smiled at the man.
max: mailyn, this is my uncle eugene. uncle, this is mailyn.
me: hi. sir, i appreciate you for letting me "rent" your mansion.
uncle eugene: call me uncle. "sir" makes me feel old. don't really call it renting, more like borrowing. renting you have to pay. and don't worry, i'm here only once a week.
me: okay, thanks.
uncle eugene: really for the grand tour?
me: yeah!
he opened up the fron door and i see the most beautiful thing i've ever seen and will ever see. i just wanted to kiss the marble floor. i didn't care, it looked clean anyways. the work looked so high class. i loved the white walls and wooden doors. i really love it.
uncle eugene: okay, i guess that you're loving it.
max: trust me uncle, she loved it when we were still in the car.
me: i approve and love!
uncle eugene: are you planning to spend any money for this party?
me: yeah. me and max are gonna pay for everything. plus some friends might pitch in a few bucks but it's up to me and max.
uncle eugene: don't worry about the money. food-well i'll have my kitchen cook everything. we'll supply the eating utensils and plates and cups and drinks. how about entertainment?
me: my friends are performing.
uncle eugene: i'll have the equipment set up.
me: are you sure? that's a lot of money,
uncle eugene: it's okay. i got everything covered. just worry about your outfit.
me: okay. i gotta go shopping then.
uncle eugene: let me pay for outfit too.
me: nah it's okay. c`mon, you're paying for everything. let me at least pay for my outfit.
uncle eugene: but it's your party, i want you to look your best. even max also.
me: let me pay for half please? i feel bad enough.
uncle eugene: anything for such a beautiful girl like you. i'm just so happy that max found someone perfect.
Chapter 35
jeremy: where the fxck is steven?
me: let's just go without him.
stacey: are you guys still fighting?
me: i'm just mad at him because what happened at maria's house.
jeremy: he can't help but get mad at the guy who almost got your pregs.
me: don't tell me you're siding with steven.
jeremy: i'm not choosing sides! i'm just saying what i think.
our conversation/argument was interupted by the person we were actually talking about. i was leaning on the back bumper of jeremy's car and jeremy was standing in front of me. steven sat right next to me. he's just like justin...making like everything was okay; but usually i'm mad. when it comes to steven, i gets uncomfortable.
jeremy: i'll even you guys alone. you got two minutes. after two minutes, i don't care if you guys are still on the bumper.
everyone got into the car. i looked at my watch. okay, 2:45, we got until 2:47. knowing jeremy, i know that he'll actually go on if we're still on the bumper. one night, we had to rush to get to my house before i reached my curfew. i joked that i'd jump out of the car while it's moving. he actually made me do it.
okay so i felt like i had to start my talk with steven. steven's not good with talking about problems.
me: you know i hate that.
steven: what?
me: i hate when people make like everything is okay between us especially when it's the person's fault.
steven: okay yeah. i thought about it and i feel so stupid for getting mad. if you get the chance to talk to him, can you say sorry?
me: that's it? you think i'm gonna forgive you for hurting my friend's feelings just by saying sorry and asking to apologize to him for you? no steven. he really feels unwanted around you guys. he doesn't wanna show his face to you guys.
steven: okay fine. at the party, i'll apologize to him.
me: that's a promise.
steven: don't worry.
i screamed when i felt a pressure from the car on my body. i thought i was the only who felt it but steven grabbed my arm and pulled me to the side as jeremy backed up out of the parking stall.
me: you're gonna kill me one day jeremy. remember you'll be legal in a two months and be trialled as an adult!
jeremy started laughing and steven opened the car door for me. then i hopped inside with steven bumping his head on my butt.
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me: i'm craving chantilly cake.
stacey: let's stop by zippy's before we go home then.
me: i'm broke. i deposited my last paycheck in the bank.
stacey: okay fine, i'll treat tonight.
me: thanks! love you best friend!
stacey: you're treating next paycheck.
me: i know.
me and stacey were at work folding the clothes on the guys side. today was pretty slow. i think it was because it was monday. i bet everyone would rather go cruising then shopping. me and stacey stayed in the corner folding all the clothes that were messed up by these group of guys our age trying to find the perfect shirt to wear on his date tonight. i was getting so mad! learn how to fold!
we were almost done when we heard guys talking. me and stacey like to play a game where we guess what kind of nationality a guy is by the sound of his voice. he sounded like asian-hispanic kind of voice. stacey said he sounded like of eupropean. we peeked over the stack of clothes and we saw daisy walking towards them. so we just listened to them.
daisy: hawh, he's acting weird.
guy #1: you know he fxcks with your heart, i'm gonna kill that fxcktard.
daisy: i don't know what to do with him already. i know he still has feelings for his ex.
guy #2: my sister can go after her.
daisy: then what abtou justin?
guy #1: he'll stay with you.
daisy: what if he doesn't?
guy #1: i'll kill him too.
daisy: no!
guy #2: how long have you guys been together already?
daisy: two months.
guy #1: isn't he graduating this year?
daisy: yeah.
guy #2: he's old enough.
daisy: no! i'm not lettting him join your gang.
guy #1: c`mon, you're gonna have to join too.
daisy: i know but i don't want him to join. what if we break up? that'll be to hard for me.
guy #1: then we kill him.
daisy: hello! that'll be harder for me knowing that my brother killed my ex-boyfriend.
guy #2: but you know that rules: boyfriend or girlfriend of an y.l.d member gotta be in the crew after high school.
we then heard the voices fade away. we peeked over the clothes again and they were gone but i was still too scared to move. i wish i didn't hear that conversation because i was so scared out of my mind. i couldn't move but i was still shaking. i wonder what justin will do.
Chapter 36
the school went crazy when the bell rang. today was the last day for seniors and half of my class was screaming their heads off when they left the rooms. i had steven and jeremy in my class and i walked with them out the door. when we got outside, they both carried me and jeremy had my legs over his head and the rest of my body was over steven. they both started jumping up and down and i started screaming.
me: put me down! ahhhh! if you drop me, i'm suing you guys!
they both started laughing and they finally put me down. gently like i wanted them to. when i thought that experience was over, here comes jerome from behind me and lifted me up and started spinning me around.
me: ahhhh! put me down!
jerome didn't listen. he started running and he ran out into the courtyard. again, i started screaming. then he stopped but i didn't. next thing you know, i was in the air and i landed in strong arms. i knew whose arms it was because of the perfect fit.
justin: wow, and i thought angels didn't fell from heaven like that.
he set me down and i hit his arm. he started laughing.
me: you know how i feel about pick up lines.
justin: c`mon, you used to love it.
me: i know but that's when we were still together.
hawh, i wish i hadn't have said that. the air started filling up with awkwardness.
justin: uhhh, i gotta go. see you around.
me: yeah.
he gave me a little wave and walked away. that just lowered my self esteem. but it really did feel good to be in his arms again. too bad i'll never feel that ever again.
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max: uhh, my uncle wants you to come over tomorrow for the food and he'll take us shopping for clothes.
me: okay, no problem.
max: just call me when you get home.
me: just don't wait up for me okay?
max: i know. it's you mailyn.
max wanted to hang out with me for a while before i headed over to jeremy's house. since today was the seniors' last day, there was a party at jeremy's house. he knew everyone so of course, jeremy's house was the place to be at tonight. i know you're thinking, "can everyone fit in jeremy's house?"
c`mon, 8,000 square feet; three stories; of course
max dropped me out off in the front. it was only 6 and the place was packed! i guess it was because everyone knew that jeremy's parents own a bar in town.
i headed upstairs on the third floor to where the "vip" hang out. it was always us [jeremy, steven, justin, jerome, now zack, stacey, zaileen, me, and maria. sometimes joey, jeff and vince.] and that's who i found.
everyone was screaming when they saw me. what caught my attention was justin. he was the only one to stand up and give me a hug. i poked his forehead and he practically fell on top of me. i looked over to the table to where they were at. i saw shot glasses and bottles of bacardi. yup, he was already drunk.
justin: we're gonna party hardy with some bacardi.
me: if there's any left!
i dragged justin back onto where he was sitting and sat him down. there wasn't any seats so i just shared with justin. i didn't feel like getting too wasted this early so i just started with sprite mixed with b&j.
an hour passed and justin started to sober a little where he can talk clearly. for the past 45 minutes, he was mumbling words i couldn't understand and making up anykind words.
justin: we should try body shots!
jeremy: let's go downstairs then!
we ran-well i ran downstairs. they all took their time. i wasn't drunk yet. they cleared the island in the kitchen and jeremy grabbed some jello shots on the counter.
jeremy: body shots! body shots!
then kat got on the island and lifted up her shirt to where you can see her belly button. jeremy poured enough into it and started sucking until it was gone! then everyone started yelling and screaming.
then more girls started to get onto the island and laying down. random guys i bet didn't even know the girls started to take the shots from them.
i was just cracking up. i was kinda grossed out because half of the people i know don't even clean their belly button.
i started screaming when i was off the ground. i saw who picked me up and it was justin. the island was clear and he set me on top of it. he lifted up my shirt a little and over flowed my belly button. then he started to suck up the shot in my belly button. he sucked it dry. but he didn't stop there. he started to suck all over my whole stomach and went higher and higher to the point where i knew this was wrong so i stopped him.
justin: aww c`mon mai.
i just shook my head. even though justin was drunk and acting stupid, i was pissed at him. i got off the island and went back upstairs to the third floor. that's where i saw zack by himself.
zack: what's up?
me: why are you here by yourself?
zack: i was getting a headache from downstairs.
me: are you drunk?
zack: no, not yet.
me: okay.
i saw shots on the table so i decided to take it. man it felt so good. i love how it feels in my mouth.
zack: justin's really drunk.
me: ehh...
zack: what was that for?
me: he acts stupid when he's drunk.
zack: oh that. yeah, i saw it.
me: why'd you guys let him drink that much for early?
zack: you know when you people are depressed, some likes to drink...
me: yeah.
zack: justin was talking about you when he started drinking. he was crying then he started drinking then he started laughing out of nowhere.
me: oh.
zack: he misses you a lot mailyn.
me: hmm..
zack: you should talk to him.
me: but...
zack: when he's sober.
me: okay.
i drank the rest of the shots on the table. i knew the v.i.p's didn't have any aids or whatever so i just drank all of it. that's when i started to get tipsy. zack was cracking up.
me: help me downstairs!
and he did. even though i was drunk, i knew what was going around me.
when we got downstairs, they were playing beer pong. steven and jerome were playing against each other. steven was already losing.
an hour later, i started to get tired. i was sobering up though. i looked at my cell phone for the time. 11:53pm. i decided to stop drinking already before i go home in an hour. i have to wake up early to go to the mansion at 8 because i had work after.
i headed upstairs and found justin laying down on the bed. he didn't look too good. i went over and sat by him.
justin: hey you.
me: are you okay? did you throw up yet?
justin: nah, not tonight. i'm okay.
me: you're just a hard drinker.
justin: hawh.
me: that's wrong?
justin: i like your eyes. it looks like mine.
me: stupid.
justin: i like your smile. i can see your pearly whites.
me: hmm...
justin: i like your lips, and my lips too.
i was caught off guard when i felt his lips against mine. i was gonna pull back but i couldn't. i really wanted this back. two months without justin's kisses felt so weird. justin pulled back and smiled.
justin: is this ok-
i knew what he was gonna say so i cut him off. i gave him another kiss. the kiss went on for a long time. i slowly got on top the bed next to him. the kiss was so sweet and gentle but now i'm on the bed. the kiss started to get rougher and sloppier and super dirty. justin haven't used to kiss like this. i guess daisy taught him something. good jod daisy. teaching him to be rougher was the only good thing she did.
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i know i've been making the recent chapters kinda short so i made this kinda long. also this is kinda short notice but i won't be updating for a while. i'm starting school in two more weeks and i have this stupid ap chem test on the first day. i need all the studying i can get. sorry guys!
Chapter 37
me: if you were homeless and a random guy came up to you and offered you a billion dollars for a blow job, would you do it?
max: wtf mailyn?
me: would you?
max: no!
me: why not?
max: would you? with a girl?
me: if i made sure she doesn't have aids then yeah.
max: you're gross mailyn.
me: hey! i'm homeless.
max: that's gross. right when we're about to eat.
ironically, that's when uncle eugene came in with the cart of food. the cart had small plates that were covered. i estimated 20 plates on the whole cart. me and max were seated on the small table and uncle eugene placed 5 plates in front of us.
uncle eugene: these are only the appetizers. we'll have a table set for it. every hour, the kitchen crew will change the course.
uncle eugene revealed the first tray. it was bacon cheddar pinwheels. i love bacon and cheese together. it's such a perfect match. i grabbed one threw it in my mouth. it looked pretty small on the tray but when i tried throwing it in my mouth, it couldn't fit. it bounced off my lips and landed right in front of me.
max: mailyn, the purpose of food is to eat it to give us engery. not throwing it on your face.
me: shut up.
i made another attempt to eat it and yes, i actually took a bite of it first and chewed on it and swallowed.
max: good job mailyn.
i shot him and evil glare. he just smiled and finished his "pinwheel."
this went on for about half an hour. after the appetizers, we did pastries, pastas, cakes and pies. i was full.
max: we better burn all of this off while we go shopping.
me: i don't even feel like going shopping anymore. i can't even get up.
uncle eugene: really? that's too bad. i had a surprise for you in the backyard.
me: ugh, this better be worth it.
i tried to get up from my seat but i couldn't. that was how full i was. uncle eugene had to help me up. when i got up, i unbuttoned my pants.
me: ahh, that feels good.
we headed to the backyard and then the doors opened...i exploded.
uncle eugene: surprise!
me: JABBAWOKEEZ!
i knocked down max who was in my way. never get in a girl's way when it comes to the jabbawokeez.. to my surprise, they were running too.
rynan: are you with shiny?
phil: is justin here?
chris: i can't believe i get to meet justin!
ben: where is he?
phi: we should perform with him.
kevin: i wanna meet him?
me: uhhh....we broke up already.
rynan: will he be at the party?
me: no?
chris: aww, fxck this then. we ain't performing at your party?
all: just kidding!
me: huh?
i scratched my head. i looked at them with a blank look on my face.
uncle eugene: you thought only meeting them was your surprise? i got them to perform!
me: ahhh! thanks!
uncle eugene: of course, anything for you guys.
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max: do i have to?
me: c`mon. you're gonna have to get used to this when you get married.
max: when we get married? what? we're not even together and you're already talking about marriage?
me: ugh, never mind.
max: okay, i'm sorry.
uncle eugene went to get some money from the atm and he'd meet us up at charlotte russe. max has never been with me while i shopped. now with justin, he'd try help me look for clothes so we could hurry up and get out of a girl store.
i walked inside and there it was. the most perfect outfit. it was a charcoal off the shoulder kind top. there was only one left. i ran praying it was my size. i grabbed it. MEDIUM! perfect.
max: that was fast.
me: this is only part of it. i need leggings and shoes that match.
max: i'll grab leggings while you looked for shoes.
i looked at him. i could tell that he really wanted to leave. i didn't like it.
he went left and i went right. good thing the store was color coordinated and the black shoes were right there. i tried on the first pair i could've reached. perfect fit.
me: m-
max was right there looking at the leggings. he got the white ones, i was surprised. i thought he was gonna get the black ones.
max: did i do it right?
me: yeah!
uncle eugene came in and we bought it. i was happy. i haven't been shopping in a while.
after we got my clothes, we went to the other side and headed to this is it. i was surprised that max didn't take that long to get his clothes. that retard got his clothes yesterday and put it on hold.
when we headed outside, i saw someone familar. i looked again and it was justin...with daisy's brother and the friend. they were looking at some gold and silver chains and they were talking. we tried not to get notice and get pass them but then i heard initiation and it got my attention.
justin: bro, you know i got your back and i don't need to be in the crew to prove that.
daisy's brother: wtf bro? that's gay. don't fxckin` back down you pussy.
justin: fxck, i got your back already and i'm not in the crew.
daisy's brother: you're graduating in a week. your initiation's in two days.
justin: but-
daisy's brother: you better not back down. you're just gonna show everyone that the still famous justin delacruz is a pussy.
justin: how long do i have to last?
daisy's brother: you gotta swim from one side of the beach to the other. after you gotta last five minutes with us beating you up. no fighting back. then after all of that, me and you one on one for just a minute.
justin: deal.
Chapter 38
i stared at max sleeping soundly on the couch. he looked like a little kid. i love his baby face. he's so cute...but i'm gonna play around with him. i poked his nose to see if he'd wake up. he didn't. he just wiggled his nose. i started giggling. i poked his forehead. he shook his head a little. i poked the bottom of his lip. he licked his lip. i poked his eye and he waved his hand in front of his face. i started giggling to myself. then i poked his cheek. he started to wave his hand again. i started poking all over his hand and he just kept waving his hand.
i did this for about two minutes until he finally woke up. he left his eyes open still but mumbled to himself.
max: stupid flies.
that's when i started bursting out laughing. he opened his eyes and when he saw me, he shut his eyes.
me: aww, are you mad?
he flipped his body to face the other way so he wasn't facing me way. then he put the pillow over his head.
me: i'll take that as a yes.
max: go away.
me: are you seriously mad?
max: yeah. i was sleeping. i was having such a good dream too.
i got up and fixed my clothes. i guess he didn't want me with him right now. i made my way to the door when i felt something wrap around my waist. max pulled me onto the bed and got on top of me.
me: rape! rape!
max: shhh!
ironically, uncle eugene came into the room and started laughing.
uncle eugene: not in my mansion!
me: we weren't doing anything.
he just smiled and shook his head before closing the door.
max: why'd you wake me up?
me: it's 4! you told me to wake you up.
max: oh yeah.
me: come on! i wanna get a snack before we start getting changed.
max: again? didn't you just eat like before i went to sleep?
me: it's already been two hours!
max: "already?" more like "only two hours." are you sure you're not pregnant?
i slapped his forehead. we made a promise not to talk about that. we were gonna put that behind us. promise broken.
i got up from the bed and headed outside to grab some food before i take a shower. hopefully i still fit in my clothes.
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mailyn! mailyn! mailyn!
i was backstage cracking up. i didn't know why the crowd was chanting my name but i was gonna get on stage. i was talking to rynan from the jabbawokeez while i was waiting to get on stage.
me: are you guys ready?
rynan: it looks like the crowd wants you more than us.
me: are you kidding? no one knows about you guys. not even my best friends.
rynan: there is security right?
me: uh...yeeeeeeeah.
rynan: good because if a naked girl comes up on stage and started caressing me, i'm outta here.
max came up from behind me and poked my side. i turned around and pinched his neck. he started to groan out of pain.
rynan: so good how you disipline your boyfriend.
i looked at max and smiled.
me: uhhh, we're not together. we're just friends.
rynan: real-
he was interupted when max waved his hands between mine and rynan's face.
max: mailyn, you're needed on stage.
i smiled at both of them and ran onto the stage. everyone was screaming louder now. uncle eugene handed me the micrpphone and i grabbed it.
me: why you guys cheering for me for? i'm not famous. [pause] but i have special performers that are.
i looked to my right and saw the whole jabbawokeez give me a smile and thumps up. i smiled back and nodded.
me: when i say "jabba" you say "wokeez!"
jabba!
wokeez!
jabba!
wokeez!
me: too bad it's not them. you guys did good though.
the crowd started booing me. jerome, who was right in the front of the stage, shot a rubberband at me.
me: okay okay okay! i'm kidding! here's jabbawokeez!
the crowd start screaming but not that loud as i expected but when they got on stage, the volume blasted to high.
the performance was great. me and max got to dance with them on stage. the "vips" were going crazy so during the last minute, i pulled them up on stage. when their performance was over, chris was about to do and crowd dive and the crowd was getting ready but he only tricked them. some got mad, other got embarrassed.
an hour passed by and i was just going through the crowd trying to go outside to get some fresh air when i heard yelling. i followed the sound and i ended up by the entrance i saw the security trying to get someone of the premises. i got closer and i realized it was justin and daisy's brother.
me: what's going on here...[i looked at the officer's name] officer art.
officer art: they tried to get into the party but they're drunk. this guy right here almost started a fight with someone.
officer art was talking about daisy's brother.
me: i'm sorry. can i have a word with this one?
officer art just smiled and nodded. i pulled justin's arm and brought him to the side. he was drunk.
me: justin, what are you doing here?
justin: er, i came-r to uhh par-tay!
he started to dance in a bouncy way. i was getting so pissed off.
justin: ho-er come i washt invitededed?
me: just go home justin.
justin: whhhhhha.....tuh? me and derreck came for nottting?
so that's his name-derreck.
me: justin, seriously.
justin: okay but just to let you know, i'm gonna be joining yld. tomorrow's my intitiation. tell me if you wanna come?
me: yld?
justin: you like die.
me: what are you talking about?
justin: that's-hawh, achoo! ahhh, so fake that sneeze.
me: you're acting stupid. i hate it when you're drunk.
justin: fxck you too then. they have a class for you in college. it's called bi-otch.
me: is it spelt B-I-O-T-E-C-H?
justin: i told you!
me: stupid, that's bio-tech.
justin: i wanna fxck you!
i was getting tired of him. i just wanted to punch him but i couldn't. he's gonna drop so easy and i don't wanna mess with him now. yld girls are gonna come after me.
i started to walk away but justin grabbed my arm and spun me around. we locked eyes and we stayed like this for a while. at first, i only thing i saw in his eyes were just his regular eyeballs but then his eyes started to soften up and water. that's when i remember how he used to be. he blinked and leaned in for a kiss. it didn't feel like those drunk kisses but the kisses we used to have. this lasted more than i wanted to so i stopped it.
justin: mailyn ferrera, i still love you.
i just started at him. he looked like he sobered up and was serious. from there, officer art kicked them off the premises.
Chapter 39
max: wasn't last night fun?
me: yeah it was.
i took a sip out of my cup. me and max were at the coffee bean shop. i didn't want to get up this morning because it was too early but he said he wanted to talk to me before he went to work.
max: so i heard justin stopped by. you finally invited him?
me: not exactly.
max: huh?
me: he was drunk and security kicked him out.
max: really? why'd he stop by?
me: he told me about the initiation. it's today.
max: when? and you're not going?
i shook my head. i looked at my watch. it was 9:35.
me: it's at 10. i don't wanna go if he's gonna mess up his life by being in a gang.
max: what gang?
me: yld.
max: you like die?
me: you know them?
max: yeah. they were just in the newspaper the other day. it was an article about the police trying to arrest the gang members. if justin joins the gang, he's going to jail. you should stop him.
me: why? i don't care about him anymore.
i looked at him and he was shaking his head in disappointment.
me: what?
max: c`mon, you're such a liar.
me: what are you talking about?
max: you still love him.
me: no i don't. i'm fxckin` over him already. i moved on already. i care about you.
max: oh really? tell me you love me then. you haven't said it yet.
me: what? really?
max: yeah. so say it.
i looked at him. i really didn't want to say it. i didn't love him. yeah he's a great guy but i don't know. i think because what happenened with the whole false pregnancy, that just turned me off and there weren't no sparks between us.
max: see. you love him.
me: no i don't.
max: then say it...or admit that you still love him.
i looked at him and he was just staring at me. he wasn't mad or anything. he actually looks kinda happy. he can read my mind.
me: okay yeah, i do still have feelings for him but still. he's over me.
max: how much do you love him?
me: a lot. when he stopped by last night, he told me he still loved me. even though he was drunk, he got sober when he said that.
max: do you believe it's really him or the alcohol talking?
me: both.
max: more on what side though?
me: him. i know him too well.
max: if you really love him, don't let anything or anyone get in your way. fight for your man girl!
i looked at the time. it was 9:43. i have time to make it.
* * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * *
when i got to the beach, it was so empty. my mind started imagining things. what if justin couldn't handle and he was knocked out and they called the police and they cleared the whole beach because he might not make it.
i shook away what i was thinking. i was about to go back when i heard noise. look like that everyone parked their car on the grass. i got out of my car and started to hurry to the crowd. there were probably 40 people. as i made my way to the crowd, i saw jeremy's car and that's when i started sprinting to the crowd.
when i got there, i saw no one i knew so i tried to make my way into the inside of the crowd. i started out slowly, trying to squeeze through open spaces but when i heard yelling, i started to push to get to the middle.
i accidentally bumped into people praying it wasn't daisy. that's when i heard a familar voice call my name.
stacey: mailyn!
she was with steven, jerome and jeremy. the guys looked pissed and ready to do something.
me: what happenend?
jerome: that's stup-
jerome was interupted when we heard screaming. we looked at what was going on and we saw justin getting pounded by nine different guys. derreck was on the side with his shirt off getting pumped up for his one on one with justin.
i couldn't do anything. no one couldn't. all i could do was watching. i didn't know but i found myself screaming.
i kept looking at derreck who was timing the whole thing. behind him was daisy screaming her head off.
i didn't notice but people started leaving. i guess they didn't feel like watching or it was too loud because everyone was screaming. about half the people was gone.
the five minutes were done. the nine guys got off of him and he looked so weak. he couldn't get up. the nine boys were yelling at him to get up to face derreck.
he rolled over and he saw me. i didn't notice i was crying until i felt tears rolled down my neck. he looked at me and smiled. i waved at him and mouthed the words "i love you."
that's when he got the strength to get up. derreck started bouncing around getting ready to fight with justin but he started to talking.
justin: stop. i'm out.
derreck didn't say anything. instead, he just falsed justin in his face. justin dropped to the ground and i started screaming. i could see the guys getting ready. they were all cracking their knuckles.
derreck: too bad bro! you're almost done.
derreck got on top of justin and started pounding on his face. justin was so weak that he couldn't even fight back. all he could do was yell.
justin: fxck! stop! i'm out. i can't let you guys ruin your life!
justin rolled on top off derreck and started pounding on his face. i was cheering for him. but then derreck pushed him off and justin started flying. derreck got up and started kicking justin.
derreck: too bad. you're life is already ruined. you gave up your fame to be with a loser that you already broken up with.
that's when justin became popeye when he eats his spinach. justin grabbed derreck's leg and flipped him. derreck was on the ground and justin got on top of his locking his arm under his leg. justin went crazy. justin was pounding on derreck's face. derreck's friend told them that time was over but justin kept going. then derreck's face started bleeding.
then the unexpected happened. the nine other guys jumped in and started pounding on justin. then out of nowhere, jerome, jeremy and steven jumped in. they were taking like two guys at a time.
me and stacey were screaming. everyone else dung out. me and stacey didn't know what to do. we couldn't stop them because i know they'd bring us in it too.
seconds felt like hours but everything was going by so fast. all we could do was watch. jeremy was getting pounded on. jerome was flying everywhere. steven was swinging weak punches.
we-woo! we-woo!
i started panicking. that was the cops. yld dung out into someone's truck. i saw stacey writing down the license plate. the police got here and i noticed justin was nowhere in sight. i started panicking but the ambulance came behind the cops.
the cops told us to go with the guys into the ambulance and that they'd talk to us there.
me: but there's one more. my friend. i don't know where he is.
cop: justin delacruz?
me: yeah, where is he?
cop: he was the one who called. he's in the ambulance already. go inside with him.
i ran to the ambulance and hopped in. justin was laying down and he was knocked out. i started crying. i grabbed his hand and squeezed it.
me: justin, i love you so much. please be okay. wake up. justin, please wake up.
he didn't move but he was breathing. i saw his stomach. his other hand was on his side and i went to grab it. that's when i noticed a red spot on his shirt. i thought it was probably derrek's blood but it looked too much to be derreck's. so i lifted up his shirt and noticed a stab wound.
Chapter 40
i screamed as the class president, aaron dansalan, came on stage to make the last speech of the
ceremony. he cleared his throat and everyone started giggling. aaron was the type of person that'd
make a serious situation hilarious. looks like he was actually gonna be serious today.
aaron: this morning, i had a 5 sentence speech to share for this graduation. it wasn't until 2 hours
before i got here that i had the perfect speech. my parents and i were looking at my first bath, first step,
first day of school, first prom and my first fitting for my gown. i'm not much of an emotional guy so i
don't cry...but reminiscing through 18 years of my life made me realize i need to be a man and be
serious. i won't be living with my parents anymore. trust me, my stuff are already packed. after this,
we're going apartment hunting. on my way here, i was reading a magazine. in that magazine had a
quote, "shake what yo momma gave you." [people laugh] to me, that doesn't only mean "move
them hips girl." to me, that means take what you learned from your parents and show if off. without our
parents, we wouldn't be here; but there's also our school and teachers and our friends but whatever.
they don't give allowance. [people laugh] just kidding! we love you guys and we love the class of
2008! we did it guys!
the crowd went wild. caps were going everywhere on the stage. i wasn't sure if it was me but i saw a
gown flying up in the air. on the podium, i saw jerome jump onto jeremy's back. i tried to look for
steven but all i could see was this guy and girl making out. i tried to look for steven again but all i could
keep my eyes on was that couple making out.
but oh well. i just cheered for the old futs who just graduated. i honked my air horn and started
screaming and jumped around like crazy.
15 minutes later we were waiting for the graduates outside to give them their leis and congradulate
them.
when i saw jerome with jeremy, i screamed and jumped on top of both of them. i had an arm on each.
they started to bounce around with me still around their arms. we almost fell over but jerome had
good balance. when i left go of them two, kat jumped on jeremy and stacey jumped on jerome.
when both their little make out session ended, i gave them their leis and their floatee that i wrote a
super long message on and put it around their waist.
kat stayed with jeremy as me and stacey along with jerome made our way to look for steven. on our
way to steven, we bumped into joey and gave him a lei and a hug and a smaller floatee than jerome
and jeremy's. when we got to the k section of steven kim and again we saw that same couple making
out. i scanned again and then i noticed something, the guy kissing the girl was steven!
when we got to a good enough distance, he saw us from the corner of his eye and pulled back. then
he made like nothing happened and started yelling.
steven: hey whe-
me: whose your friend?
i pointed to the he's been macking on. i wasn't pissed or grossed out. i was actually happy for him. it
was kinda funny though. it's weird. out of the five years i've known him, he's always shy and doesn't
believe in pda. the only time steven showed affection towards a girlfriend was when we were all at
justin's house and he was ashamed to even give her a peck. now he's on stage in front of thousands
of people making out with a girl...who we never met before of even seen around school/
steven: you don't remember her?
he put his arms around her. she started giggling and stuck out her hand.
rizza: hi. i'm rizza. remember me?
i shook her hand and just stared at her trying to remember if i knew her or not. yeah she might look
familar but she made like we were friends before.
me: uhh, no. sorry.
she started laughing more. then jeremy and steven starting laughing with her.
me: are you guys trying to mess with my mind or something?
rizza: you don't remember me? you don't remember who started calling you "milf?"
haha, now i remembered. rizza was justin's ex-girlfriend in intermediate. i hated her when they were
together but when they broke up, she was really cool but justin hated that we were really close. he got
over it though.
she gave me the name milf because i didn't know what it meant. so the guys started calling me milf
for a while. when they stopped, rizza was doing the "mash" game with my name and justin's name
because she was teasing that i liked him. so she wrote down my full name: mailyn isabell lapitan
ferrera. the initials spelt out M.I.L.F and it wasn't until a week later i found out what it actually meant
until there was this pop up online about a pornsite about Mothers, I Like Fxck.
i gave her a hug and she started laughing. the hug lasted for a long time and i let go first when i heard
her crying.
me: why the fxck are you crying? girl, you should be screaming since you're out of high school!
she started laughing and she wiped her tears. then she sighed.
me: what's wrong?
rizza: it's weird. i never really had friends like you. so energetic and getting me out of the house! now
i'm home everyday.
me: we should hang out sometime.
rizza: okay, fo-
me: WAIT A MINUTE!!!!
that's when a realized something. but i just wish i was more calm and quieter because half of the
people that was around us froze and looked at me. rizza looked like she almost had a heart attack
because her eyes were so big.
rizza: what?
me: is steven your...boyfriend?
she started cracking up. it lasted for a while. she stopped when she started coughing.
rizza: ask him.
we turned to steven...well where we thought steven was. come to find out that we was on the side by
the pond with jerome looking at the fish. me and rizza ran over there and poked his side. we didn't
even know that he was leaning over the railing and he almost fell in but me and rizza grabbed his legs
in time. when he got off the railing, he grabbed his chest.
steven: i could've drown!
rizza: in two feet deep water?
steven: you know i can't swim! i wouldn't have got out of there.
rizza: you could of stood up!
steven: shh! i'm trying to teach you guys a lesson!
steven gave rizza a hug. they make like i'm stupid so i pinched steven's earlobe. he hates it when i do
that.
steven: i don't think you're stupid!
ahh, he knows me so well.
steven: okay yeah fine, we are together!
me: that wasn't so hard!
rizza: same old mailyn.
me: steven and rizza sitting on a bench, they really love each other because their good stench.
jerome: stupid.
me: hey, was i talking to you? i don't think so. i forgot you guys are here.
rizza: that's cool. all the filfs have milfs.
me: uhh...
rizza: right, sorry. how's justin?
me: i don't know. i haven't talked to him ever since the whole thing happened. it's been three days.
rizza: we should go see him.
steven: yeah, we planned to go after. ye'know, to have our own little graduation ceremony for him.
it took an hour for us to get going. everyone was running around giving leis, screaming and jumping,
taking pictures...i mean, yeah, this is a special day but i really wanna get to the hospital and see justin.
he got his surgery today and they haven't told us if there's any arteries that are damaged or whatever.
but we finally got to his room. 4H. we walked in and there it was. the empty bed.
i started freaking out. i couldn't believe this. justin's parents would've told us something. i ran out of the
room and bumped into a nurse.
me: hi, excuse me nurse but do you know what happened to justin delacruz? he was in this room. he
went into surgery today and i haven't had any information yet.
nurse: the stab victim? oh yes, i'm not exactly sure what happened, i heard a lot of blood was lost but dr. kanzler is in room 5A right by the elevator.
me: okay thanks!
i sprinted to the elevator but it was taking so long. i swear. i just wanted to get out of the elevator and climb onto the elevator shaft and climb. finally the elevator stoped. i ran to my right but it started with 5Z so i ran the other way.
and that's when i saw it. 5A. i ran towards that room but i bumped into a nurse with a patient in a wheelchair.
me: oops, i am soooo sorry.
that's when i heard what i've been wanted for the past three days.
justin: i'm okay mailyn.
i looked at it was justin in the wheelchair. i screaming and gave him a hug. i almost collasped on his lap but i caught my balance. he started groaning though.
justin: i got stitches on my pelvic.
nurse: pleasse be careful. his room in this way so please follow us.
i looked up at the nurse who had that concerned face that said "he's so young, please be careful." his room was 5G. inside was a whole bunch of leis and gifts. he couldn't walk at grad because what happened.
the nurse helped him up from the wheelchair and got up on his bed. jerome helped him up also. then the nurse exited the room.
justin: how was graduation?
jerome: it would've been better if you were up on stage with us.
justin: at least i graduated though.
jeremy: so did the cops arrest yld?
justin: you didn't read the news or watch the news? it was on this morning. the whole yld got arrested...even daisy.
me: really?
i was so happy. but weirdly [my new word] the room got quiet.
jerome: i'm gonna get some coffee.
stacey: i'll go with you.
then they left.
jeremy: i gotta pee.
justin: you can use my bathroom.
jeremy: okay.
kat: i'll go with you while i wash my face.
then they left.
steven: i gotta call rizza.
justin: my ex?
me: yeah! i couldn't believe-
that's when we heard the door close. then it was only me and justin in that room.
justin: you saved my life.
me: how? you were the one who called 911.
justin: if you didn't come, i could've died.
me: don't thank me, thank max.
justin: what the fxck did he fxckin' do? how'd that fxcker help?
me: justin, stop please. max is really a good person. he was the one who told me to go. he made me realize that i couldn't live without you. he made me realize that i need you in my life forever. he made me fall in love with you all over again.
justin: oh cool. i'll talk to him. i feel bad about everything that happened. i mean, both of us almost got killed.
me: it's a sign. god is trying to keep us together.
justin: i love you mailyn.
me: i love you justin.
i sat down on the side of his bed and gave him a kiss. it felt so good. better than the last time. he didn't have tequila this time. haha.
me: i got you something.
justin: what?
i grabbed something from my purse and handed it to him. it was a flat and wrapped in paper that said "i love you" all over.
justin: what is it?
me: open it idiot.
he opened it up and it was a dvd. i was working on it the whole day yesterday.
justin: what is it?
me: i made a video and it has every single moment that you did something sweet to me.
justin: you got that much on camera?
me: yeah.
justin: you know what next week thursday is right?
me: yeah, august 10.
justin: you know what happened on that day a year ago?
me: yeah, you were my boyfriend.
justin: i don't wanna lose you. i'm too scared to let you go. c'mon, without each other, we'll die. two months apart was hell.
me: i don't ever want to lose you. i love you so much...boyfriend.
justin: "boyfriend." i miss that. it's just like music to my ears.
Chapter 41
ONE WEEK LATER...
the whole shabang was at justin's house. we were in the backyard eating since the boys felt like barbequing. it was about 10 pm and things started to quiet down.
justin: it's such a perfect night. i'm so glad that i got out of the hospital today.
me: me too!
we were cuddling on those cushion-y beach chair looking this. i don't know what it's called but me and him were cuddled on it with a blanket on ourselves.
jeremy: you know we didn't do a senior prank.
justin: yeah, why didn't you guys?
jeremy: because you weren't with us remember? we promised in the beginning of the year to do a senior prank together.
justin: aww, so sweet you guys.
me: that's how much they love you.
steven: for sure!
with stacey laying down on his lap, jerome stood up making half of stacey's body fall onto the ground.
jerome: i have an idea you guys! since we didn't do a senior prank.
stacey: are we gonna get arrested?
justin: who said you coming upcoming seniors are in it?
me: hey!
i slapped his neck. he started laughing and started saying "ouch" after.
jerome: no way. if we get arrested, we might see yld inside.
me: what? they're in jail?
jeremy: stupid! never saw the news? hello! front page sistah! like oh shaaa!
he did the pose and all the guys started doing it and leaning back with it.
stacey: so what's the plan?
jerome: oh yeah. uhhh...justin, you got those universal remotes shxt thingy?
justin: yeah.
he looked at me then he started cracking up. i pouting and made a mad face.
me: don't!
justin: me and mai went to the store to buy one like three months ago. at first so she was like, "hooo so big this calculator. how come there's a play button and stuff?" come to find out, it was a universal remote.
they all start cracking up. zack-yeah he's with us-was pounding his hand on the table. he was on the urge of crying.
jerome: okay. my brother was watching the tv in the living room and i was checking out our new remote. he starts yelling that the house was haunted and that the tv would turn off, change the volume, and change channels by itself. i was cracking up!
me: you're so mean...but that sounds like fun. my neighbors are so irritating. most saturday morning super early, get the karaoke blasting. sometimes like late at night too.
justin: we should go then!
it took us ten minutes to put everything away. we all got in jeremy's car. it's black and it's big so yeah.
we got by my house and saw the neighbors in the garage. the tv was on and they were singing karaoke. these people were like 30 years old so yeah. i couldn't tell them to turn it down because i know they'd think i'm a hypocrite if i had parties. fxckin` asses.
i pressed the off button hoping it'd really work. and it did. the tv turned off and they started freaking out. they checked the electricity box and everything. then they went back to singing. i pressed the off button again and to my surprise, the garage started closing. i was cracking up. we all were.
so we did this for like two hours. going through the whole neighborhood and to people we didn't like.
we got back to justin's house around 12 and everyone left. justin's gonna drop me off home later.
when they left justin's house, justin picked me up bridal style and he ran upstairs. as he did, i was trying not to scream.
justin: do you know what today is?
me: our one year anniversary.
justin: i love you so much.
me: i love you too.
he grabbed his face and i started kissing him. he started to breathe heavily and when we got to his room and he opened the door. he threw me onto the bed and got on top of me. he started to unbutton everything. even though this was so dirty, it felt so right. justin was mine and mine forever.
SUPER CUTE AND DELICIOUS!
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